/jp/ - Otaku Culture

ah, well..i walked to a store today, but it was closed. i had to walk home and it got kinda cold out.

Yeah, I haven't brushed my teeth in a while, I keep putting it off. Is it better to brush them once a day or never brush them?

I love you all

How or where do you guys get your money?

Well, I showered today. Last was about a week ago. Also brushed my teeth.

>>6870723
Welfare.

>Last was about a week ago

Do you think that's impressive?, i haven't done it in more than 1 month.

The world wants me to stay a NEET.
There's absolutely no work that would accept me other than working the register or telemarketing, and I couldn't deal with those.
I've already given up on earning anything more than minimum wage, but there's still nothing.
Fuck, thanks to retarded laws, I can't even get a job guarding some random office building, since they only want people with some degree of disability(since part of the pay is refunded by the government in such cases).

>>6870732
No, I don't. I have not showered for a month or maybe longer too. I just mentioned how long it was since the last time now.

>>6870725
Good job! Feels quite fresh doesn't it?
I should shower too. Havent done it in 5 days. When my hair starts to feel slightly greasy, it's about time I shower.

walked around the block today, entered in a catholic church to explore it. Still haven't found something to do in 5 months, however I keep playing the violin and it makes my family and neighbors forgive my NEETness. I also love you all!

Why did you put BUN in the name field?

You haven't washed in a month...why?

>>6870748
Ask yourself "why not" instead.

I was a NEET for about a year, ended up being an alcoholic just wasting the days away watching TV and playing games

lets just say getting used to everyday life wasn't easy

>>6870756

well you must feel unclean after 2-3 days of not washing.

>>6870760
Throw out the tv and keep the alcohol. You'll meet your badass ancestor.

>>6870767
Feel unclean? I don't know that feeling.

NEET/hikki here, haven't bathed since early october, my record was two years.

Haven't spoken to a soul in almost six months.

Feels grey man.

I've been thinking about going down the NEET path but there are complications. I don't wish to burden my parents or anyone else, I hate that sort of thing. However, I can't keep living the way I am now, being forced to choose between living in minimum wage hell, learning to find a job doing something I hate for the rest of my life, or living in the street. It's a no win situation.

Why don't you guys shower? Taking care of your body is a beautiful thing. Just because we are shut-ins does'nt mean we can't balance our nerdy hobbies with daily body maintenance.

>>6870782
Life on the street is scary, because you have to talk to other homeless from time to time or they'll kill you.

Or starve you and kill you over time.

neet here
i cant find a job, almost 2 months now

>>6870782

I was a NEET.

I am now a History teacher...feels good man

My father had me put oil in the car today. I didn't know how and had to fumble around for a little while before I figured it out. I was so embarrassed to be outside doing that.

>>6870796
Congrats, now get out of NEET&Hikki General.

>>6870785
It takes time and is a chore. Also pointless if you aren't going to see anybody anyway.

I really need a drink, but I'm out of alcohol.

I won't be going outside without any.

The days will turn into weeks, but what will become of me?

I was so careful, always balancing it, always sure I had enough. Mess up once in this cruel world, and that's it.

>>6870813
Drink some listerine. It's not denatured, because it goes in your mouth. Get the brown stuff, less mint and thymol in it.

>>6870817
That shit is like $5 a bottle, I'm not made of money I don't have any of that shit.

>>6870808
Taking a hot shower feels good, though.

>>6870808
Don't know for anyone else but most of the time I won't think about it or when I think about it everyone else in the house is sleeping and I don't want to wake them up with the sound of running water.

>>6870767
>>6870785

Taking a bath is too fucking annoying.

I'd bathe more often but my autism flares up what with all the water violating my personal space and all..

>>6870807
What and miss out on this phenomenon of the 21st century. No way.

Today I beat Dead Space 2 and fapped to some shemale porn. I should probably try out the multiplayer soon because it's a rental and they only give you a two day trial to play the multiplayer unless you bought the game

I havn't showered since before summer

I just can't bring myself to do it

>>6870847
rent games, play them with other people

The fuck am I reading?

Games are to be played hundreds of times in the dark by yourself.

I never take a bath because i hate how my skin feels afterwards.

I take bathes every night.

But that's because I have satin bedding, and it gets icky if it's dirty.

T'is an orgasm on smooth skin though

>>6870854

I believe thats your skin breathing

I woke up and had a fried spam and egg sandwich for breakfast. It was my first time frying with lard and I don't think I liked the flavor it added. To wash the bad taste out of my mouth I took four dollars on the counter and drove to 7 Eleven, where I bought myself a large Slurpee and a Dove chocolate bar. I drank the Slurpee in the car and ate the chocolate in my room. All in all it's been a good day.

