/jp/ - Otaku Culture

Stop trying to sound profound, you suck at it.

>>441753
moe

>The virtual world became more interesting than the real one..

Where have you been? The imaginary world was always more interesting than the real one...

I think you should learn English before learning Japanese.

thanks to sagefags like you we lost our ronery threads

now we cant circlejerk about how screwed in life we are

Oh, I didn't lose 'it' because of shitty Japanese cartoons. I lost it when i was beaten so badly in high school that my arm was dislocated, and i had to be taken to the hospital. The kids who beat me received no punishment. I guess I deserved it for being a loner.

Ha ha...

You make it sound like our behavior is any different than that of an introverted bookworm's.

It isn't. The only difference is the medium we take refuge in.

>>441783
Hey faggot this isn't your personal blog go tell your friends on livejournal...

OH WAIT.

>>441750

The imaginary world has *always* been better than the real world, for pretty much everyone.

The only question is how absorbed one is willing to get into it, and which imaginary world(s) one chooses.

>>441783
:(

>>441750

We choose to be this way. Its as simple as that.

>>441791
Moar Touhou, AmIrite?

Even though I'm alone and have no friends, it's okay.

Because, at the end of the day, /jp/ will still be here.

And even though some of you may sage me just for saying something like this--

I really consider all of you as my friends.

This is why we need proper, American-produced visual novels and moe comics.

>>441809

If it makes you feel better, I treat anons as friends as well.

Just not the trolls, definitely not them.

When did I lose it? I don't think I ever had "it". Ever since I was a small child I have spent most of my time alone. Now I spend all of my time alone, I have only lost something that was minor in my life to begin with.

Would you like a drink?

I've got water and...cranberry juice, I think. And maybe some milk.

No, we're out of milk.

>>441809
You'll always have a friend here, Anon.

With me it began with dinosaurs when I was 7. My folks were going through a messy divorce, and long story short, being in the Mesozoic seemed better then listening to my old man beating my mom. As the years wore on I found new interest, fighter planes, UFOs, etc, until I was a teenager and started watching anime. Its been 10 years since then, and I haven't turned back. At this point though I am a bigger fan of Touhou then anime itself.

In b4 not my blog.

Well, a long time ago, I made this HEUGE-LIKE-XBAWX flash of light...

>>441849
I loved dinosaurs when I was 6. Then it was Magic: the Gathering, then "lol indie post-rock music," then politics, then moe bishoujo.

>>441828

What about tripfags?

>/JP/ when did you lost "it".


NOW IVE LOST IT

I almost got expelled for "sexually harassing" a girl when I was in 9th grade. I didn't think I did anything wrong, so I think the girl was just being a bitch. Either way, I haven't been able to have a normal conversation with a girl since then. At first I was afraid of getting in more trouble, but eventually I realized that talking to girls wasn't that great.

>>441867
I think I stopped talking to girls in 11th grade. I asked this girl out and she started screaming no over and over again at the top of her lungs and ran off. I never regained my confidence.

I don't feel bad at all; I play the vidya with people from /jp/ all the time, and although right now i'm busy with finals, in my free time i help create custom content for some of these games.

/jp/ is a mine of content; it's full of people creating things, people getting together to work on projects, just because it's something they like.

especially during night shift, i feel like i'm surrounded by people with a good sense of taste, although they often get depressed.

but /jp/, within you is a creative force that is waiting to be tapped. maybe something will come of that someday.

>>441884
I think I kind of fucked myself not having a girlfriend in high school, but when I think about it I don't regret not talking to girls more at all. Sometimes I would listen in on girls talking during study hall or whatever, and it was always pop culture bullshit or who was fucking who at what party.

why aren't real girl conversations like the ones in animu? ;_; I mean fuck , aria was written by a woman wasn't it?

>>441889
>although right now i'm busy with finals
Oh, so that's why you're never on irc.

ITT: /jp/ IS OUR PERSONAL BLOG

>>441856

I KNOW I CAN KILL (OP troll)

>>441889

Okay, an entirely serious /jp/ made VN. We need to start this.

>>All we do is lust over japanese woman we'll never have.

I don't understand how a person can say this while posting that page.

>>441921
thanks anon, i started to feel lonely at no one replying ;_;

>>441903

You might as well build a giant robot that turns into a space-ship and destroys suns. That'd be more possible than women acting like animu characters.

>/JP/ when did you lost "it".
You know how some kids love fighting? And how they always gang up on somone? It kinds of scars you when you're 6. "What? We're not beating on anyone, we're just playing :D DERP DERP". /Livejournal

>>441921

THE TRUTH EXISTS BEYOND THE GATES

>>441932

Same thing, but my dad was standing there watching me getting gang-rushed by 7 kids bigger than me.

>>441948
"You can do it son! Fight back! Protect your crotch!"

>>441932
Same thing, but continued a lot longer than just the age of 6, and involved girls as well.

>>441948

My dad was a pussy. And he never believed Liberace was gay.

>>441932
>>441948

I'm like Misuzu from Air. I can't keep any friends at all because I'm so socially fucked. I think I have about 3 friends right now, but I'll probably destroy my relationship with them some time. The good news is that one of them is as fucked up as me and we like to talk about the positives of pedophilia, necrophilia, and ideal communism.

I was never bullied, beaten or anything like that. I was just the quiet kid in the corner that nobody really noticed or talked to or expected anything of.

When I was in third grade I had no friends and was the outcast of the class. One day the cutest girl in class started talking to me and being nice. I moved away a couple of months later, but I remembered that girl. When I was in middle school, I ran into her again, but she acted like she wanted nothing to do with me. She told me the teacher was paying her to be my friend back in third grade.

>>441944

You... You... GANG BANG SON OF A GUN!

Actually, he was standing there talking to a heating oil customer like nothing was happening. Some of the kids were the customers.

>>441953


Actually, he was standing there talking to a heating oil customer like nothing was happening. Some of the kids were the customers.

>>441964

JUST HOWLING IN THE SHADOWS.

>>441962
wow, what a fucking whore

My dad was always dragging me out to do "father-son things" that I really didn't want to do. All the while, the way he acted towards me was...clinical. Detached. My parents have since divorced, and I live with my mother.

I'm not mad at my father, or even annoyed at him. I understand, now. He was a person trying desperately to play the role of "Dad", and failing.

I understand, because in some ways, he and I act completely alike.

Since that realization, I've told myself that it's better for me not to become involved in any relationships. I have already seen that ending.

>>441962
...;_;

>>441961

God, I wish I was you. Skull fractures suck. And whenever it gets cold, the screws holding my face together hurt a lot.

