/jp/ - Otaku Culture

>>41278994
I am. Sorry.

>>41278994
i wish i just could move away from everything

>>41278994
Today I went to weigh myself and i lost my balance while I was on the scale and my fall caused me to shit all over the floor since I was naked. I had to take a shit badly but I thought it would be interesting to weigh myself before to see how heavy my shit was.

yes I'm a hiki

>>41278994
A hikikomori? Nah not anymore
Still a NEET but I like going into nature and going out for hikes and stuff

>>41281548
Mexican Andy what are you doing on jaypee???

https://youtu.be/x0rFgY9eUZE

>>41278994
I go out to buy groceries orce or twice a month. That's not a lot, but I'll spend a lot more time outdoors when I move to Gensoukyo

>>41278994
Sometimes I wonder why I'm not a hikki with how cruel people can be the few times I do leave the house.

I am hopeless hikikomori with nothing in life going for me.
If not those few internet friends that I genuinely care for, I would probably took a stroll to abandoned bridge in my town and take a fly to fantasy land. But alas, I'm a fucking coward.

>>41278994
I'm a hikikomori winner.

>>41282813
If there's one thing I wish I knew beforehand after entering the workforce, is how petty and awful grown-ass men/woman could be to each other.

I went from leaving my home maybe once per year at christmas for around 10 years to being able to go outside and even order food in person(no bully this used to be impossible for me)

now I'm in the golden zone where I'm not well enough to work yet but well enough to enjoy life a little bit more, it's pretty nice

>>41278994
not a hiki anymore, but a loser for sure. I try my best to get out once in a while. I've been trying to get into photography and once or twice a month i go out to take pictures.

anybody else can't get away from this website? I'm lucky enough to know someone to talk to, but it's too tiring to make conversation. It usually takes me a few weeks to respond to his messages.

>>41283101
I don't know why they're like this. I'm always polite to others. I hope those people just die and leave the polite ones alone.

>>41284045
>I don't know why they're like this
Because they actually have small real things to live for like everyone except the chronically online.
There isn't a cure for this because they aren't the disease.

>>41283261
Want to be friends

>>41284783
Not that guy, but not sure I understand your post. What does having things to live for have to with being a petty asshole.

I have my passions and love, yet I don't go out of my way to undermine or be envious of my colleagues.

>>41284045
If you feel like this is being directed towards you, they probably sense some sort of weakness in you. Just my experience...

>>41278994
Soon ill finish my college and all I dream about is becoming a hikikomori. However I have no idea how would I sustain myself. Im aware that living shut in costs very little little but still gotta have that little money
Gambling money on crypto doesn't seem like a reasonable thing to do
Indoor garden sounds like a meme and still doesn't pay the rent

I'm 31, still a hikkikomori.
A few months ago I managed to gather myself enough to get a remote work job, it's shit and shady but I'm getting money, though not enough to live by on the long term.

I tried streaming, knew it was a stupid idea for a guy who has social and emotional issues, deleted everything after a few weeks.

I learned to read hiragana/katakana thinking maybe I can use my weeb interests into a marketable skill but lost interest after the 2 weeks of learning kana was complete.

I know I can't stay like this but I can't seem to work up the spirit to try harder.
Because when I do, I end up doing something really fucking stupid and make a mess for everyone. I want to try harder and I want to stop me from trying anymore.

Didn't expect to live this long, figured I'd off myself before wizardry.

>>41285787
Stay strong friend

>>41285827
This actually made me cry what the fuck

>>41285787
Hope things turn out better man

>>41285829
>>41285787
>>41283261
>>41282837
If you believe that you wasted your life, as you seem to have insinuated you will gain nothing from regretting and will only depress yourself. You cannot change anything from the past. There is something that I can assure you of that will always be true. It does not matter if you live for the next 1 year, 5 years, 10 years, 15 years, 20 years, 30 years, 50 years, or even 100 years. The day before you die you will regret ever worrying about your life instead of thinking of what you want to do. Every new year that you do live, you will regret not having started anything you wanted to do the year prior, only regretting the past more. What I mean is that you should think of what you want to do today; not starting next year or next month, but today. Thinking that you are not going to be able to do anything in the future will only ensure that fate.

- Adam Lanza

>>41285859
>Adam Lanza
Dude was a warped lunatic, but if he got the help or sense of tribe he deserved, I feel he would've done many people good.
Also, that cookie recipe he authored is aces.

>>41283135
>able to go outside and even order food in person(no bully this used to be impossible for me)
I went outside some time ago to buy a book and when I stood at the register I could neither say "hello" nor "thank you" or anything else. I could barely breathe.