Yesterday I asked my mom about ordering wings from Pizza Hut since they're 50 cents on Wednesdays, so I'm going to be getting wings for dinner in a few hours. After I eat I'm guessing I'll feel too weak to do much anything and will probably lay in bed while posting on /jp/ until I go to sleep. Speaking of which, does anyone have back pain when laying on their backs with a laptop? It only happens when I'm using my laptop. If I'm watching TV my back doesn't hurt. Am I doing it wrong? How do you lay in bed with your laptop?

>>6870850
I enjoy multiplayer games as long as people aren't talking. It's on the xbox though so I'm sure all my teammates will be whiny 14 year olds who I will let die on purpose

I went out today to buy some boneless chicken stuff, it comes with this awesome Heinz BBQ dip. Thinking about maybe looking for a job now, I need a new PC and I want to be able to go to comiket this year.

I had a really nice shower tonight, I used some Natural Source Extra Strong Mint thing.

Oh, and I'm addicted to KnT S2.

>>6870864
I lay on my bed with my desktop, thus necessitating laying on my side.

I'm not strong enough to keep my monitor suspended.

After a week of replacing my lunch with a can of slimfast and doing a bunch of sets of crunches throughout the day I have lost 5 pounds

>>6870869
I fucking love mint soap stuff, makes cleaning your butthole and dick a dream.

I shall be looking into this brand, if it truly feels minty. Do not fail me anon, I have not much money to spare.

>>6870860

Well it feels awful.

>>6870879
>>6870869
I like lavender scented soaps the most. It's a bit embarrassing buying them at the store though. The soaps marketed towards males just always seem so pungent, almost disgusting.

>>6870879
Dear anon, allow me to inform you of something called Fisherman's Friend, pop one of these things in, or crush it into some water and you shall feel such a sensation that even altoids will seem tame. Use three with a small amount of water when fapping and you will never go back.

>>6870923
What the shit, I don't know if I should love you or hate you.

Now I need to remember where the fuck I got these things from. And fucking THREE? I used one and it was intense, you're a masochist if ever I saw one.

>>6870847
Speaking of which, how is the multiplayer in dead space 2? I heard it's like left 4 dead IN SPACE

Oh look it's /r9k/ all over again. I sure am mad grrrrr.

DDos yourselves you massive faggots.

I'll tell you guys an experience of mine.

Earlier this year I got summoned for jury duty, it would be the first time I'd left the house in about a year.
Coincidentally, this is also my first time being summoned for jury duty, so not only would I be in a completely new environment, but I'd be doing so alone (father can't accompany me and it's also embarrassing to have your dad hold your hand through jury duty.) and with my problems as a Hikkikomori and NEET.

My dad dropped me off at a building where I was told to go (Civil affairs, I think it was...) and so I'm on my own now. I'm all dressed up, had my hair cut, shaved and everything for this. I stumbled into a lady (or did she run into me?) either way, she dropped coffee on me and I ended up having to quickly take off my outer shirt so that the one under it wouldn't stain. I ended up taking almost both off, the second shirt coming up enough that it revealed my nipples. I'm super fucking skinny and it's really embarrassing and I was about to cry right there , I'm sure my eyes had been real fucking watery. The lady noticed (I think) and she took me to another room to get cleaned up. Fortunately The t-shirt I was wearing underneath the long sleeved one on top, was black and it barely got wet so no one would notice even if it had stained, but either way I felt horribly about my skinny arms that people would now be able to see, combined with my pale skin and the bags under my eyes from staying up so late, I was now super anxious about people thinking I'm a drug addict.

>>6870923
>>6870945
Not sure if want.
Where do they sell these things? Are they hard to get?

>>6870951
Okay, so now I'm more anxious than ever before and I go back to the room where everyone else who was summoned was waiting (and where the accident happened..), holy fuck. I sat alone in a corner in the FRONT (the only empty seat..) and waited, and waited.. for about 30 minutes that seemed like years to me, I was sweating through the whole thing, with watery eyes. I could fucking feel everyone's eyes burning into my back. (My eyes just got wet remembering it ;_;) Anyway, so from about 50 people that were gathered here, only 30 would have to go to the courthouse.. Yeah "go to the courthouse" FUCK ME. The whole fucking time I was under the impression that this was the courthouse, even though it didn't look like one. So I'm sitting there listening as the same lady from before is calling out the names. So I'd been keeping count, hoping that I wasn't one of them, we're at 29 and I'm about to scream inside my head with joy... and she calls out my name. A tear literally fell down my eyes and I walked out as fast as I could, only to have her call out to me and go.. hey! are you so-and-so? Then I remembered people answering "here" as if they were in school and I said with the shakiest voice possible "yeah" and she says to me, Here these are the directions on how to get there, and so I had to walk all the way back up there, get the paper and then go back out.. all while everyone else who wasn't called, but told to wait anyway, stared fixedly at my pathetic face.

