/jp/ - Otaku Culture

>>7768964

That picture made me cum in my pants. Does that count?

anxieties like something that I'm worried about?

There is one but I'm not allowed to talk about it.

That tummy...

Few days before I got dumped by my internet girlfriend.
My loneliness levels were critical and I guess I annoyed her to death. Doesn't help that she had her own problems.
Surprisingly, I'm feeling better than ever now.
Moral: don't deal with humans, they make you sad.

Last night I had a pretty bad dream that unraveled itself as thoughts instead of abstract events. Usually I stay fairly calm, but had I been experiencing that extreme tenshion while conscious, I'd feel like I would be on the edge of death.

>>7768986
> internet gf
LOL

>>7768964
Reported. Keep your ronery blogging threads out of here.

>>7768993
I know, I know. But I enjoy that kind of stuff.

Last night I had a pretty bad dream that unraveled itself as thoughts instead of abstract events. Usually I stay fairly calm, but had I been experiencing that extreme tenshion while conscious, I'd feel like I was on the edge of death.

>>7768991
Oh god I know...its fucking perfect.t.

I have been bothering a very dear friend of mine quite a lot lately. I'm worried about so many things like my housing situation, trying to become a person in the real world and wanting to go to school, which I can't pay for. I also want to try to go on disability for a problem I've had for a few years now. I'm not really sure what to do and I stress out very easily which has caused problems between me and one of my only and close friends. I don't feel like this world wants me anymore.

>>7769033
/jp/ wants you. hang in there

Who gives a shit reported.

>>7768964
I haven't recently. But uni starts on Monday
and my stress is building up.

Fuck I just wish I could stay in my room.

>>7769033
At least you have other people to rely on.

>>7769042
>/jp/ wants you
Not a shitty blog poster like that.

This whole thread can go suck a penis.

>>7769058
Shitty blog poster here. I posted then I reported the thread.

Summer is ending, I'll have to go to Uni soon, I'm so scared I find myself crying in my bed almost every night.
"University uriduit" I hate you, fucking captcha. ;_;

Delete thread please~

A few days ago, when my mom basically told me she didn't want me in her house anymore, I had to go hide in the bathroom and let it all out in the form of letting my eyes get teary while thinking about how shitty my life is right now.

Is that anxiety? I honestly don't know what counts.

>>7769064
Hang in there. Its only overwhelming for the first week, then it settles down.

I've spent all of my life until now being a student and I still feel as bad as I did when I was in first grade.

>>7769064
Shutup youngling I graduate in December.

>>7769064
wahh wahh poor you poor little thing has to blogpost to deal with his problems

>>7769064
Fucking normalfag.

>>7769086

Doing it wrong, newfag.

I used to get anxious at everything, washing the dishes, going to class, buying groceries, you name it I was anxious about it.
I bought a camera about a year ago and now I take pictures of everything all the time, it really calms me down.
I have about ~45,000 pictures from the last year.

>>7769102
>>7769082
>>7769064
Not bumping does not justify bad posting.

>>7769118
Seems pretty Otaku Culture to me.
If this was still Japan/General I'd have to agree.

>>7769118
Newsflash: angst is Otaku Culture.

>>7768964
Art like this is gonna turn me pedo.

I hate dealing with people I know.
I don't have any trouble with people in anonymous setting - I don't mind being in a crowd, going grocery shopping or doing anything like that.
But if I meet people I know from back in my school days, or other random acquaintances, even if we just meet on the street and greet each other or shake hands, it leaves me feeling horrible.
It's probably got part to do with how ashamed I am of who I was back when I was in school(seriously, being a shut-in neckbeard otaku nerd right now is a huge improvement over the kind of self-absorbed jerk I was before) and part with feeling bad for being stuck in the same place when everyone is moving forward. But that's not all, since I'm similarly anxious about meeting people I only met a year or so ago.
And then there's the trouble I'm having with recognizing faces, sometimes I don't whether it's someone I know until they get really close.
I wish I could just move to a town where nobody knows me and I have no family whose friends I'm supposed to acknowledge, but alas, that's impossible.

>>7769181
I have that problem too.
I have to drive to the next town to go to walmart or grocery shop because too many people I knew from back in school work locally and I don't want to see them.

>>7769118
Why do you do it then

>>7769204
Oh snap

Dropped out of university years ago after the anxiety and stress that had been mounting up over the years got too much. I occasionally take the bins out at night / took a parcel to the post office once, but other than that I've not left my room since. Systematically cut off all friends but one, I have little doubt I'd have killed myself if it wasn't for him. Haven't seen him in RL for years though.

I've got so much time to take it easy
now that I am on my own

>>7769215
At what year did you quit? I'm on my senior year and its getting to be pretty overwhelming. Now that classes have started to get immensely difficult I'm breaking, I just can't handle it.