>>441977
I'd blame the teacher more.

blog thred? awesome, i'll bite.

in 2nd grade, i made a friend simply by introducing myself and being friendly. for too long i thought that making friends was that simple.

in 5th grade, a new kid moved into town and joined my school, and i thought i'd be that friendly kid who always says hi to the new guy.

my naive and inexperienced manner must have irritated him, and he went on to become someone who bullied me up until the high school, where the tension culminated in a fist-fight.

i think at some point i realized...i was socially inept at the time i first met him, and but approaching him i was essentially bringing the future harassment on myself.

i had to push myself and learn about how to act naturally in social situations in order to become friendly with people, even strangers.

nowadays, i sometimes meet people my own age who are the same type of social midget i was back in middle school. what can i do but tolerate them as best i can? for i once was like them...but yet i know that even if i directly tell them they are inexperienced, the only way to solve the problem is to gain experience, and then the problem becomes circular, because how are you going to gain experience when a person with a normal level of social ability won't want to give you the time of day?

...well, a lot came out, didn't it.

someone rapted me at 8 years old. that made me shy as fuck, but now im better, but still a little shy.

>>442005
And while you're solving your problems, I'm being scared of people ಠ_ಠ

For two years I had a girl who liked me, she knew she liked me, everyone else knew she liked me, I knew she liked me. And I liked her and everyone knew that too. But I was afraid of it, I was afraid I would fuck everything up if I said I liked her, so I didn't. We would hang out a lot, go out, do silly flirty things with eachother, talk on the phone every night. We were basically a couple, just, not. We never progressed, never kissed, never said we liked eachother. Then she moved away. We kept talking on the phone every night, but then it slowly turned to every other night, then it became sometimes we talked on the phone but mostly we text messaged eachother. Then it became like once every other week. Then we just sent emails to eachother every couple weeks, then months, then it just.. stopped.

>>441961
I was this person, except I thought I was cool.

Childhood hurt. A lot.

>/JP/ when did you lost "it".
For my parent's work reasons, I've never actually stayed in one place longer than two years. Because of that, my social skills are nearly non-existant. No one really cared to deal with me, and I didn't care to deal with them. And when you have no social life, you find something to spend time doing. My choice just happened to be this.

>>442027
yeah, my problems are relatively trivial, aren't they :|

>>442005

That's really mild. Wanna trade lives?

>>442010
We've all been there.

>>442039
Bullying isn't trivial. However, this thread is full of Xtreme Bullying.

I seem to have been born a failure. I played pole position before I could talk. Beat jumpman before I could read. I never approached anyone, and never was approached. I spent my time infront of a game console or a computer, if I was in a position with nothing to do, I'd find a place nearby and sleep.

I never really had a life to lose.

I can not be blamed for another's actions so by the same logic I can not blame others for how I act. I will not say it is anyones fault that I have cut myself off from society however the way I live is of no harm to anyone so I don't see why I need to be looked down apon so much by other people. LOL LIFE

>>441962

I was always quiet through elementary school. Bullied, but only mildly. A few friends, but never really made any more. Never really knew how I made the first ones or how to make more.
Then my parents died. I was still really young, and I basically holed myself up for years. By the time I got out of that hole, most of my friends gave up on me and I was just as socially inept as back then. The ones who kept trying to be my friend, I unintentionally ignored and angered to the point of them leaving too. Took me a long time to understand why they did that, and now it's way too late.
And I've been here since.

>>442067
By the way, though this may be a bit off the subject--what's the source of this?

>>442067
I cried when I read that for the first because it reminded me of happened to me.

Fuck I need a drink.

>>442068
>I basically holed myself up for years. By the time I got out of that hole, most of my friends gave up on me and I was just as socially inept as back then. The ones who kept trying to be my friend, I unintentionally ignored and angered to the point of them leaving too. Took me a long time to understand why they did that, and now it's way too late.
Story of my life. I had two girls come to my house near midnight to try and bring me to a party or something. I told them I wanted to sleep.

The best friends we'll ever have are the ones we never meet. I can deal with that.

>>442084
Kareshi Kanojo no Jijou.

Also known as His and Her Circumstances or Kare Kano. Read the manga though, unless you want QUALITY low budget animation.

I was prematurely born by three months so I spent the first several months of my life in a plastic box without human contact. I have been weary of human contact ever since. At least the up side is that I have no desire to actually have sex so I don't ever regret or lust about it.

>>442113
oh yeah...the fatty who left, and came back years later as a tall, handsome dark guy

reminds me of a childhood friend i had who was a fatty, and when i met him years later, he was skinnier than i am. i shat brix.

Thank you, Anony-chan!

Thank you.

Everything that's ever gone wrong for me is a result of my crippling alcoholism. I've drank myself out of jobs, apartments, schools love and money. Touhou and Wine. Every day. I hate myself.

I dunno when I lost it. I already had bad social skills when I went to school, because the bullying started almost immediately. Never could stand up for myself in a fight - I got fat, then I became an anime fan - well, you know how stuff like that goes.

>>442164

Alcoholism and anime are similar. They're both escapes.

I was carefree and friendly until probably around 9, then I started caring more about what other people thought and trying to fit in. That in turn over a number of years pushed me to the outside of the group I was hanging out with, really only being able to call one or two people in it friends, the rest merely former friends/acquaintances.

Later on some issues appeared which shot my confidence to shit, nothing really happened but doubting your body out in public is tormenting, even if it's all in your mind. Eventually I got sick for a week or two, then the procrastination started on when I'd return back to my former life. I'll go back tomorrow was said nearly everyday, but that kept dragging on, now leaving a shell of my former self in a hopeless hole which is nigh on impossible to extricate myself from, or rather which I'm not willing to get myself out of.

I don't need to do anything to rectify the problem, why bother? I'll make myself taller soon anyway. That was going through my mind years ago, still going through it now.

>>442184

>>442195

You're not actually funny. Or useful.

>>442177
Only anime doesn't make you beat your wife and crash into joyriding teenagers; lol

>>442195
I lied, the only beam around the house that could properly support my frame (6'5 - 230lbs) is outside. I haven't gone outside for years and I'll be fucked if I start just to off myself. Plastic bag over the head or a knife to the jugular for me.

>>442177
Oh yeah. Like, I can't function unless I'm drunk or drugged up. Otherwise I just rage at people for no reason.

Ronery threads are shit and a plauge. Time to email moot again.

>>442217
Fall down onto the knife that way the weight of your body does the work and you won't flinch and half-ass it at the last second.