>>41278994
Kind of. Got a university degree, high grades, the works.. but I don't have a job. And now, eight months have gone by since graduation and I still don't have a job.. I just watch movies in my pajamas all day. How do I stop being so lazy? I'm not sure.

>>41285720
Crime. Online scams. Crypto schemes.

>>41286854
>I went outside some time ago to buy a book and when I stood at the register I could neither say "hello" nor "thank you" or anything else. I could barely breathe
I don't want to sound like someone trying to force pills down your throat, but I went from 'cannot function normally in public' to 'completely relaxed even when talking to strangers around town' over the course of a year thanks to medication provided to me by a psychiatrist. I thought pills could never work for me, so I never even considered them. I was 25 when I finally gave them a chance, and now I am very relaxed both at home and in public. For me, it was a very good thing.

>>41283261
>I'm lucky enough to know someone to talk to
Lucky indeed. The only person I had to talk to was my cousin, but now he's living in another country and he's busy with a wife and a kid.
I tried to befriend other people but it didn't work.

>>41286949
>dat room
cozy.
>how do I stop being so lazy?
i have no idea. i am a sloth.

>>41286854
I used to be like this
at my lowest I haven't left my home 3 years straight, not a single time not even for christmas.

I don't know your situation but getting a psychiatrist is what kickstarted all of this and it still took like 4 years for me to get somewhat better, I can take the bus now, make appointments and go to the store without exploding with fear.

If you can get the chance to visit one I would highly recommend it. it's not even about anti depressants altough they can help. Having someone to talk to that you have to visit like once a month and gives you tips helps a lot. Just having something that forces you outside helps you to slowly acclimate. Also you can get meds that help to keep your heartrate down so you don't shake like crazy when you leave your home, I had to use them for a while at the start.

Good luck anon I know you can get better
I thought I was a lost cause but I managed to turn things around and if I can do it, so can you

thanks for coming to my TED talk

>>41283101
What do they do?

>>41286995
>>41287699
I'm working on it, but I don't think I want to take pills. Maybe a psychiatrist is the better choice. Thanks, anons.

>>41283101
With me they're not being petty, they're insulting me, following me around and laughing at me despite how hard I try to be polite and mind my own business. I can't be a hikki because there's too many things I enjoy outside but I can't handle how strangers will use you as their punching bag for no reason.

>>41288137
You're assuming that there is no reason and I'm telling you that there definitely is one.

>>41288137
If I were your coworker I wouldn't insult you or laugh at you. I would defend you.

>>41287979
Or buy a pretty dress to wear so you feel better about yourself when you go outside.

>>41288168
Would you fuck him?

>>41288168
>>41288231
This is the hikki thread, not the homo thread.

>>41287699
>Also you can get meds that help to keep your heartrate down so you don't shake like crazy when you leave your home
This is a good suggestion. Many people don't wish to see a psychiatrist because they assume they'll be forced into SSRIs or other medications that alter brain chemistry. I too expressed such concerns and instead was given something for performance anxiety, more like a blood pressure medication to reduce heart rate and the physical symptoms of anxiety. Just that made getting through social situations significantly easier. Still an awkward fuckup, but at least it isn't physically painful to do so.

>>41288152
Well, I've been called ugly before so maybe that's it but aside from that I can't find a reason why. I don't even approach or talk to people before they start mocking me.

>>41278994
oh no. im 100% a hikikomori. That's just my choice. im not living a hedonistic life of fapping and video games though. not all hikikomori are losers

>>41286949
Eight months isn't the end of the world. I think a lot of employers will give it a pass if you make up a good excuse.
> I just watch movies in my pajamas all day.
Just a suggestion, but try replacing your passive hobbies with more mentally stimulating ones. Stuff that requires your direct input like art or music might help you regain your sense of productivity.

>>41287699
I used to visit a psychiatrist when I was a kid. It didn't help me in the slightest.

>>41286949
>eight months
Trust me, you're still in a great position.

>>41283101
>>41288137
I had this problem for the time I stopped being a neet hikki. It was at my job mostly, at a factory that worked alongside a pretty important international one (though other places treated me like shit too).
My own coworkers and bosses made every day living hell, and I'm not some weirdo like you would imagine, I acted normal, talked to other two new coworkers normally (the only kind people there), helped, did what I needed to do despite being mostly quiet. During the first month my boss would literally say in front of me to another coworker "I reall wanna hit this guy..." and both would laugh, then I would get yelled at and insulted by other coworkers and during my last day (I didn't know they would fire me that same day) my other boss would walk by behind me and on a low voice only I could barely hear, he would insult me.
I vented a bit, but the months tried to stop being a neet shattered me. I needed medication to go through every work day and my agoraphobia got worse. The couple of guys I talked to wanted to gtfo too, and most people usually leave that place quickly.
I'm now back to being a neet but go out to do chores and exercise at my home gym like always. I don't believe I was made for this, and I don't know how other people do it and manage to get what they want in life(good job, money, forming a family) This situation is actually crippling my plan of meeting someone I've been wanting to meet in another country for a while. This whole year that has been my only light of hope, but time goes by and chances run out quickly.
At least there are other anons in similar situations and I don't feel too alone.