>>7769081
I blogpost in a blog thread, but I report it anyway. As everyone else, right ?
No I don't deal with my problems that way, I run away from them.

Every time my mother visits. This has been going on for almost a year now. She usually just comes here and sits around not doing anything. I usually wake up and masturbate, but when I wake up and look out the window and see her car I start to feel sick and angry because I can't masturbate and instead of the nice silence I'm used to I hear random yells from my sisters who visit with her, or their shows from the TV, or their music from the computer in the kitchen. It's gotten to the point where when I wake up and see her car there I go out and ask her how long she's going to be here or I just turn off the wireless to flush them out. Lately I've been feeling very anxious and depressed knowing she can show up at any time and completely ruin my day. Last time she was here she came around noon and left around 10PM. I ended up telling her she came over way too much and eventually broke down in tears while explaining myself to her. She recently got divorced from my step-father who was so abusive towards me that I ended up living with a relative. She never seemed to care much for me while growing up and always either sided with my step-father or did nothing when he wrongfully scolded or hit me. I don't think she's ever taken me seriously in my entire life. Now she expects me to act friendly towards her? No way.

>>7769274
After I typed this I looked outside and she's here. What the fuck.

>>7769292
Good. Get a knife and stab her.

>>7768964

As soon as I looked at that picture.

>>7769274
Can't you just let her not enter your place?

>>7769274
I wish I had a mother who pestered me.

Faggot.

>>7769322
I'd give you mine, but she died recently. Finally.

>>7769274
Are you still living with your relatives or on your own?
Because if on your own, just say that you're not comfortable with her coming over, and if she insists just don't let her in.
You're not in any obligation to be friendly with her.
If you're past the "I have to love her since she's my mother" phase and can actually see what role she played in your life, it's just about time you stood up to her.
I've seen so much unhappiness come from people trying to keep imaginary ties with people hurting them just because of social pressure and because it's "family" in real life that it makes me physically sick just reading about it now.

The last time I lost it to the point where I know I can kill (myself) is when the only thing that made me feel anything at all in the last years, a certain girl (yeah, yeah), got a boyfriend. I knew I was going to return to half-braindead again, so why not going to Gensokyo instead?
I didn't have the guts, so I'm back to no feelings at all.

Furthermore, these last days, the little 'entertainment' I could get from VN/anime/reading/ero is getting closer and closer to zero. Today I spend 17 hours sleeping. I think my time is approaching.

>>7769340
How did she die?

>>7769064
wahhh wahhh wahhh cry more you lil' bitch boy. kill yourself now if you can't even deal with little kid problems.

>>7769274
>>7769292

Tell her everything thats on your mind, tell her how you feel about what she has done to you. Tell her what parts of her behaviour that you feel are unacceptable, (if there is anything about her that you like then mention it as well).

Next you tell her what you want your relationship to be, what she must accept about you and what sort of behaviour you demand of her - Be very clear about everything and tell her what the consequences will be if she does not accept your conditions.

Don't sugarcoat anything but keep it constructive, writing a list is highly recommended.

>>7769481
Got drunk and drove down the wrong side of the freeway. Seriously.

>>7769389
Don't do that anon!
Find a new hobby!

I get super anxiety just from driving and normal stuff, its most likely biological and i started taking prozac. I was actually getting panic attacks for being sacred f taking the meds but i kind of got over it,

>>7769523
I'm kind of opposite of that. I'm usually only comfortable when driving. I'm in my own 3 ton box and no one can bother me.

>>7769518
I don't find anything interesting, and I can't try 'extreme' hobbies due to my fear of heights and damaging my body (a cut is fine, but a losing a tooth or broken bone is a horryfing thought).

>>7769524
My family tells me to get a license, but knowing how stupid I am, I'm always thinking I'd run over somebody/smash the car on my first day driving. One second you are distracted by some fantasy, and the next you killed somebody. No, I'll never drive.

>>7769550
You don't really need an extreme hobby.
You could play darts or become a professional lego builder.

>>7769491
Wah-wah hoo-wah be-doo-be-doo yourself.

>>7769550
>I'd run over somebody/smash the car
One of the reasons I got into motorcycles. Sure, you'll damage someone else's car in a collision, but you PAY for you stupidity on a bike with your body, and are forced to learn just to survive.

>>7769345
I'm still living with the relatives whose house I got moved to.

>>7769550
So, you are afraid of heights, afraid of pain/bodily damage, afraid of killing someone and you don't drive.
Are you me?