Ｈｅｙ，　ＢＯＯＮ．　Ｄｏｎ’ｔ　ｍａｋｅ　ａ　ｔｈｒｅａｄ　ｆｏｒ
　ｔｈｏｓｅ　ｆｉｌｔｈｙ　ＮＥＥＴｓ．

>>6870949
The fuck you talking about?

>>6870951
>>6870964
Stale pasta is stale, this is now a butthole pleasure thread.

I have trouble believing anyone could be so pathetic, but this is 4chan, and even worse this is /jp/.

I would suggest you guys just go to wal-mart and buy a cheap shotgun and end it all but I'm betting the 'strain' of going there would be too much for you guys. You can't even kill yourselves, wololo.

>>6870978
I guess you'll just have to go back to /b/

You can not have a job / be in school and still bathe.

>>6871008
Seriously. I'm about as hikki as you can get and I still shower every day because not doing so feels gross

>>6870978
>wololo
I fucking love Age of Empires.

How many /jp/ers play AoE II?

>>6871336
I won't play, anymore. All anybody wants to do is war elephants.

Fucking war elephants.

>>6871336
If this was 7 years ago or so, yes.

>>6871336
Age Of Empires 2 was my favourite game for years

How old are you guys, anyway?

>>6871347
Old enough.

>>6871344
THIS.
I played Age of Mythology too although I must say I liked AoE more

>>6871347
11 year old princess.

quit my job 2 or 3 years ago (I've lost track of time...) and have barely left the house since.

I sleep for 12-14 hours a day and spend about 80% of my time awake on my the internet.

My room is a sea of empty beer/liquor bottles and I am beginning to resemble a skeleton from my lack of eating.

My senses have numbed from the lack of contact and constant routine to the point where I don't feel anything anymore.

I just need some way to make money without leaving my room .

>>6871368
When I achieve the state in this picture I shall be ready to leave this world.

I do hope it shan't be long. I ran out of food yesterday.s

These threads make me depressed to know that there are so many others out there like myself.

>>6871404
>shan't

what fucking century are you from?

>>6870723
SSI.

>>6871435

It's all fault of the capitalist system If you are a NEET just because you can't get a job.

I'm 18 and on my final year of high school. I also will not be able to get a job because I can send a application to a million places on not get a single call. Even if I was working in some restaurant or something I still wouldn't have enough to live on own considering the fact that I'm also a terrible driver and just attempting to drive up the street is a nightmare. I feel my life is fucked right now. I wish I could be at least independent even if I have just enough money for basic stuff like a computer, ipod, and a decent sterio system, and then all the rest would go to food because I never buy new clothes anymore. I don't see a future, my dreams were crushed and the life was sucked out of me. I practically live in memories because I can no longer be happy as I grow older and older out of my younger body. I try to look to the bright side of things but these issues are always constantly eating away at my sanity in the back of my mind each and every second.

>>6871509

You can get all those things if you become a slave of the banks.

>>6871509
You can get all those things if you become a slave of the banks.

>>6871509
I'm 23 and still live everyday as though I am 15. In my mind I have not aged a day, every time I see what's becoming of my body I feel less and less attached to the world that's not in my head. enjoy your future of blocking out your present and future with your shitty past.

>>6871509
Oh, I feel the same way. I don't think I'll have anywhere to go in a little while, especially since the school I went to wouldn't permit me to take a specialized class in the only thing I enjoyed(Physics) in my final year, and even if I scrounge up enough money for college, I'll have to do so much catching up and get a job, and have trouble working towards a major, I really don't think I'll be able to handle all of it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fxfh5jOHv8A&feature=related

Surely people like us have lower living expenses compared to others. I don't know about you, but I hardly ever use water, or gas, all I need is the electricity to run this PC and internet. I don't need clothes. I don't even need a phone. It can't be too hard to support this kind of lifestyle, and save enough for purchases like figures.

>>6871539
Oh? You must be new. Well, welcome to /jp/. You'll need push over parents or government money to last long here.

and without living with your parents you'll still never afford anymore than the barest of necessities

How can you guys not bathe? I mean its annoying but once you are in the shower you probably won't want to get out until the hot water runs out.

On a daily basis I shower, condition, shave, and apply skin creme. I wash my face and brush my teeth twice a day. I also don't defer from my exercise regimen, to keep every once of flab off of me.

I haven't spoken to anyone aside from convenience store clerks in like 3 months though.

>>6871523
so true man I feel the same way. Soon it will get to a point where I won't be able to even look at myself in the mirror anymore. Your right your past as in earlier teenage years and younger is all you really got to live. So just attach to it and hope for the best. If I could choose a age to stay forever in body I would say 16 or 17.

>>6871553
Autism, it feels like assault having all the water in your face.

>>6871557
Ah, nevermind then. But what about neurotypicals?