>>41288318
This is the homo board.

I think I am a hiki because I never had a single goal in life. There is just no reason for me to go outside (well, as long as I don't need to get a job).

I've worked from home since the pandemic so there's no reason to go out. I know no one in real life and all of my hobbies are inside. I'm a hikiwinner like this guy >>41282866

https://youtu.be/BM-s164_EBo

>>41288318
Remember the board you're on.

>>41289096
Not your fucking therapist, but you're not giving yourself enough credit. Yeah, you lucked out on a shitty job and coworkers, but these things arent exclusive to the painfully neurotic. Almost everyone has had a shitty job they've hated or couldn't get along with personalities at some point, ask your parents at least.

You made a successful attempt by acquiring a job and even managed to hold a shitty factory for a month. I've worked in similar environments and I have seen able-bodied grown ass men abandoning their job post during one of their breaks(not even lasting a week), tail between the legs.

I think it's too early for you to give up just yet.

>>41289541
>>41292668
Just because someone likes Touhou and visual novels doesn't mean they want to kiss other boys.

>>41293971
every anon I met on jayypee was a huge homo who wanted to shove their fat throbbing cock inside a cuteboy who wear skirts

I honestly thought I wouldn't make it after stuff that happened to me several years ago, yet Im still here. Didn't think I'd get a job anytime soon and Im already working at a decent office job with cool coworkers and bosses out of luck. Didn't think I'd be able to buy myself my own stuff yet here I am with a decent gaming pc playing all the games I wanted to play since ages ago and even took an interest in learning JP and coding, writing and drawing.
The only thing right now is learn how to manage my time better to have even more time for everything I want to do.
If even I was near death's door and thought I wouldn't make it just to end up having a decent life in the end, means a lot of people here can do it. Don't give up just yet. unless you like being a hikki then, I guess its fine if it floats your boat

>>41293530
Thanks anon, and it was for 3 months.

>>41294178
Pinning down and fucking a cute boy wearing a skirt is not homo. It's completely straight.

I dropped out of uni after many failed attempts that ended up destroying my mental and physical health and never told my parents.
I got a part-time job before the pandemic and work remote ever since, it's barely enough to pay rent and eat but I don't know how much longer I can keep this up, I'm approaching wizard powers and despite having no issues talking to people and going outside I just feel physically ill all the time due to years of stress, trauma and self-medication.

I failed NEET mansion mission assignment. Result: frown town cyberstalking theft and life on rails, inability to pursue happiness, people talking *at* me..
Conclusion: I don’t want this life, yet again.

>>41299459
Clarification, the postal clerk in town attempted to lock me in the room with a Karen behind me; I slipped out when she had the keys in her hand ready to lock the door because lunch at 10:30am? I didn’t look behind me. I was trying to get a passport. Now my wallet is stolen with many diamonds in that wallet for which I went into some serious debt. I don’t even bother calling law enforcement anymore; literally zombie moan refridgerator wtf also Wendee Lee Perfect Blue neon tetra death.

Not fun.

Someone in town said “Atkins lulz cow” at Sonic within earshot. I have no friends, not on purpose. I am not Chris Chan. Literally this shit needs to stop.

>>41299554
>Someone in town said “Atkins lulz cow” at Sonic
Dreams are one thing, if you see whatever you're supposed to be describing in reality you need meds.

>>41299437
What country, friend?

Also, the clerk at Little Rock: I noticed you. :3

Meanwhile, Homo africanensis are literally following me around everywhere I go, and have been for literally decades now. Probably ramped up when I tripped as Julien in 2015 and wrote that there is no reason to say ‘’nigga” on 4chan, /jp/ especially.

Also, Milk, wtf?
>TJmaxx ghost posting is over; United States should be canceled.

>>41299581
Who / what are you?

>>41299581
>>41299691
Stop talking to yourself holy shit it's so obvious you're the same person

>>41299581
Stalkers were literally in the psych ward before I got there in late 2015. “I heard my Mom getting raped”, they said. XNU license plates; Caroline Elizabeth sapphic fiction author, she writes books about literally gaslighting me.