>>442224
MOOT, ANON IS TALKING ABOUT HIS PROBLEMS AGAIN, MAKE HIM STOP

>>442224

I find a slight irony in the more people that getted banned for ronery threads, the more that pop up.

>>442217
Obviously, cola with a healthy amount of ammonium is the way to go.

People make ronery threads to talk to other people so they wont be so ronery. But can't they talk about something OTHER than being ronery?

>>442237
something else...like Touhou?

>>442236
Two weeks and it's out.

I was picked on in elementary school, up until my first year of high school. Then I took up boxing, snapped later that year, and broke four of some senior's ribs when he wrecked up my jacket.

I hate seeing people talk about how they totally fail beyond standard failure. Even regular failure manage to get and keep a woman, job and relationships, even totally drunks do it. So, not a bit of sympathy.

You make me sad, /jp/ ;_;.

Oh well, LIVEJOURNAL time.

I just realized I've lived a semi-normal life compared to most of you. Still not "normal" for society though.

From 1st to about... 3rd grade, I had lots of friends. Played with them a lot, was popular. Pretty normal kid, really.

Then in 4th grade I started playing video games. I started telling my friends I couldn't play with them. Slowly started losing all my friends.

Shortly after that, I got the Internet. I completely stopped seeing my friends outside of school.

Then, I moved EXACTLY as I entered High School. Didn't know anyone there, but I managed to make 3 friends. One was ugly as fuck and completely retarded on purpose to other people, which made the entire school mock us. The other one was just plain stupid and the last one was the only one I appreciated.

Then, the 2 I hated left, and the school stopped caring about me and the other guy. At that point we were just ignored and nobody gave a shit.

>>442255
>>I hate seeing people talk about how they totally fail beyond standard failure

What's the matter, TOO CLOSE TO HOME for you?

>>442249
I know, on the 25th. Excited as hell, but unfortunately, final exams week for me starts the 26th. Dammit.

>>442237
CINNAMON SWIRLS IN EVERY POST

I was always the really smart kid who knew all the answers. In middle school this little midget kid was always messing with me; guess he was trying to compensate for his utter lack of height. Everyone left me alone after he was mocking me out loud in health class and I threatened to fucking shoot him. Everyone who didn't know me was scared I would go columbine on their ass until I graduated; was funny as hell to me and my friends though.

>>442220

Sorry, I'm a powerlevel9000 drunk too. Just because I know they're escapes, doesn't make the reason for escaping go away. Ah, shit. If I ever figure out how to build a better world, I'll share it. At this point, I'm in a race with my liver.

>>442233
FIGHT THA POWA!

I wish I could be a drunk. The downside to never leaving the house is that I have to be sober 24/7 YEAR AFTER YEAR. Oh god what I would give for a little escape.

>>442293
I live 30 yards from a bar.

What if Rider and Reisen had a staring contest?

>>442299
whoever wins, I masturbate

>>442293
What stops you from getting drunk at home?

>>441750
>All we do is lust over japanese woman we'll never have.
No, not really... Or you consider 2D as real women, but that's a huge problem for your mind.

>Try to learn japanese and find out that japanese people will laugh at us and just want our gaijin money.
No, not really

>>We play Touhou like crack addicts and lust over gensokyo girls.
No, not really

>>We dream of living in gensokyo.
Err, no.

>>We play visual novels because for a simple reason.
>>The virtual world became more interesting than the real one..

>>442310
Go away.

people who fail this hard belong in /b/ not /jp/ since it's not your blog.

:...please refrain from blogging about your personal life..."

Some of us still have hopes of this board becoming more of a place with interesting topics on Japan rather than just Tōhō game threads.

I'll side with >>442310

>>442327
From you, a compliment.

>>442321
Weeaboo faggot.

>>442316
Translation: "I can't stand bloggers shitting up my RP threads."

>>441962

This story broke my heart and soul. What a whore that girl was.

>>442236

sauce?

>The virtual world became more interesting than the real one..
But the "virtual world" IS more interesting than the real one.

>>442314
People who fail this hard made 4chan. We're just on /jp/ now since /b/ is full of niggers and "popular kids" and moot won't let us have our fun in /a/.

about two years ago. I don't regret it.

>>442236

omg wtf sauce?

>>442419
Chaos;Head. Nitroplus' new game that's coming out in about two weeks.

>>442431
is it guro?

>>442498
For the most part, I don't think so. It seems like it's going to be basically a huge mindfuck. Who knows what they'll throw in there, though.

>>442507

>>442543
Oh god that. Of all the places to end the trial at...
This game is going to be amazing.

Well, I'm more of an /m/ person, but I drop here from time to time. I'm not that bad socially at school...I just hardly find good reason to go out...

so yeah

I see you quiches moaning about how your life is shit and I really don't get any of it.

Boo, you're a hikikomori and spend all your time on the internet! Rejoice! You're physically and materially better off than 95% of the Earth! Now go do something useful with your "internet".

Baw, I'm all arone and nobody loves me! Get over yourself. Love is HARD WORK. This romantic bullcrap about how everyone has a 'soul mate' and how finding someone to love is the most important part of life is a bunch of bullcrap, and socially dubious considering that if you ever do have sex with a girl, Heaven and Earth forbid, you or she or both will probably use some form of birth control to keep from makking baby, which is just about equal to not having sex at all in the end result.

NOW I'VE LOST IT, I live with my parents! Too fucking bad, and not for you. Tens if not hundreds of millions of children live with their parents until they're thirty or more, if they haven't moved in with their familes, and their extended familes into a hovel the size of your home. Even if they don't, it's hardly uncommon, or at least was, for notable figures to live with their parents. Whining about it is just a pathetic excuse to mask the fact that you have no accomplishments and no goals, at which point no amount of female copulation and self-detatched non-familial interdependence is going to solve anything.

Go DO SOMETHING, you pathetic bags of shit, or shut up about it and learn a semblance of tranquility (and those aren't good/bad choices right there - either is fine, but you're doing one of the absolute worst and unproductive thing s that I can personally think of, and I have a very active imagination.)

MMM copypasta.

>>442590
...if you know what I mean.

>>442573
DARK SABER is /m/ material?

>>442599
The only good copypastas are the evidently sincere ones.

>>442606

And you are...?

>>442590
>Love is HARD WORK. This romantic bullcrap about how everyone has a 'soul mate' and how finding someone to love is the most important part of life is a bunch of bullcrap
don't crush my dreams anon, the thought that there's someone out there for me is the only thing that keeps me going

Totally not about to start blogging here.