>>6871557
It's better than being constantly molested by the bath.

>>6871567
Lack of motivation. After a while you sort of just stop giving a fuck.

That's how it is in my case/most people affected by depression, at least.

>>6871572
I do neither, my autism won't allow it. Also, other people have bathed in there, it's not safe to stew in their filth.

>>6871548
I'm not new here.

And that's the thing, /jp/ doesn't really NEED all the "necessities"

>>6871368
Are you me?

>>6871584
I mean food water electricity, and basic internet. And not much else. You'll never have enough food, so pray you get food stamps.

>>6871576
I just stick to taking showers, I actually like taking showers before I go to bed it makes sleeping feel much better.

>>6870864
Just finished my wings and made some chocolate pudding for myself. I put half of what I made in a bowl with a powdered multivitamin mixed in. I put the other half in another bowl and put it in the fridge for breakfast tomorrow.

I'm a Hikki who works 1 day a week, sometimes 1 day every other week, I recently got put on Medicaid and have been going to a shrink she put me on ADD Medication which I've been taking daily, ever since the meds I've really been just watching myself do everything, I decided to get a car on a loan from my Step Father, its out in the Driveway now it needs a ton of work, and I don't make enough before it'll take me at least 1-2 year(s) before I can fix this cars minor issues and pay him back, I don't know what I wanna do with my life at all, not to mention I sleep 12 hours everyday and wake up to get on my PC and play Video Games for the other 12 hours, at work Im completely antisocial I stay away from my coworkers, sometimes they say hi but most of the time I just stay back and stay quiet and do my job.

>>6871576
>my autism won't allow it

Man the fuck up. I know what it's like to have irrational fears but it's just something you need to get over.

>>6871611
Blargh, too much vanilla extract. It's alright though.

>>6871611
That sounds good. I only really pig out on weekends (Fridays and Saturdays) to stuff myself for the week ahead since I don't eat much Monday-Thursday. As for Sunday well I usually end up eating frozen pizza or Taco Bell with some burrowed money. Buffets, chap local pizza places, and the dollar store are my best friends.

>>6871633
I love checking out the dollar store for food. You can find a lot of surprisingly good stuff there. I think I'll go there tomorrow.

>>6871619
>ADD medication
Are you sure you took yours today? That's one hell of a run-on sentence.

>>6871663
Indeed so, sorry I just slapped in a brief overview of my hikki situation quickly

>>6871509
I was you ten years ago... you will be lucky to score the two low paying jobs necessary for what you listed ;_; If you give up the car, don't eat much and never really spend anything on entertainment, you could maybe swing a little apartment with a part time retail job. FYI, full-time jobs are a thing of the past.

>>6871523
wow, someone just like me. 15 was the last year my life was somewhat normal; then, nothing. Really, after that I lost all ability to connect with others. Things were going downhill before, but that was the cut-off point.

>>6871640
Oh I buy tortilla chips, jalapeno cheese dip, sugar babies, and ginger snap cookies.

>>6871684
I like buying the cans of guava juice and the shortbread cookies. I haven't tried the loose leaf tea though. I'm getting excited thinking about going tomorrow.

3 year NEET so far. I'm generally happy throughout the day and I quite enjoy my escapism filled life. But at night I tend to get very depressed and I find myself falling asleep wishing I wouldn't wake up the next day.

I think it might be because of the imminent and approaching future where this all has to end.

I've been a NEET for since june and due to the fact that my welfare is reaching the level where they just don't believe I'm searching for a job, I'm going to become a student on monday.

My induction day is in 5 hours. I honestly have no idea how I'm going to deal with being around people.

OP here. I feel asleep and forgot I made this thread.

I often just sleep my time away as a NEET because there is nothing better to do.

>>6871838
I felt exactly the same half a year ago. Same situation. Felt bad, then good, now bad again. Can't handle the stress of exams...

master race who is a contributing member to society while being a recluse reporting. I take online classes and program from home for a company. You guys aren't even trying.

>>6872313
>master race

You'll never get a good job in the future if your experience consisits of "being a recluse and programming".

>>6872313
Same here minus the school. These threads make me feel left out.

Woke up, fell out of bed, dragged a comb across my head, found my way downstairs and drank a cup.

Any NEETs manage to self-study?

My whole life depends completely on the grades I'll get on the subjects I'm studying from now and until Spring exams, but I still can't motivate myself for study at all. It's not that I don't want to, it's just that it's so much more comfortable to just browse /jp/ for a few more minutes instead.

do lots of NEETs teach themselves programming and then just lurk those freelance programming sites?

actually seems like a pretty good idea

Took my little sister to buy some paints (she's ten) and got a lot of weird stares from people. I must carry a NEET aura or something ;__;

That said, I'm not truly a NEET if I have to go enrol for the university course I got into tomorrow. But it still scares me to go outside and meet new people...

