/jp/ - Otaku Culture

Could be worse, I could be Tewi.

I just got back from work.

I'm expecting company today.

>>3602620
Right, if Anon took Tewi's place it'd be a death sentence.

Everyday is Sunday.

>>3602620

Jet lag zzz.

>>3602638
Pukukuku

Why yes I am a fucking loser, it beats having to work and being a winner.

Fuck you Tewi.

I haven't gone out in over a year. I live alone, I don't have any friends and I'm estranged from my family.

Sometimes, I feel like I'm completely going nuts.

>>3602679
You probably are going nuts. Get help.

>>3602679
Living off a government check? Don't you have to go down to the office every now and again?

>>3602679
What >>3602681 said.

>>3602686
They mail them to you, and you just mail the form back. Never have to go in. I havn't started getting my free money though, but I know someone who does and you never have to go in.

>>3602615
What about it? I went out with my weeabros Friday night, so some free Saturday is quite welcome.

>>3602703
I wish i have some weeabros too... my only friend is a faggot with Asperger syndrome.

>>3602686
Oh, I leave to get food, but that's it. Usually at night, and I keep myself covered up with my hoody and don't talk with anyone. I work from home as a software consultant for another company in a different country. I still talk with the people I'm working for over the phone or VOIP a few times per week. Between that and 4chan, it's the only contact I have, and probably the only thing keeping me somewhat sane most of the time.

Should I go to the hospital or walk in clinic and ask to be seen by a shrink? I don't have a family doctor. Or do I call up a social worker? I was never really prepared for life out in the real world, so I don't even know where to start, or what would be considered a good decision here.

I haven't spoken with my family in 7 years or so since I got kicked out for renouncing christianity.

>>3602679
>I havn't gone out in over a year

>>3602731
>I leave to get food

You know, I don't usually bitch about fake hikki/neet fags on /jp/ but come on.

>>3602731
Well, dunno, is there a reason why you've cut yourself from any social contact? I wouldn't go into a hospital since all they'd give you there would be some Thymoleptika (read antidepressiva), but rather search for the cause with a therapist?

>>3602741
Oh forgot one

>I still talk with the people I'm working with

If you can handle talking to fuckers, stop whining.

>>3602741
Sorry, I meant leave to out on a Saturday night with company for a fun time, which is what OP's post is about. I had one friend a year ago, but he moved away after getting a new job in a different city. Haven't kept in touch.

>>3602754
Keep in "touch" with THIS *grabs dick*

>>3602754
If you aren't just a loser pretend fag like usual, but have actual head problems, then fine.

You should see someone, but believe me it doesn't really help usually. It's only nice in that it forces you to talk to someone on a weekly/bi-weekly basis, which helps somewhat on its own...but unless you wanna take the meds, which I've always said no to, then it comes down to fixing it yourself.

>>3602741
How else would he get food, you fucking idiot?

>>3602758
Yeah, that's what I thought... thanks.

>>3602758
Why would you say no to meds?

>>3602762
Same way I do, as I actually barely leave my own bedroom, let alone my home, usually for months at a time.

>>3602758
Oh, and just to be clear, I never claimed to be a hikki/neet. I'm just a loser with no friends or family and no social life.

>>3602780
So you had no problem going out on a magical curry tour and cooking food for strangers, but you can't even find the courage or motivation to leave your own room?

>>3602779
I really don't like any sort of drug that messes with my head or makes me feel weird. Same reason I don't drink or do any other drugs...and hell, even when I'm prescribed shit like vicodin I only take it if the pains to the point of making me almost pass out.

In the end I guess it's more that I think using the meds wouldn't solve the problem, it'd just give you a different one. Things like this are things you need to really fix on your own, sure maybe via talking to a counselor or therapist, but not with the help of drugs that make you skip a lot of the harder parts of the process. In the end you'll either keep needing the meds, or never really fix your issue.

>>3602803
While that's a fine reason to not take meds, I think there's a point where you should just shut the fuck up and take them. If >>3602780 is true you might be past that point.

But whatever, I don't want to argue this since I'm also refusing for the same reason.

>>3602803
I feel the same way Currybutt. Especially having been blessed with a healthy immune system and body.