Most of my issues probably have to do with me being a high-functioning autistic which wasn't diagnosed until some time ago, so my entire childhood was spent with people just thinking I was a freak and me getting shunned.
I only had one real friend for my first 7 years of school, who had to move to another state. My childhood psyche probably wasn't helped by my violent father and vindictive teachers.
From then until the end of high school my autism gradually became less severe for whatever reason, and I started to act reasonably like a normal person.
I wasn't popular in school because as soon as I established my personality in year 8, no one accepted me trying to change at all.

After year 11 finally finished, I changed to a mature age school (in the sense that it's for people from 16 years old to any age to attend) and seeing as no one there knew me, I could finally act the way I wanted to. Funnily enough, I became really popular. At my new school (doing year 12 again cause I failed) I'm popular. At my youth group I'm popular, and do comedy acts and play guitar in the band. People love me.
But at the same time both of those lives are false. I don't act like I feel. I just see the way people act and copy it. In a way, I'm a social master.
I'd rather stay at home and dream about the girls from the visual novels I play or wish my life could me more like Tsukihime than go out with my friends to a movie or something.
I just started to like anime because the stories were better than the crap I was used to watching. I don't particularly care for Japan either way.
I just think my own life is so boring that it'd be better if I woke up in Gensokyo or something.

Oh yeah, on that note, I've also been working on my own VN for about a year and a half now. I've been thinking of making a thread about it. What say you, /jp/? Interested?

>>441750
These kind of threads remind me why I come to /jp/.

To remind myself I'm not so far gone yet.

Most of us aren't lamenting, just reflecting.

I had a pretty normal childhood, that was until my entire sreet got burned down in a horrific fire by some madman. Both my parents were killed and I was adopted by a complete stranger. Turned out to be a decent enough guy though. Sadly, when I was around sixteen my foster-father died and I was living alone in his house. Thankfully I was helped through the experience by a friend of my foster-father's and someone from school, so life's been generally good. I'm reasonably popular at school, took part in a couple of clubs(Was a candidate for head of a club at one point) and I fix stuff for the school occassionally. I've got some talent with these things. But even despite this I end up having lunch with my friend in the school's council room because girls laugh at me and the guys try to steal my lunch, what gives? Hell, I even just said good morning to a girl in my school today and she looks at me like I've contracted fucking AIDS or something.

Shit. Might as well settle for the fat ugly psycho.

>>443677

What did I tell you about blogging on /jp/ Shirou?

>>441981
How strange, my father was the exact opposite.
he never played with me, I spend most of my time with a childkeeper.
Then, I realised he spent all his time working, so I could have a better future.

Heh, I used to actually be quite popular and have lots of friends, hell, even girls liked me.
then I got older and noticed all this social shit was boring.

Going to the cinema with friends?
I'll download the movie, thank you.

Studying with people?
These inferior people only slow me down.

Sports ?
Won't get me anywhere, only cavemen profit from sports.

Women?
They are a hassle, I'd rather go with something less demanding for so little pleasure.

>>443785

Wow, what a self-centered faggot. I wouldn't want to be your friend.

>>443796
Good, because I don't want to be your friend either.

Shit, I have nothing to say to that.

>>443810
>>443796

Congrats, now you both don't have friends.

I never had it, as it were. I was the fatty from day 1 of primary school, isolated and picked on from the start. Thankfully that gradually declined as I got older.

But I'm better than I was, and have friends. I'm happy enough.

>>443818
Now both of us will Stay virgins ;_;

>>443844

FATTIES SHOULD NOT EXIST IN MY PERFECT SOCIETY. PREPARE TO BE CLEANSED.

I have had a pretty good life, I'm just lazy.

>>442673
Keep working on it and show it to us when it's ready for CGs, programming, etc. I'm sure at that point there will be a few anon that would jump on the boat.

I was already pretty pathetic prior to getting into anime. I love video games and reading, those were my two main 'guilty pleasures', if you will. But I'd always study hard and get good results and it's kind of paid off in a way I guess and I had decent friends that remain with me to this day (though I've shed the ones who I dont really share anything in common with). As for the girlfriend situation, never had one, mostly my on fault, I kind of EXPECTED that to happen (get a girlfriend) and it never arose, mostly I guess because I am antisocial. So I immersed myself in the internet even more, I'd post on quite a few forums, the Yahoo news ones (good trolling back there in the day), various game related ones and so on. I pretty much got banned from every registration enabled forum I ever joined though. I think I managed to rack up something like 19 accounts on the Bethesda forums, the mods can spot me from a mile off on there now. Then it just went from bad to worse, I found 4chan in 2005 and the non-registration element appealed to me, I quickly became immersed in the weeaboo life. 4chan was basically the coup de grace to my social life, despite the bullshit I'll incur from saying this, I really enjoy some of the boards on here (definately not /b/), it's a really enjoyable place to be at times.

The same people who sage these threads are the people who will quite happily bump and reply to 'MAH GIRLFRIEND' threads.

>>444049
sage because my girlfriend is in PNG format

At least now I know I can kill.

This thread makes me feel bad for you anons. My parents are still together, I was never beaten or raped, and I have plenty of friends. In fact, I haven't really "lost it" yet.

I kind of just want to take every anon that posted about their bad past home and show them my happy life.

>>444158
So you can rub it in?

>>444158

No one gives a shit about you.

I think I can safely say I haven't lost it yet. Only thing that bites me is perhaps my powerlevel but my committments to other things other than just the internet balances it out. That, and retarded relationships I've had. Essentially all it took was one girl, one fucking indecisive girl to destroy any confidence I have at a love life thus far for two years now. But I suppose it's not that bad. Shit happens, we'll get over it.

SHIT HAPPENS, /JP/, MOVE ON.

well some few girls confessed to me when i was in high scool, i accepted the first one, and rejected the others mostly because i already had a girlfriend (wich was pretty and smart, and the others werent). but after that, and by finishing school, i realized i didnt know what to do with my life, what carrerr i should follow, i lost confidence and started to get into a hole deeper every month that passed, until i met a girl wich became my best friend and then my girlfriend (she got me into anime), but she was a complete bitch, for what i started to date another girls on vengance (she was cheating on me and i wanted to do the exact same). and it went really ok, i was able to socialize with other girls and did it ok, but then a lot of sad thigns hapent (tl:wontwrite) and i got depressed and came to /a/1. then i realized i could never confess to a girl because im too shy, and my standards are too high because of my past experiences, and my only hope is for another girl to fall for me again, but its impossible since i dont go out or try to socialize now.

>>444188

I don't like being a grammar nazi but you're asking for it.