>>7769584
I forgot to mention the unrequited love and sleeping all day. We should talk off of /jp/

>>7769584
>>7769590
You have a great need for other people to like and admire you. You have a tendency to be critical of yourself. You have a great deal of unused capacity which you have not turned to your advantage. While you have some personality weaknesses, you are generally able to compensate for them. Disciplined and self-controlled outside, you tend to be worrisome and insecure inside. At times you have serious doubts as to whether you have made the right decision or done the right thing. You prefer a certain amount of change and variety and become dissatisfied when hemmed in by restrictions and limitations. You pride yourself as an independent thinker and do not accept others' statements without satisfactory proof. You have found it unwise to be too frank in revealing yourself to others. At times you are extroverted, affable, sociable, while at other times you are introverted, wary, reserved. Some of your aspirations tend to be pretty unrealistic. Security is one of your major goals in life.

I have no job, no college education, no friends, and my family detests me. I will never be able to make it on my own. It's impossible to support yourself out there when you don't know anyone and have no qualifications. I don't even like watching anime or playing video games anymore, all I do is browse /jp/. The more I stay here, the more I realize how terrible and hopeless things are, and I get headaches.

Maybe it's better if I kill myself. It's been too many years as a NEET.

I spent over $3000 and countless hours fixing my car, leaving me pretty much broke. And although it runs, there are a few nasty oil leaks and a couple of alarming symptoms. I can't even mess with it anymore because I start feeling like I'm going to throw up.

>>7769598

That description fits just about anyone, did you snatch that from a horoscope?

>>7769630
I would have took that $3000 and bought a new car.
I got a 98 ford explorer(the V8 4 door) for $2300 and it's run like a champ (short of leaking about a quart of transmission fluid every 6 months) for ~40,000 miles since I got it for a grand total of 220,000 miles.

>>7769598
Masterfully crafted paragraph.
But I wonder, does it only apply to a certain part of the population, of which /jp/ tends to be a subset of? Or maybe the average Earthling feels identified with it too?

>>7769590
I thought I had got over it, but my fear of rejection and hating others still runs strong. On the rare? occasions when I could contact someone as myself, and not as the normalite I often present myself as, my heart rate just skyrockets.
Anyways, what do you suggest?

>>7769621
Go outside! Learn a trade! Exercise! Go to bars! You still have hope, anon!
...Yup, it's easy to say it.

>>7769598
Oh, I see now.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Forer_effect

>Go outside! Learn a trade! Exercise! Go to bars!

>nt where I know I can kill (myself) is when the only thing that made me feel anything at all in the last years, a certain girl (yeah, yeah),

>Doing it wrong, newfag.

What the fuck happened to /jp/

>>7769657
I'll put my email in the field and you can send me an email. We don't have to get too acquainted just become basic online friends, if you'd like.

>>7769653
It has sentimental value and was my prized possession for years. And after it exploded I pretty much told myself if I'm not able to repair it on my own then I'm useless. After buying a new motor and going through it completely, I guess I overestimated myself. I can't even bring it here to mess with because I live in a goddamn apartment, 30 mile drive to my grandma's place.

>>7769680
>>7769685

>>7769657
>Go outside! Learn a trade! Exercise! Go to bars! You still have hope, anon!

Not samefag, but when I did that back in highschool, I still felt this horrible empty feeling in my soul. It didn't matter how much I tried to distract myself with, it was just there.

Friends do help, but they can be substituted pretty well.

Normalfags are always complaining about how sad and unfulfilled they are. Doing all of those things will not help you.

>>7769685
To each their own.
I love my explorer to death but if the transmission or something else expensive goes I just plan on buying another 98 explorer.

>>7769672
Maybe you should, you know, follow Marisa's advice, so you can learn some reading comprehension, newfriend.

>>7769680
Roger.

>>7768986

Happened to me about 5 years ago when I was a misanthrope and hated people.

Now I'm a misanthrope who hates people and is prone to black out during which things get destroyed. Thankfully, the blackouts are infrequent enough for me to not care, and so far I haven't actually hurt another person, just my own stuff. And a wall. Thing is, I'm emotionally dead the rest of the time, and I'm pretty sure that's a bad thing.

I guess the closest I've come to that was when I was in some kind of con (don't ask why), and my sister wanted to go in a maid cafe. I couldn't get in because of how weird that situation felt to me.
Then again, there were those times when my father wanted to move or cut my Internet connection for no reason. being neet is suffering

I have been waiting for the man I love for almost a year now. He has a girlfriend, and I'm really glad that he's happy with her. I will never stop loving him. But I hope he at least remembers me sooner or later. I've decided that if he marries someone other than me, I'm going to Gensokyo. Maybe I'll see some of you there.
Sage because I am ashamed of blogging.

>>7768964
sauce on the image op?

>>7769727
Fag

Coming from a poor family and lacking any talent- my grace period is running out
Being 21 I have to get out, people are already getting tired me being around
So it's either
>Get a factory job and labor away for the rest of my life spending half my day around people I hate
>Join the military and labor away for years spending 24 hours a day around people I hate

Also whenever I lay in bed I have a dull buzzing headache that will sometimes go away if I think about things that arouse me. Anyone else do this?