>>6872505
I'm not being an ass or anything, but people probably thought you were grooming some random child. Outside is ignorant like that.

>>6872519
I look similar enough to her to actually be recognised as siblings, so I don't think it's that. It's just I felt really uncomfortable out there in the shopping centre, and they could probably tell.

>>6872391
This is fifty percent of why I failed last semester.

You really have to play games and make deals with yourself if you want to get around that.

even normals have trouble motivating themselves

>>6872391
I took a class last semester and didn't re-enroll because I found it very stressful. On the days of of my classes I would sweat horribly and begin to stink. My teacher would often tell us of people who smelt badly from previous classes and I had a feeling I was that guy. On top of that, I just didn't like the amount of information about our lives we had to give. Things like age, major, birthplace, daily schedules, girlfriends (never had one), why we were studying Japanese, ect. Spoken tests were held one on one with the teacher, including one where we had to call her on the phone. It made me feel so uncomfortable. I don't even feel like the teacher graded me properly. I was given the max amount of credits and the max amount of points possible for the class, despite not doing any of the lab work. We only got through half of the book so I'm going to save myself the money and stress and just self study.

>>6872606
The thing is, the classes put a huge damper on anything even related to the Japanese language. Whenever I hear a word of spoken Japanese that I was corrected on in class I'm immediately reminded of my teacher and how her and everyone else in the class must have thought I was fucked in the head, especially after they learned I did nothing with my life besides school, stay in my room, and sleep. I scored unusually well on tests too, so I'm sure they thought I was odd. I just know it.

Even whenever someone asked me what I was studying and I told them Japanese, I felt like an idiot. I'd much rather just tell them that I was unemployed or make up a lie. I'm thinking I'll be able to start studying again at the end of March. You know, I really enjoyed studying and all that, learning kanji and different ways to form sentences, but the classes were just too much for me. Even after the classes all I want to do now is stay inside. Before the classes I felt normal, but now I feel like I'm constantly being judged by everyone I come into contact with, aside from my mother. I don't ever want to take another traditional class in my entire life.

I'm sorry that this doesn't really have anything to do with your question, I just felt the get this off my chest.

pretty much everyone who considers themselves a NEET has the whole "people are judging me" complex

fairly common among NEETs

>>6872606
>>6872614
As the guy who asked the question, I can understand your situation. The reason I self study in the first place is because I couldn't handle school and dropped out. There's really no good place in the school system for people who just want to be left alone and pass the classes. Compared to that, self-study isn't so bad at all, but it requires a lot of discipline, because you suddenly have to put an active effort into your learning, rather than just showing up in class and staying quiet, and it's harder to motivate yourself for study without a routine that's set in stone.

Do your best. It's not that bad to have to do it on your own, but make sure you keep yourself motivated and in some kind of routine.

I am really low on groceries, don't want to get any.
converting anime to put on my PSP, not that I really need it to be portable, I don't go anywhere ┐('～`；)┌

>>6872638

>There's really no good place in the school system for people who just want to be left alone and pass the classes

This. It seems like schools are being pressured by higher-ups to integrate "GROUP LEARNING" into curriculums that have nothing to do with group learning. It's so frustrating that instructors assume I'm not applying myself just because I can't do group work, when the reality is, I put in twice the amount of effort as everyone else to compensate because I realize how rude it must seem.

I'm trying to break out of this six year slump I've been in since I dropped out of high school. With help from my parents I got a membership at a 24/h gym so I can lose weight and hopefully feel more confident.

Normally nobody is there at 1:00a.m., but yesterday there was. Instead of just ignoring her and getting on with my workout I went to the corner store and bought a couple bottles of Thunderbird. Prior to that I had been sober for 3 months.

>>6872642
What you need is a pillow fort.

>>6872675
Thunderbird? Holy shit, if you're going to drink at least have a bit of respect. Something that won't make you feel dead in the morning, unless of course that's what you're aiming for.

How to deal with crushing loliness?

>>6872690
Give the man a prize...

>>6872666
Grouping together was the worst because it always meant speaking aloud. I hate the sound of my own voice so I ended up mumbling. It was particularly bad when the teacher would hover over your group.

My class was tiny, so we worked mostly in pairs. My teacher always assigned me to work with a student who was struggling in the class. At first I figured I'd be nice and help him out when I saw that he said something wrong, but after a while I just stopped caring and stopped helping him because every time I corrected him, I was sure that all he could think of was how much of an ass I was, or how full of myself I must have been to correct him.

If another peer corrected you in class, how would you feel? Would you feel grateful that someone helped you, or would you think that person was an ass? Personally, I would feel relieved knowing that a mistake had been corrected before it turned into a habit, but depending on how well I liked the person, I may or may not really appreciate it. I have a feeling I wasn't very well liked in that class.