>>41299710
Unlawful arrest, false imprisonment, cyberstalking… not cool

>>41299723
>>41299607
I left the Chan life an went to Instagram in 2015. Tumblr couldn’t leave well enough alone. Now, celebrities are driving by my house I think; let’s just say life is very weird and impossible to live to enjoy the fruits of what life I managed to scrape together for myself when I didn’t know that I was being massively stalked and bullied.

>>41299710
(You)

>>41299878
https://www.linkedin.com/in/eileengalvin
Silent Hill Heaven, you probably have my posts..
Julien, Yurien;
pleasant smell, cigarette smoker, Julien Donkey Boy, Julien Assamge
fake names, fake names everywhere

>>41300392
My name's not Eileen

>>41299869
Suffering, all of a sudden realizing that like, one’s life will never be the same.. Boxxy..

This is my upper pelvic region as of less than 5 minutes ago. Toxicodendron. Not fun. Diamonds gone.

>>41300425
Caroline Elizabeth? My email and class ring also reference the crow. Microbiology: MCRO.

>>41300425
Zac Enron, Gold, SLO.. Charlotte, imdb and Wikipedia. Rice rolls.

I can competitively touch anything digital, from art to music to code and make more than a stellar amount of money from any of these areas in a small amount of time.
But I can't actually keep myself invested in any of said "hobbies" for more than a week at best as I literally do not feel any joy from it, so I've never actually held a real job and have only lived off of small bursts of commissions/third party work and as such I am constantly running the risk of flat out losing my home/electricity/water just because I "don't feel like doing it".

Life is good.

>>41300806
I'd competitively touch you desu

>>41300829
Odds are I would not enjoy it.

>>41300829
that sounds like rape

I was a shut-in for most of the year. Not really an impressive record, but I used to feel obligated to waste time with people I didn't really like.
Unfortunately I don't have much, and the things I do have are starting to break down/aren't sufficient for most things.
I plan on working for a year or to get a decent computer and savings in case I get thrown out. After that, I'll try and find a way to make money at home maybe, or get another job for a while.
I just want to be left alone.

>>41301561
>decent computer
I want a good computer too man my shitty computer can barely function at this point

Where are you faggots getting these remote jobs? I've been stuck working brain-dead jobs swarming with normies for years now...

failed normalfag general

>>41305589
If you can code you'll get one.

I just don't care at this point. Where I live is boring, I know everywhere like the back of my hand so I have no urge to go outside to a place I know so well. But it costs money to go somewhere else, and I'm not suicidal enough to go somewhere broke. I'd rather rot in my room than end up having to work all day and night at a job I'll slowly grow to hate again.

There is no reason to not be a shut in at this point. The outside world is degenerate and beyond redemption. Humanity is no longer capable of being reformed. The only tasks left to mankind are to purge the flesh of wantonness and prepare for battle, physical and psychical.

is being a freeter any better, bros?

I was a NEET for 7 years and I stopped being one 3 days ago. During the interview, the guy asked me the same question about work place drama like 3 times. This made me worried that I was answering it incorrectly but since I got the position now I am worried he asked me because my new job is full of meanies and they are going to bully me until I get fired and blacklisted.

>>41310780
Failed normalfag

>>41310780
>During the interview, the guy asked me the same question about work place drama like 3 times
it's probably not that great of a place to work...

I barely step out of my apartment, let alone my room. Im pretty sure I spend outside less than 6 hours a week. I have a job though

>>41310869
>I have a job though
Failed normalfag why don't you post on LinkedIn instead of /jp/

>>41310780
I've been one for 5 years, maybe 6, most of it during my teens as a dropout and have never worked a day in my life. That has to change soon and I'm scared employees are going to ask why I have zero work experience

>>41310881
If you look young, just volunteer at some place for 3 months, BOOM. That's literally enough to get your foot in the door for most ghetto retailers like Walmart, Ross, etc. Work overnight if You're THAT bad with people, hell, it even pays more since no one with a respectable life is likely to do it.

>>41310921
>Work overnight if You're THAT bad with people
That is the plan. I'm hoping for a security guard graveyard shift, pays well, security contractors are scrapping the barrel for guards especially night shift and there will be little interaction

>>41310968
Whenever someone tries to get into a confrontation with you you'll beat them up, right?

>>41310968
>>41310993
Every security guard posted at my workplaces have been without exception some schlub/basic-bitch who I wouldn't even trust guarding anything over my pet Jack Russell Terrier. They're usually just a body kept posted for screening temperatures, passcards, and greeting.

solitary nightwatchmen positions are extremely rare but great if you have negative social skills and are enough of a creep "creepy things" don't really Creep you out.