>>444208
I miss Grammar Nazi.

>>444208

It seemed to start out okay, but got worse going in.

Maybe it was such a traumatic event he can't think correctly when speaking of it?

the nevar ending runon sentence
>>444188

my english is still bad. im an spanish grammar nazi, tough.

I can't feel any sympathy for whiny fat people. It's your fucking fault for being a fatass. Stop devouring every food you see and learn some fucking self-discipline.

I typed a brief story on the entirety of my life one night, all into a text document. It took me 11 straight hours to type, then I went to bed. When I woke up, my mind felt crystal clear, but I had also reminded myself of just how terrible my life was up 'till now. I now have frequent thoughts about killing myself more and more every day. But at least I don't really like to pity myself as much anymore when threads like these arise.

>>444386
I've lost ~40kg, give me my sympathy.

>>444188
>scool
>wich
>werent
>didnt
>carrerr
>wich
>vengance
>thigns
>hapent

Fat guy.
No girls.
Most social contact I had was in elementary school(people came to my fucking birthday party)
Going to college for no reason other than to delay finding out how to make a living(as a degree won't really help because I'm terrible in a work environment)
Recently quit my job I had since 16 because I wanted to shake things up, drowning me in debt and causing me to rely on my parents who refuse to pay for schooling(dad won't be happy when he finds out I withdrew from three classes this semester alone)
My right leg almost crapped on me and I had to go to physical therapy and got treated by a guy my age, obviously doing loads better
Have had sleep apnea for years now, basically causing any sleep I get to be ultimately useless unless I wear a mask linked to a machine that pumps air into my throat while I sleep to keep it open.
I hold a belief that my imagination will allow me to write an amazing novel that will sell tons, however I know that most writers barely even manage to get published and quality of writing has no effect on how well something sells
I post on 4chan
My mother(whom I live with) is forcibly trying to make me get another job, and she seemingly has nothing else to do during the weekend(she might be down any minute now to take me to the local dominicks to apply)
I had a job interview yesterday for a security position where you have to keep clean and professional, work 12 hours days, and have shit pay. I was 40mins late due to getting lost 3 times on an expressway and not knowing where the fuck it was, and the guy told me that my resume was unprofessional. That was the 4th job interview in my entire life.
I'm a loser and I know it, and I struggle with it everyday while I ultimately just want to sit around fooling around with a game, fapping, posting on 4chan, or watching pirated tv shows.

I haven't lost anything. I found something that most of society hasn't found.

I'm envious of fat ugly guys who lust after hot Japanese girls because above all, they're male. I'm female, ED-NOS, and I guess I'm not that bad looking in comparison to some - but since I'm female I'll never get close in a romantic way to any of the girls I like so much.
I never had 'it' though, so I've got nothing to miss. I've always been a friendless antisocial geek.

reposting my story that I have saved on my computer for threads like this.

I`ve never been confessed to, and most of the times I confessed to someone I got standard "not my time" or "i`m too busy" replies. Most of them were bitches anyways.

Situation changed in High School. On the first year, I had a shitty class (28 girls and 2 boys, counting me). So yeah, getting a girl there was almost impossible. When there are too many girls around, they just treat you as toys or free food source. Since I`m a funny-type guy but at the same time an incredible asshole, I quickly showed the class that free food is a no-no (as opposed to my only male mate who was just a dirty asslicker and shared everything he had, not noticing the girls were just using him to get free stuff).

Anyways, there was this fat chick that kinda liked me because I have unusual tastes and preferences (thanks, anime and 4chan) but I quickly told her to GTFO. And there was this other girl that was just perfect. Shorter than me, very cute, we had same tastes in food, movies and other stuff. She was very shy and possibly socially retarded, because whenever I was walking her home, we were both at loss of words. And her reactions were cute too. In school hallway she was always standing alone somewhere away from other classmates. In other words, my perfect girl.

So I started walking her home (same direction) almost every day (fuck all this cash lost on bus fares) and talking to her occasionally. And one day I finally gathered enough courage to ask her out (which was VERY hard for me since I`m extremely shy). Guess what.

"Uhh... [blushing - YES, SHE WAS BLUSHING I THOUGHT MY NUTBLADDER WOULD EXPLODE]I`ll tell you when you get online today..." and then she ran away.

cont'd from >>444595


So I just went home, suppressing my happiness because I don`t like when people see I`m happy. I try to play the cool-guy that doesn`t-care-about-anything.

Guess what reply I got. Guess fucking what.

"Sorry, but how should I put it. You`re not my type."

Well since I was watching some sort of a moeblob shit at that while, I didn`t care that much. Told her "oh, that`s too bad now gtg watch animu". And that was it. I stopped walking her home, talking with her (why should I bother with somthing that hard when I get no cash or secks for it?) and acted like nothing happened.

But now, almost 1,5 year after the incident, I`m having regrets. I think I want to try once more. She`s really cute and it`d be a waste for her to lose her virginity to one of the assholes that are flooding our school.

tl;dr: shy, extremely cute girl turned me down even though I`m considered handsome and funny

>>444585
That's the same type of thinking that everyone here has.
The thing is this: None of us are ever going to get the imaginary dream girl that we lust after. It's not entirely impossible, but it's far too small of a chance to even remotely consider.
But this is the same case for everyone, not just us. Everyone loves someone that they can't have, such as a celebrity. The difference between them and us is that they can see the people around them, while we are too trapped into fantasy.

Basically, we don't need to completely get rid of fantasy, but instead incorporate some reality into it.

>>444598
Idiot. She wanted you to fuck her. Girls like that are just afraid of getting close to people, you shouldn't have believed her.

>>444386

I know, feeding the trolls and sosuch, but nevertheless, you fail to factor in biological effects. Now, I'm not making excuses, I know what I am and, quite frankly, I don't care. Just because you're fat doesn't necessarily imply unfit. Although the two tend to go hand-in-hand, the definition of fitness is, according to your average Fitness textbook, is the inability to perform standard, everyday tasks with little or no impediment due to biological factors. In other words, considering you're a college student, if you're able to get to class a block away, up the stairs, and to your classroom while toting your books, you are fit for the tasks at hand. Now, if you're a professional athlete, your definition of fitness changes. It is far from a static perception that can be applied to every person, but it is rather a classification that can change depending on the person in question. A programmer needs far less energy to do his job than say a triathalon runner.

>>444585
Yeah, because love can blind girls, but not usually in regards to gender.

From reading all these blog posts, /jp/ anons have shed every strand of humanity within them to feed their fantasies.

>>442276
Fucking midgets, I hate them.

