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>>43454540
:D

BEHOLD, THE RAREST 2HU!

This is now a Rin thread

>>43454540
Rin's sprite in Mystia's Izakaya is very cute.

>>43455064
Exactly

>>43455109
Very cute Satsuki Rin anon!
More like this?

>>43454540
The only 2hu popular for being unpopular
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uJT_3mh2DdM

>>43455121
That's all I've got from the game right now, I'll try screencapping her small sprite's other angles whenever I get her as a customer.
She's a collab character from this game, which is also currently on sale.
https://store.steampowered.com/app/1260810/Touhou_Blooming_Chaos_2/

see you all in gensokyo

>>43456552
Goodbye anon, I wish you a pleasure dream and a peaceful end.

>>43454540
>I'm going to kill myself
That makes two of us.

Let put some color on someone who don't exist

rip OP

>>43454540
Anon.. no..

>>43461758
rin OP

i couldn't bring myself to jump
don't want to go into further detail
post more Rin

>>43463670
Welcome back and I hope life will bless you with kindness.

>>43463670
Glad you're ok bro

>>43463683
>>43463958
i still want to die, i'm just not sure how to go about it anymore

>>43464282
Just remember;
If you kill yourself now, you will have been outlived by dylan mulvaney.
Pretty much stops me whenever I feel like giving myself a ballistic haircut.

>>43464282
Maybe you could use this time to think and reflect on yourself and try something new, I know not what trouble you but I can only give kind words and praying for your life, but in the end it your choice what to do with it, take care and may many blessing fall upon you.

Life is very fragile but it still very beautiful

>>43463670
I'd just like to say that sticking around is always the better choice since life can just inexplicably get massively better.
I know it probably sounds like complete bullshit copium. I remember when I was in a state sort of like yours and I simply rejected any motivational words as being either self-motivated lying to appease their sense of "saving a soul" or naivety from those privileged to be born into endless happiness. I fully thought it was over for me from the start and the only reason I stuck around was pure cowardice towards death.
But now, I feel much better than ever before. And not some 2 day delusion, but actual stable, months-long happiness. So yes, it can happen to you. But, of course, if you really do end it, you'll stop rolling the dice and never experience that.
Well, I can't convince you I'm not in either of the two camps I stated, but I hope putting my thoughts out here as purely as I can shows you I mean them genuinely.

>>43464282
I'm only a stranger but I recommend you do not pursue such impulses any further.
My best friend went to Gensokyo last year. Every day the memory comes to mind and every day I call him a retard.
As >>43464564 said, the feeling can just gradually pass you by. I've experienced it. It cleared up for me around 27-28. My life isn't really any more together than it was but I feel better.
I don't know if it was the catalyst but I began actively appreciating the different sensations of existing. Things like contemplating how nice it is to feel sunlight when you've been in a cold room all day, spending a couple of minutes looking out at the sunset or listening to the wind rustling trees while staying in bed. I think those moments of appreciation grew into a general enthusiasm for life. There's always new media to discover, old favorites to put on, new things to learn, dummies to teach, cats to pet, pizzas to eat, personal records to break, dice to roll, cards to flip, etc. It's just fun. Now when I do those things I sometimes find myself thinking "damn, he doesn't know what he's missing."
Good luck anon. I hope you give life another chance.

>>43464282
Hey dude don't kill yourself, you matter

It like a fading memory

>>43464564
>>43466377
i genuinely appreciate your posts but i've been through this already (second attempt, ~6 years since the first one), everything came and went, i made new friends, tried out many new things, took every step i could towards self improvement and many more things, and yet i found myself in this situation once more
right now i can't do anything, jumping was my only way out and i can't afford any other options, i've given up on the notion that things will get better so i'm just wasting my time on the internet while i still can
hope you can understand

>>43471455
That is sad to hear, I won't say that things will get better but I can say that your presence will be miss by those who life was touch by you and the world be darker without you, don't know what to say to help you but feel free to vent and chat with us while you still here, sorry there wasn't much I can do for you.

>>43454540
You better not mess up or else you will live on as a vegetable with no way out.

>>43471455
saved a friend from doing it. I was too some years ago, but I got motivated from some dumb shit and I am now here at the very least

it sucks to see others fall into a dark place (no dark puns intended), and there's no comforting words that can leave the bitter tastes in anyone's mouths from attempting.

Life doesn't get better, you just either get tougher or more numb.
But before you go... are you really gonna let your worst enemies outlive you lol

At least stay and do something that makes others appreciate your presence. Small things go a long way. How about this one: a small drawing for you!