>>41310993
Stroking my own ego here, I'm a tall and scary looking guy but have never been in a real fight before so hopefully being scary looking will get me by
>>41311067
>are enough of a creep "creepy things" don't really Creep you out
Mummy says I am a brave boy so I should be fine

I wouldn't consider anyone who wageslaves for a society that doesn't want them to be a "winner".

>>41311084
How can a 172 cm guy like me compete?

>>41311162
Don't worry, I'll let you sit on my shoulders for maximum height

>>41278994
I'm going to move to a farm soon.
I'll be able to stop being a hikki and won't have to look at or interact with strangers.

Anon moved to Ram Ranch, I am so happy for him

>>41311415
Doesn't anal sex happen at ram ranch?

>>41311441
Not sure but for some reason U.S Marines keep trying to raid it

my mother just told me that she wants me to get out, exercise and spend more time with her or I have to leave. I don't know what to do anons. you can't become a normalfag once you've been in this shit for years. I wish you all the best

>>41312007
spend time with your mom
and you don't have to become a normalfag, just try to function enough that you don't instantly die when you live alone, thats my goal at least

my mom would always invite me to follow her on errands and whatever and accpeting it one day was the first step to doing errands on my own

spending time with your mom would probably make her happy as well, I think she cares about you if she has demands like this

>>41312007
Hang out with your mum, I go out hiking with mine and it's good fun and exercise

>>41278994
Worse, I am a failed normalfag. I had a plan to actually fix my life and I was working so hard on it and it completely collapsed this year

>>41315248
I hate normalfags

Bump

>>41289541
>>41292668
I thought this was the Just Pedos board not the Just Homos board. But with the increase in homolive posters I guess that's changed.

>>41323890
Baby bump never

Modern therapeutic culture promotes the myth that there is nothing that can't be undone or changed if you are unhappy. You can take pills or go to therapy and everything will be a-ok. This is a lie.

You cannot waste your youth and emerge, years later, from your hiki abode and pick up right back where you were. Past the age of 25 or so its all over. The most ambitious people your age will have houses, careers, maybe even families, and you will simply fall further and further behind with each day you spend in isolation.

>>41332021
Stop comparing yourself with people your age. You can find happiness and a meaningful life in your own way.

>>41332021
It's never too late, it's just up to you whether you deem it worthwhile to chase after your fruits, considering what circumstance and obstacles you may be experiencing at the present.

Suicide is an option.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vmvIFTJigSw

>>41332048
I don't know why this isn't a concept that passes through normalfags heads, they're like crabs in a fucking bucket trying to get everyone to partake in the same rat race as them

>>41332740
Wasting your life on the internet, porn, gaming, etc, is an even worse rat race.

>>41332763
Bold to assume I'm doing that faggot but keep telling yourself that working a shitty wageslave life is spiritually fufilling for you and will make you a certified Good Person

>>41332780
>Bold to assume
Not really, you're on /jp/

No one cares about being a good person, I have no idea what you even mean or where you pulled that from? Maybe you're more accustomed to tw*tter or r*ddit?

>>41332763
I'm not gonna lie, everything feels like a waste. I don't really want anything grand or life changing. I could have all the money and power in the world and the most I'd do is fuck off into some solitary corner of the planet.

>>41278994
I just don't want to be dependent on people who hate my guts.

>>41278994
30yo hikikomori here
i'm not sure where my life went wrong. by all accounts i should be successful, happy and blessed. I have an amazing family, university degree, great body, 6ft, white, 6.5 inch cock, reasonable money, decently attractive with a good physique etc etc


yet i've spent the last 10 years rotting away in my room in total isolation. i leave once a month for a haircut and i speak like 10 words to my barbor he thinks im autistic. i drink myself to sleep every night after binge watching anime and pissing in bottles. the most interaction i've had with a women was a hooker with whom i was too nervous to even finish. apart from that i'm a khhv. once my parents kick the can i think i'll be departing

thanks for reading my sad story

>>41278994
define a hikikomori

>>41332780
Wageslaving is gay but if you don't have some work, skill or art to work upon every day your mind can decay.

>>41338502
You are the perfect example of that.

>>41339451
I've got worse than mere mind decaying going on.

>>41339493
clearly

i want to stop time so i can just rest.

>>41344054
I feel that

>>41283101
This, but they're really nice to me for some reason.

I was miserable wageslaving, miserable at university, I am still miserable as a NEET but now I can wake up whatever time I want. I consider it a bittersweet victory. It seems the hardest part of this lifestyle for many is the disappointment of their family, so for morale it's important to remember they probably didn't have the highest expectations to begin with. Ganbatte.