>>444608

Well fuck, too late now. Too bad I didn't have the balls to approach her again.

>>444670
Please don't believe >>444608

>>444636

I see it as more akin to changing your clothes. During the day, my mind is that of the everyman, I am pleasant and courteous to those around me. When I have finished being out and about for the day, my mind showly shifts into something that would make Matou Sakuya's vagina scream in terror as I partake in my... Hobbies.

>>444690

We think alike. Though I leave that one "mad" sock on my feet when I change to "daytime" clothes. Just because I like to sound insane.

>>444690
I guess that's what happens to every one of us who are forced to leave our hobbies for the day, due to school or job. Anyway, I sometimes look at myself in the mirror after the day and realize that I look so much better, so much more handsome when I'm at home relaxed, than when I'm in the outside world struggling with other people and social situations. Even now my hair looks fucking great on me, but if I see myself in mirror at school it looks fucking stupid.

>>444716

I agree with you, but I think if I ever became a NEET, I really would lose any hope of a normal life.

>>444690
Jekyll and Anonymous?

>>444726

That or the phantom of the opera.

>>444733

That implies we have a chance to get the girl.

>>444585
I'm with you on this one. Yesterday was prom night... and all I could do was watch while the girl I love above all else -- my best friend -- danced up and down her boyfriend.
/jp/ you make me sad ;_;

>>444615

Samefag here.

Anyways, as for why I lost it... I don't really think I have. Not in the traditional sense, anyways. I've always been your stereotypical smart kid, but my 'falling out' in society came mostly at the expense of myself, I have no problem placing the fault upon myself. I got cocky, and it killed me. I felt I had entered intellectual God Mode, but, as the saying goes, pride comes before the fall.

One of my favorite topics of study has always been the 'weird' aspects of science, quantum mechanics, dark matter, the string theory, et cetera, to which I studied to the point of relative nausea. I felt I was better than everyone else, and, though that may have been halfway true, there is always someone better, and I let him get to me. I had always worked outside of class, focusing little on my regular studies, and instead doing the aforementioned weird stuff and simply coasting by (albeit with a B+ average) on natural talents... That is, until I started taking AP courses. I was used to getting A's and B's with little work, but then, upon taking three AP courses in one year, along with two college prep classes and one normal class, I broke down. Although it is true that this is the same year I am currently involved in, that isn't the point I'm trying to make... If I really am trying to make one at all.

>>444798 continued

Anyways, I have always been an anime fan ever since I was young and watched some of the rather poor shows of the 90's (Gundam Wing--Albeit a very good show--and DBZ, not so much good with DBZ). Either way, in my Freshman year, I began to slip out of normal society, which is when I started to get proud. I could go into some family matters and reasons but, quite frankly, I've given up on naval gazing. Although it is a pivotal part of who I am, and it did shape me, I try not to think about some of the things in my past. Little of it is worth remembering, and even less is constructive. Although I still twinge at the thought of romance becuase of failed relationships, I try to shrug it off, some might say repress, and move on.

However, take comfort my fellow Anon... I am not telling you to pull yourself up by your bootstraps. That isn't for everyone. Each individual person has their own issues and problems that they have to deal with at their own pace, and who am I, just another Anon brother, to tell you at what pace you should do it? Be yourself, and don't let the IRL trolls keep you down. Blow off some steam in some way, be it with computers, games, physical activity if you swing that way, or whatnot. It'll make you feel better inside.

>>444598
>And that was it. I stopped walking her home, talking with her (why should I bother with somthing that hard when I get no cash or secks for it?) and acted like nothing happened.
Yeah, you fucked it up. She won't want anything to do with your shit now.

We all talk on this forum about how we have no friends and can get none because no one understands us. We talk about this on a forum where everyone (minus the trolls) understands each other and share similar interests. We could easily become friends with each other outside of this forum via IRC or IM yet we are too much social recluses even online to do such a thing. LULZ

>>444874
> forum

So what is the easiest way to kill yourself without any pain?
I'm just curious. I couldn't kill myself because then I would leave my mum and sister alone with this son of a bitch dad of mine.

>>441948
Lessons in manliness, the younger years.

>>444787
Sucks doesn't it? I'm sure we all have a best friend story.

>>444878
Self-immolation.

Fuck it.
I'm lonely.
Email is pinkshurikens@gmail.com.
Let's be friends.

>>445003

signing you up for some spam

>>441750

Less than half of that shit applies to me

Fucking newfag these days trying too hard

>>445024
Ditto.

Wow,what a bunch of pussies...
so pathetic it hurts,really...
Am I the only one here just for fun?

>>445055
Most of the time, I'm here for boredom as well, although everyone has a few ronery stories.

>>445003
I can't have sex with you. Go away.

>>445055
Use the fucking spacebar and don't use three periods.

>>445024
>>445038

lol

>>445055

I know someone who types exactly like you do, and sound just as stupid. Are you brazilian by chance?

>>445003
LET'Z BE FRIENDS
capslock, cruise control, cool, ctc.

Yes, that's the most I've ever said to a girl in my entire life. Ever.

Hi.

>>444604
They can see the people around them?
How is there a difference between them watching their idols on t.v., while we watch ours on the computer?

Ours could possibly be more real since we actually interact with them.

well when I was about 15 I fell in love with this girl (who was japanese incidently but i had no intrest in japan at the time)I was a really popular handsome guy at this point so i charmed her and we dated for a good two years.
We had so many good times and memories and I loved her so much.
Then i started getting worse at sports and could barely stand some days.i would be withered up in pain.
I found out i had cystic fibrosis.
It had just started to flare up(usually this thing is discoreved at birth) and i ended up being in hopsital for about a year...she broke up with me.. I cant blame her ..
then one day not lonf after i got back to my hometown from hopsital I saw her with her new boyfriend..he made fun of me ..called me a "cripple gay" or something and she laughed she fucking LAUGHED..
I tried to fight him but i was so weak from the disease .. he kicked my ass and I just remember getting up..puking up blood and looking at her with bloody teary eyes for a few moments then stumbling home as fast as i could
after that i became really into all this and I stay at home alot , my illness is getting more controlled right now and hopefully i'll be going to uni soon

>>446155
;_;

>>446155

thank you anon.
now that i typed it out im starting to get choked up :(

>>445003
I'd be your friend, but knowing myself, we'll probably say "hi" "what's up" and then be done with the conversation

I hate myself

>>446155
this is the saddest post in this thread. i hope things go better for you, man.

>>446155
AND YOU ARE ALSO TRAINING TO BEAT THE NEW BOYFRIEND, RIGHT?