>>43471455
I don't like it. It's a guaranteed waste. Wasteful of everything that brought you here today and wasteful of everything you can do from now.

You sound like a man swimming against a river current. After struggling to swim up the river without finding success you realize the folly of doing so. You can't get to where you expect, so you are considering drowning yourself instead of relaxing and letting the river take you where it may.

I believe we all have a place and time the universe favors for us. I also believe we're free to reject this place and time but doing so causes internal strife. I suggest placing yourself where the universe wants you to be. Where is that? Well, if the universe wants you somewhere it's not going to hide it behind a mystery. It wants you to follow its designated path so its chosen path would be the most agreeable one for you to choose to follow.
Think simple. Simple is not the same as dumb. Simple is straightforward. The universe is straightforward. Listen to yourself; not just your voice or your mind's voice but also the ethereal part of you that has no voice.

>>43471455
It can be really hard to place whatever is dragging you down. For me personally, it was a strong lack of self-justification. I tried to apply a lot of self improvement stuff but none of it really made me feel better and I'd end up always breaking away from it eventually.
In retrospect, it's obvious for me to see where my passions are and what I should've done, but at the time I was always completely clueless. I became more and more reckless, basically goating death into taking me. I justified it to myself by thinking it made me "feel alive" (adrenaline is a hell of a drug), but I was really just looking to die. Of course, fucking around eventually leads to finding out, and I only survived my own idiocy by a hair's breath, spending months in a hospital bed.
I hope I'm not making too much of a blogpost here for dumb yapping you don't care about, It's just that I hope you can believe me that you have no idea what future you will cut off from yourself, and even if you think you've tried it all and there's nothing for you here, there will be things that will truly make you happy, the alternative is statistically impossible. I also want you to know these things are so much more individual than it's often presented. You shouldn't take the non-effect of applying advice to mean that you are cursed and nothing will work, but that you have no choice but to look at yourself and really try to understand what is making you unhappy. And even if you can't figure anything out and have to keep trying blindly, when something clicks and releases you it will be clear as day afterwards what you were missing.
I can't imagine a fate for myself where I'd gotten my wish and missed out on all of the happiness I've experienced now, and I don't want you or anyone else for that matter to end up so.

You Were Never Really Here

in all due honesty, ever since i came back i've been suppressing all thoughts of living and doing things i might enjoy
>>43472931
thank you
>>43473422
i don't think this river is taking me anywhere, i've never had a real path to follow in life nor the aspiration to do so, i've always been guided or ordered around by someone else, don't think i've ever made a real decision on my own accord and i'm tired of it
>>43474716
i understand you
i'm perfectly aware of everything i don't like about myself but i either can't change or am averse to changing, i had several clicks in my life (so to speak) that gave me outbursts of happiness, but ultimately it never lasted
i just don't know

>>43479433
What makes a decision a real decision?

>>43479433
Is this now a mental health/suicide prevention thread?

I wish I was born death

>>43479433
So, if you've had glimpses of self-realization and ideas on what to improve, why resign? Can you really believe that it will never get better, if you've had peeks at the opposite?
As for a aimlessness, it's like that for most, if not nearly all, people. The the "passionate since young childhood" single-goal character is so commonly shown specifically because it's so rare and fantastical. There's nothing wrong with picking at choices as they come, and if you're truly unable to decide then even picking at random is acceptable.

>>43486133
i just don't know

>>43492206
Well then, just let your life flow calmly and get a better overview over your situation, instead of doing something hasty and regretable.

>>43492206 #
Well then, just let your life flow calmly for a bit longer and get a better overview over your situation, instead of doing something hasty and regretable.

To exist or not exist

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>>43454540
Anon, I don't know what you're going through or exactly how you may be feeling, but whatever you end up doing, I hope you find peace.

>>43464303
For me its that if I kill myself my death would be used to bump up gin crime stats

why do you like this non-existents person?

>>43454662
oh

>>43461758
Did he really die?

>>43531516
Nope, see >>43463670

It feel like a warm dream, I want to relive that dream again.

I know you're all having fun posting the Comiket girl but I hope everyone here realizes this isn't actually "Rin". ZUN has said so himself multiple times.

>>43535452
She's also not Cirno but that doesn't stop anybody.

>>43535452
That was an April fool joke that got out of hand

>>43535452
Yes, we know. It would be nice if ZUN posted her original design one day, but that'll probably never happen.

>>43537039
There will be many things we will never see but let enjoy what we can see.

Hello? are you still here?

>>43535452
Rin has a name and no face. Circle girl has a face and no name. Together they are a whole.