>>6871435
These threads always make me feel better because I realize I'm not alone.

However, no matter how many times I feel assured with these threads, that feeling of not being alone suddenly disappears the moment I leave my computer. When I go outside I try to remind myself, "I know others on /jp/ feel this way, I'm not alone." it never works. I start feeling even worse.

Being outside or around people (who aren't my family members) is really, really exhausting. I seriously cannot stop going crazy about stupid trivial shit. I'm not even going to bother listing them because there's just way too much. My paranoia eats away at me and keeps growing. The only time I have mental peace is when I'm on my computer.

I've always been told that my anxiety would get better the more I'm around people. Well I guess exposure doesn't work for me, if anything it's done the opposite and made me even more introverted. 2 years ago I was uncomfortable being in a class and making eye contact with others, but it wasn't that bad.

>>6872818
Now, I sweat profusely/smell like shit all the time (even though I shower and use deodorant), legs start to wobble when walking, my heart feels like it's about to explode from beating so fast, voice and body is shaky (this is the worst because it's hard to hide), cannot make any eye contact AT ALL (half a second at best), blush easily.

The worst probably has to do with my spit. I can't stop swallowing my spit every 10 seconds when I'm around ANYONE. I think they can hear me when I gulp down my spit. It makes me look nervous, then I start getting scared so I end up collecting a shitload of spit in my mouth for about 5 minutes or so until I can't hold it anymore. I repeat this so that I make gulping noises less often. If someone tries to talk to me while I'm doing it I'm fucked. I have to gulp down all that spit, then talk, which looks awkward. Sometimes if I don't have much collected spit I still try to talk by pushing the spit to the side of my mouth, but it's still very limited.

All of this disappears as soon as I enter my room and go on my computer. My only peace.

Classes, for learning japanese anyways, are retarded. Teach yourself while playing eroge and/or reading manga or something. Language classes are a joke past the first semester (i think an introduction is good).

>>6870710
It gets painful if you don't brush them in a while, at least for me, so I'd recommend to do it once or twice every day if you remember to.

>>6872819
The only reason I'm saying this is because it sounds like you want to get closer a normal lifestyle. Since you're already posting here, I think you'll be all right...

I'd say browsing imageboards and posting more encouraged me most to become more capable and sociable. It gave me my own pace. I used to not be able to do a single thing but stay in my bed. If I went online, I couldn't even read a news article because it felt like it was being too sociable. Eventually, however, I got from reading one post a day on an imageboard, to reading a page, and then becoming a regular lurker. Now, I'm capable of posting almost as much as I'd like. If it weren't for imageboards and it's anonymous capabilities I'm not so sure I'd be able to function as I do now, talking to you like I know anything...

>>6874343

i often type out a post and then delete it all

Most of the people in this thread aren't even NEET.

I'm on SSI and Medcaid. Thanks for your tax money. lolol

>>6874562

but that doesn't last forever

>>6874572
our government wont get rid of them, or there will be massive riots, fag.

>>6874580
>riots

he still thinks people give a damn.

Enjoy thousands of people trying to guilt people into giving them money again.

>>6874592
you will see, you fucking faggot

I know I will do it.

>>6874602
Watch out guys, he's got his dad's shotgun and a mail order AUTHENTIC JAPANESE SWORD.

>>6874602
You're agoraphobic!

The guy next to you is quadriplegic!

What the hell kind of riot can you do?

There are people in Tunisia killing cops and bombing government buildings in their riots.
You gonna stand outside DC wearing an eskimo coat so you don't feel the stares of other people?

>>6874614
lolol no agoraphobic here, stinkfag

I talked with some government members and they told me that they wont get rid of these stuff, mr. pea-brained friend. Never.

>>6874626
Oh my, it's like really talking to a third grader.

>had government officials on speed dial

>trusts them completely

>thinks anyone will riot over something so pointless

>Thinks you can accomplish anything without the police gunning you down in merry ol' murika

>mfw

>>6874631
SSI & Medcaid = pointless?

>mfw

I am going to call about that job tomorrow. You guys are fucking depressing... Just reading the thread OP and all following replies moves me so much I feel like I could do better. In a sense I am thankful. Jobs are available if you really want one. Try getting out of the house every once and a while. Shave, get a haircut, do something spontaneous. The biggest thing you can do is respect YOURSELF. I see a lot of disrespect in this thread, this must be where all of your problems begin.


tl;dr If you respect yourself, you will get respect in return.

>>6874685
Eye might be glad that you are getin work. But domn't insult my anons. Baaaaka! They are everything to me.

>>6874580
Our government is dropping people off the doll because of the financial crisis and there are a lot of jobless people with no financial aid whatsoever now. I have heard nothing about any upcoming riot because of this.

>>6874685
I don't respect myself OR anyone else. Value we can assign to personal attributes, achievements, etc of other personal and ourselves is entirely subjective.