>>446187
You just need to gather your courage, mate. Our conversation started with, "LET'Z BE FRIENDS OKAY BUDDY, MATE, COMPADRE, MY COMPATRIOT IN THE RONERY DIVISION.
capslock, cruise control, cool, ctc."

Really, you can't get much worse than that for an opener. Things to talk about come naturally, you just need to be interested in talking.

>>446155
>>446183

Fucking reeks of generic and bullshit.

>>446155
You've got to be fucking kidding me.

That kind of cruelty is just fucking ridiculous.

I'd have no self control in that kind of situation. If I had a gun I would fucking use it there and then.

>>446191


thank you.yeh I think things are going better now , it was a bad time in my life but things are looking up :)

>>446192
haha yes every waking day!
but actually ive only seen him like once since then and I havent seen her since that day , I stopped going to school so i doubt i will again

>>446218

Are you asian?

>>446155
give me the cunt's myspace.

or whatever, I live in the UK but if I can find out his phone number I will bombard him with abusive phone calls until I am sent to jail.

GIVE IT TO ME!

>>446203

it does sound lame and generic i guess.
but i didnt write some sad story for the hell of it.
twas the worst moments of my pretty short life and thats it.

>>446233

no , why?

>>446233

oh wait I think i get it.
you asked me cus asians dont carry the gene and like most /jp/'s in denial I might lie and say i was.
niceee one

Both parents are now dead (in the space of the last 2 year ;_;)

24 years old.

BA and MA grad with a good job (Law Firm).

Nice Apartment.

No Girlfriend for 4 years.

Apartment in question is covered with wall scrolls and electronic stuff of all kind that cost me way too much.

Only girl I've ever got on with is my sister (older) and she's living with me too now - I've been deeply in love with her for some time, to the point where I lie awake at night thinking about her, yet I can't start anything because it would ruin what we already have.

So you see anon, anyone can be a failure. It doesn't matter how much money you have or how many girls you have slept with.

>>446280
Go for it anon.

>>446280

just marry your sister.
your dead parents wont mind.

>>446268
>>446259

I asked because you reminded me of someone thats asian.

>>446300
I think that's illegal, besides I don't know what she'd think of it and I don't want to ruin what is already an awesome relationship. I guess I like it as it is now, but if SHE wanted to go further I wouldn't say no.

We cuddle together on the couch watching movies and stuff though. Closest I've ever felt to another human being while we did that, even compared to fucking my ex.

>>446324
Don't do it. Most people think incest is creepy- Despite what Japanese doujins and 4chan is trying to make you believe, incest *isn't* normal and can ruin your ties with your sister.

Just cherish these moments you have together. Maybe it isn't even love- Aye, love, but sibling love, and not love as in, "I want to build a family with her and spend the rest of my life being her lover".

You don't have to marry her, but maybe just see what her reaction would be on the subject...watch Koi Kaze if she enjoys anime.

>>446344

My friend did that with his sister and she figured out his game straight away after years of him completetly hiding it. it's probably not subtle at all watching Koi Kaze.

>>446280

>>446383

lol
How did that work out for him afterwards?

>>446395
Yeah I'm interested too

>>446383

she basically wont speak to him now.
Im not sure if he made his opinions of incest too clear while watching Koi Kaze as he wont say much about it to me.
But i do now after it she fully knows and she thinks he's a complete creep.

>>446343
Good points to be honest. I do deeply cherish her totally, but maybe it isn't 'love' in the traditional sense. I can't deny I love hugging her though.

>>446383
>>446407
Wow, poor guy, how exactly did she find out? And how do you know she thinks he is a creep?

>>441750
ITT we're in denial and we are aware of it and we don't care

>>446421
The problem with getting too engrossed in anime/manga is that you start losing sight of reality, and think incest is totally OK.

Watching a show with fanservice doesn't bother any of us, but think how you would react if it was the first anime you saw, or one of the few? I'm sure many that don't engross themselves in this sort of hobby find it creepy people watch anime where little girls flash their panties every five minutes.

Seriously. Don't do it. Don't ruin your life on that small, small chance she might feel for you in a loving way. Good family ties work different from love, even if they seem a lot like it.

>>446444
Ok anon.

I'll stick with your advice. Thanks.

>>446421

she just figured it out because he asked her to watch Koi kaze with him as far as I know.

He's not that good at being subtle though so im guessing he probably over-milked saying stuff like "it's not really wrong if they are in love etc"

If you think about it asking your sister to watch an anime about incest with you is mabye reveavling alot?

>>446421
I still hang with him and when she has to talk to him - "mom says dinner is ready" etc - sjhe wont look him in the eyes and looks disgusted tbh
and also he told me she thinks he is a creep.

I remember he used to pervy with her years before and she didnt mind but obviously she does now.

>>446454

lol

>>446444
I do happen to think it is ok, though.

As long as it is not abusive and both sides consent...I see nothing wrong with it.

Of course having children from an incestuous relationship is another topic all together.

>>446454
>I still hang with him and when she has to talk to him - "mom says dinner is ready" etc - sjhe wont look him in the eyes and looks disgusted tbh
and also he told me she thinks he is a creep.

Wow, so he basically destroyed his relationship with her?

Fuuuuuuuuuuuuck.

Is she hot? Older or younger?

>>446474
Aye. But as I presented before; People that don't watch anime would think of you as a creep if you are the sort to watch anime where little 12-year old girls flash their panties every five minutes and redundant scenes of their flat chest are added. And naked transformation scenes á la Nanoha.

But people have this thing that they call "moralistic mindset", which really just means that there are things you -do not do-; And more often than not, incest is one of those things you -do not do- according to a popular moralistic mindset.

Really, to be frank, I think people that obsess over lolis and shotas are creeps.

how do these threads always end up discussing incest? is it because little sisters are the only girls anonymous can get close to?

Archive this?

>>446480

yeh this was almost a year ago and she's still like that with him.

she's 16 and yeh pretty hot so i cant blame him. he's 19 btw.

yep pretty much ruined.
It makes me lulz therefore to see topics on /jp/ when i see the (often used) advice of "watch Koi Kaze with her"

>>446533
go for it.

>>446530
ring him now and ask him about it, this is really interesting to be honest.

>>446525
It's because the closest thing to a loving relationship with a girl anonymous usually has is with their sisters.

Anonymous needs to learn to make moves on girls to make them fall for him, and anonymous needs to learn that life is good, and there's more to life than simply anime, manga, figurines and everything.
It's okay to go into such hobbies, but not all the time. Go out once a week, take a short walk every day and force yourself not to use the computer for an hour while you do other things.

Come on, anonymous. There's a world right out there; You just need to reach out for it and walk in.

>>446553 goes to nightclubs.

>>446566
Not really, actually. I hate nightclubs just as much as the next anonymous, but to be frank I think some of you are downright creepy with your obsession with Japan and figurines.

I still go to /jp/, because I like trying to encourage others to make something of their life. Even if only one anonymous will ever listen to me, it'll be enough for me.

I miss the Nice Day threads here... And I miss the ronery threads where we'd try to collectively pull people out of their puddles.

>>446583
>And I miss the ronery threads where we'd try to collectively pull people out of their puddles.

Suddenly, it all makes sense. The ronery threads were banned because they caused people to actually leave their homes. This means less traffic for 4chan, and eventually the complete collapse of the website!

>>446583
Exactly. We can be powerlevelan faggots all we want and live happy lives at the same time.

>>446553
but the world hates me, and I can't do anything impressive enuogh to make a girl interested in me

>>446590
Is this a cause of...THE NHK?

>>446592
You don't have to do something 'impressive'. Girls are human too. Be yourself and stop worrying about how the stupid bitches see you.

>>446592
What you lack is confidence, anonymous; Confidence is one of the most attracting traits a person can have.

Try smiling to yourself in the mirror; Trust me, I know, it looks retarded at first, but eventually when you grow used to it, you can carry that smile along with you naturally. And a smile makes you that much more attractive.

Then generally believe in yourself as a person. Tell yourself that you aren't at all worthless; Whoever claims you are is an idiot. All anonymouses are good people at heart, and though they may be social recluses, they all have the potential to grow out to be wonderful people.

You just have to earnestly believe in it, and strive to become a better person. Ask some friends who are good at talking to girls, and ask them for some hints. There's no shame in admitting a weakness.

>>446583
I think you are a girl, I think you have a messiah complex too.

>>446616
>What you lack is confidence, anonymous; Confidence is one of the most attracting traits a person can have.

Are you that 'GARdian' namefag posing as anonymous? I'm sick of the 'confidence' buzzword that you faggots like to throw around, knock it the fuck off you fucking cuntrag. You'll only feel confident around those you share interests with in the first place. So you have to find social settings in which you are guaranteed to have people who share real, tangible interests with there.

>>446649
I can't possibly "save" all of anonymous. This isn't "Welcome to the NHK"!
But the least I can do is be nice and supportive to people that look like they really need it - And at the moment I feel like anonymous sometimes really needs that push in the back, those words of encouragement.

I used to be like all of you. But then a kind anonymous encouraged me to do more with my life, and now I have returned here in hopes that, like that anonymous so many months ago, I, too, can make a difference for anonymous.

>>446673
I'm not that person, anonymous. And I think you're wrong - I don't feel it is proper I push my beliefs down on you, but confidence comes from within you, not from your surroundings. (Even if they add to it.)

Confidence is when you are able to do what you want (within reasonable bounds; No rapings please or other such twisted acts) without caring if others think you are a loon for doing so.

Don't be so bitter, anonymous.

>>446689
Take your catch-all meaningless terms like 'confidence' and shove them up your ass you fucking posturing faggot.

Anonymous needs no help from anyone. He needs only support from his fellow anons, not some strutting faggot who likes to think the reason he's finally got a girlfriend is because he's James Bond reincarnated and not just because he was in the right place at the right time.

So in conclusion, FUCK OFF!

You can't tell people to suddenly gain confidence, when they may have never had it in the first place.

"Just be yourself"
"You'll find someone special someday"
"Just go up and talk to them"
"Gotta be confident"

Fuck off with your cliche bullshit advice.

ITT RAGE

>>446734
fucking seconded.

truth is, and I'm not saying this as an advicefag, this is something that my brother - a guy who is excellent with women - once said to me: There's a difference between finding someone to fuck and having a girlfriend, finding someone to fuck for a one-nighter, yeh, that requires all those little buzzwords arrogant 'self-help' dudes like to spout, such as 'confidence'. But finding a girlfriend is different, it just kind of 'happens' if other conditions are met (being fit and healthy, being in an environment where it's possible to meet someone e.g. work or uni and so on).

>>446616
I have a very high opinion of myself, I'm just bad at talking to girls. I have no idea what to say to them. I've tried to listen in on conversations whenever I see a group of girls in a restaurant or on the metro, but to be honest I wouldn't even want to talk about the shit I hear them chattering bout.

>>446709
Yep, this is clearly GARdian, posting anonymously.

>>446734

I agree with your RAGE

So how do I gain this confidence when I'm depressed as fuck, generally hate society - my family and a bit of myself while having no friends or any kind of support other than anonymous internet forums and been this way for over a decade?

Lol @ thread.

>>446764
I dunno, if I saw a guy that'd be completely convinced he's a bag of shit, I'd think he's a bag of shit and needs to stay the fuck away from me, no matter how right the place and time are.

>>446835
Did I say those were the only conditions you silly little whore?

Take your buzzwords and shove them up your rotten, herpes ridden cunt.

Oh, and gtfo /jp/ while you're at it.

>>446857

here here for some well needed RAGE
kudos to this anon

>>446857

second'

>>446835

What makes you think guys would be automatically interested in you?

Man this shit is too REAL for me

as much as I like these threads where we can all bawww together, at the same time, it makes me feel like nothing but shit. I was getting through fine just idly the past weeks these threads haven't popped up, but now I'm so frustrated at how my life turned out to be the way it is now. shit cock motherfuck you guys.

>>442673
wow so another anon is working on a VN, I just started making one myself from the ground up and am doing pretty well.

Long story short, I never developed social understanding and the only friend I ever made latter beat the shit out of me on a bus a few years after we drifted apart. In high school I made a few since I would always bring in gaming magazines and it just became habit for us to sit together. In college now and have contact with 2 of them though instant messengers and I have just been getting physiologically worse to the point I have panic attacks in social situations I can't fake what to do or if I'm touched and not prepared for it. I manage to be able to fake social niceties well enough that most people don't notice I'm a complete fuck up but I really don't know how to start up relationships or maintain them. I don't wish for people to be more like anime or other such fantasy since in general that is just selfishness from how most of those scenarios are set up, I just wish I couldn't see the shit in everything and frankly just getting emotionally and mentally damaged by trying to put effort in to it.

So you doing a serious one? I'm just mocking 40k for the most part in mine for /tg/

I had a really good idea for a vn but I can't draw and I suck at writing dialogue so it hasn't gone anywhere and probably never will