You could base your self worth on how many anime series you've watched. You wouldn't be wrong to do so, nor would you be right.

>>6874685
I don't respect myself OR anyone else. Value we can assign to personal attributes, achievements, etc of other people and ourselves is entirely subjective. You could base your self worth on how many anime series you've watched. You wouldn't be wrong to do so, nor would you be right.

>>6874685
>Shave
There's no way I'm leaving the house without a beard to hide behind.

>>6874685

Good luck then. I can't find anything I would ever want as a job so that's out for me. Work is too depressing for me, I'd like to get out and perhaps go somewhere far away though.

I've been wanting to go to this reservation/park in the next town but I've been too lazy to get up and go. I'm mad at myself because I know I'd love it. It's got a lot of birds, a few artificial lakes, and many different plants. It's probably beautiful. I think the problem is that I wake up, then two hours later the sun is going down. By the time I finish masturbating, the sun has already begun to set. Such a shame.

>>6874817
>I'd like to get out and perhaps go somewhere far away though.

Hey anon, I've got $600, lets pool our money together and go on a vacation!

>>6875639
I'm down. With my entire life savings, and your 600$, we are now at 603$. Let's hit Vegas, baby.

>>6875639
Let's die together anon, I've got about $200 to top it off. We'll go somewhere nice. Do you like mountains?

>>6875788
hey, I am an older fag here and have 5,000. Are we going to set up an offline meeting here?

im good at the computers, really
but i dont understand why i dont find any job

i dont even have a friend
i never had a real friend

i feel terrible

>>6875905

Hey, I've got about 10 grand, can I come along as well?

>>6875905
My body is ready. With that kind of money we can rent a boat and do it on a small island if the fancy strikes us.

Just like in anime. If we can get three other people to join I'm guaranteed to come.

>>6875905
>>6875996
I'll come if we can do it near the ocean, I always wanted to see the ocean before I died. I can get maybe $100.

No Student Aid refund this year, looks like I'm not going.

>>6875788
>>6875996
>>6876018

B-but I just made this proposal to have fun with /jp/. ;_;

>>6876098
I'm sure someone will have fun with you if you come.

I'll likely be too shy to say much. And I'm really not bubbly enough to put anyone else at ease.

Also, I really wish someone would put in an email, I'd really like this to happen. If two or three of you could join in I'm sure we;ll have the strength to do this.

I haven't really left the house other than a few late nights raids for food once a month or so for well over a year. I live with my parents, but haven't spoken to them in longer than I can remember. About sixth months ago I found a letter shoved under my door asking me to be quiet when anyone is home. So that's what I did until a week, when I found out I'm getting kicked out.

I have no friends, and I don't know my extended family so I have no idea what I will do.

I'd love to meet a fellow /jp/er, we could hang out for a few days, and then if you want we can move in together/fuck/kill ourselves.

What do you say /jp/ want to make a friend/fucktoy/suicide partner?

>>6876142
Ask the government for assistance.

Xanax works pretty good for social anxiety, but it doesn't last long. 1.5mg lets me function normally, but it's very sedating.

>>6876142

this here is why we don't have a good deal of our older posters

Also, I can't help you as I live in a friend's closet.

Sleep on the couch when no one is home and fit a small table for my laptop in there, shit is SO cash.
Good luck with your search, maybe the government will give you a hand in a year or so. I still haven't heard back from them and it's been eight months.

I don't know where I'm gonna live either. I mean I don't even know HOW to pay bills and stuff like that. I wish it didn't have to end this way.

>>6876098

Wow, this is weird. I said I wanted to go somewhere far away but I didn't exactly mean this. I'm near the end of my rope and might just live as a wanderer since I don't want to work. Unfortunately I'm broke, so I may just save money before I choose to leave for good.

>>6876142

Just tell your parent's you'll try to get a job, just go outside and walk around a park for 2 hours and then go back home, do it for at least a month, your parents will understand you couldn't get a job and will stop bothering you for a while.

>>6876142

Fucktoy? Oh I hope you're not serious.

I wonder if that depressed fucker here in Seattle ever killed himself? hmm...

>>6876170
Squat somewhere. You can get an actual address, too.

>>6876171
Let me offer you some advice as someone who did just that. If you think you need something before you can do it, you won't make it a week. Other than essentials like a good knife and hopefully some decent boots and a heavy coat. If you sit around trying to budget it you're just playing with a dream. If you're serious about leaving and just wandering think for a moment, are you okay with sleeping in the woods? Can you wake up quickly, say if someone approaches in a very deserted area at around four in the morning?
Will you eat out of a dumpster? Have you? Can you fish? If your climate is harsh do you have the necessary clothing to survive in it? Typically all your supplies will come from the city, so wilderness training isn't a big deal but if you plan to stray out larger cities or into actual wooded areas they may help and you may want to study them some. Lastly, you may want to find yourself a gun and learn how to maintain it. Something small and light, you won't need much ammo, but it may save your life.

>>6876188

You know, I've heard some people make an art out of literally stealing property... or squatting in upscale places that have been empty for years.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EtbBUPbKdIA&feature=related

Dumpster diving is pretty good eating. Look at all the shit they score.

>>6876195
Yeah, C-Squat is the most famous one. There are some good guides online, just do some searching.

>>6876170

Learn to play the harmonica to get some money on the streets and start drinking alcohol you'll need it a lot.

I've been thinking of starting a website recently. I think it'd be nice to have something to put all my free time into. I don't know what I would put on it though.

>>6876204
Holy shitfuck, I know this guy. I lived in his place when I was homeless. Guess he spent too money on things like cocaine.

>>6876204
Drink Franzia box wine and cheap handles of vodka. Those are the best alcohol to price ratio.

>>6876193

I see. I want to leave because I hate working, I can't live the rest of my life doing something I don't care about, I felt like this even when I was miserable in school. For the most part I'm a bit weak and overly pampered so I'm not too good at outdoor living, so I want to improve my condition before I leave. I've run away from home before and loved walking around, but ultimately went home because I didn't think I was ready. I just want to finally choose my own path instead of having it chosen by others.

>>6876217
It's almost like normal living if you find a nice house to squat in. Depending on the neighborhood you can net some free wifi assuming you have a laptop. Just charge it up at the library during the day. Food is either abundant or non existent. If you don't find any in an area just move on, don't starve waiting. If you feel like you're on death's doorstep steal some potatoes from like walmart or something. Panhandling works if you're social enough for it and you're in a good area, but never stick around. You might get some change on the first day or so but people get pissed if they see you too much.

They are much more willing to help out if they think you'll get back on your feet.

You'll need this money for alcohol, and if you have some left over warm food. Shoplifting is not advised, and even if you do it alcohol is among the hardest things to steal.

>>6876217
I want to leave just so I won't be bothered by anyone ever again so I can just simply live the rest of my pathetic life in peace. I don't want to disappoint my family that I will have to live with them forever but right now I have no choice. There is just so many barriers for me even mentally to move on. I have been like this for so long my entire life and now I think I'm going completely insane as I get older. I can't think straight anymore, every night I have terrible nightmares, I sometimes pace around my house without even realizing I'm doing until someone tells me, sometimes all of sudden my vision will become dark and gray and all of a sudden I'll feel nothing literally physically like I just died or something. I don't know what is wrong with me but it's getting worse as years go on and I'm really afraid of what the fuck is happening to me.

>>6876270
I'm schizoid too. It gets harder and harder to pull out of my internal world as the years pass. I find it harder and harder to think at all, would rather slip away dreaming my empty dreams. I don't watch anime anymore, I don't have the motor control to play video games, I don't read, I don't do anything.

However nighttime is the worst. In my dreams I'm normal again, but face all sorts of hellish nightmares. That lingering feeling of sanity when I wake up in the morning depresses me greatly as I know I'm so close but will remain forever on that other side of the line.

What I would do to go back..

>>6870738
yeah Fuck the government

Dear diary, today I fit three ice cubes up my butt.

I wanted to do five again, like I did Tuesday, but I had the problem where it gets too cold and doesn't want to open as easily. I got too aroused and spent myself before I could finish my endeavor. I intend accomplish my goal of five tomorrow. I'm eagerly awaiting the next time I have the chance to do it with frozen grapes, as the sensation was heavenly. I am contemplating squirting whipped cream up there next time I do get grapes, as I've yet to try the two together.

Goodnight.

>>6876364
I wonder what it would feel like sticking ice cubes up my butt. Let's all try it out and post the results. Or tell stories about sticking various objects up our butts. One time I almost lost a pen cap up my ass but managed to stick my fingers around it and get it out. Everything went better than expected.

>>6876393
I do it on a fairly common basis. Maybe weekly?
doesn't everyone?
But as this anon said >>6876364 frozen grapes are MUCH better. I try to keep them in as long as I can, but after awhile I lose sensation of where they are. I'm considering buying some anal beads when I get some money. I shall try leaving those int he freezer.

I expect great things.

>>6876393
I once put the handle of one of these up my ass. As you may or may not see, the handle is curved. I thought that would help stimulate the prostate. I was never able to find my prostate and got kind of scared moving that thing around inside me trying to find it.

>>6876414
Can't you take the razor off? I can take the razor off mine... I read somewhere that women use the curved handle to find their G spot so I tried it but it didn't work at all.

Well it's Friday. I think I'll head to the store after I wake up and buy some raw chicken wings and hot sauce and make myself a mountain of chicken wings. That sounds good.

>>6877467
That does sound good...