>>3602803
There are harmless drugs without negative effects, you can even take them your entire lifetime if you wish.

SATURDAY NIGHT FEVER

>>3602796
Magic is the key word there.

>>3602820
The thing is, I don't want that. Reliance on a drug to fix my problem is NOT fixing the problem, it's simply sweeping it under the rug. That might be okay to a lot of people, but even being such a failure I'm still a stubborn fuck who thinks I have to fix my problems completely and not just pretend they don't exist.

>>3602833
Yeah, but if you're really a massive massive fuckup you should probably just take drugs TEMPORARILY, get into a better position, then see about getting off them.

>>3602833
Yeah, I agree with your thoughts, it differs for every other person after all.

>>3602833

I actually have a lot of respect for you now, Elesya.

>>3602857

Forgot to add what >>3602856 already pointed out, if you're seriously that fucked up, one should consider them to get into a better position and think about what to do next. I for one did this to sort things out, got myself into a better position, having social contact, going out with mates now, applying for jobs and working part time now.

This thread taught me that /jp/ doesn't take its medication. No wonder it is full of NEETs.

>>3602833
>not just pretend they don't exist
Imagine me pointing my finger at you and shouting THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT YOU ARE DOING YOU BLIND FOOL!

I just finished my first day of work. Yay!

>>3602887

>>3602901

Congratulations! Keep it up.

>>3602874
From what I can tell it ain't easy to just drop them when you feel like it in a lot of cases.

Another part of the problem (in general) is what I want in the way of 'fixing' it. Yeah, I want to be able to get a job, finish college (not like I can afford it now that my loans are wasted), and if I felt like it be able to socialize and such (especially now because of waifu).

But at the same time, I don't want friends, I don't want to deal with people, I don't want to ever be the type who goes and hangs out and shit. Nothing against it, I've just always been a loner by choice BEFORE my head got this way. But back then I was able to talk when I wanted to, I was able to do things I wanted to, and all that - hell I even played on the football team without a problem.

That whole 'if i want to i can' is what I want back, and that's hard to get across to therapists and such as they think you need to become a socialfag in order to get 'better'. So even with the drugs, I think in the end I'd turn into somebody I don't want to be all over again, just on the opposite end of the spectrum this time.

>>3602887
More like I'm lying to myself that I'm actually a strong enough person to fix my own problems, I don't pretend they aren't there but I guess I do pretend to myself that I'll ever be able to fix them on my own.

I don't care one way or another, I've been drunk 2 days in a row now, with my friends too, I still can't understand what the hell is going on.
Yet I'm socially retarded, I'm so glad, that I have a brother that's extrovetred and drags me anywhere he is going.

>>3602916
Also throw in I'd like to be able to you know, go outside without having panic attacks. ಠ_ಠ

>>3602916
Well, yeah, it isn't easy sometimes, but it's possible and your doctor will help you with that.

I can't really give any advice on your situation since I'm in a similar one. Sucks.

>>3602731
>software consultant
What exactly do you do at said job. Also, how did you get hired for the job?

tl;dr Where can I find out more about your job?

>>3602932
if you're having regular panic attacks you should shut up and take the meds, dude. Fuck handling that shit "on your own"

It's saturday?

>>3602975
Meds for things like that aren't fun. I'll take anxiety over being a cloud-headed zombie any day.

>>3602975
It's only if I have to go out alone, and typically only if it's to somewhere I havn't been to talk with someone I don't know.

Normally, it's usually not as serious as a real panic attack I just don't know a better wording for it. But just being nervous and stressed don't really cover it completely either I think.

>>3602978
Also, I didn't think about commenting on the drug aspect but basically this.

Taking the meds just for panic attacks takes me to the original reasons I gave for avoiding the meds. Just because something is hard, even if it's extremely fucking bad, doesn't make it okay to avoid it.

>>3602978
Panic attacks aren't "just" anxiety, they fucking suck horribly and if you've had one you aren't going to want another.

But apparently what he's got isn't that bad so it's fine.

>>3602993
triple post from the butt.

But what I meant by that post isn't that the whole 'hurr i wanna do it myself' is the only reason, I'm just pointing it out again - the other reasons I mentioned also apply obviously.

I'm at home on a saturday night waiting for the LSD and MDMA to kick in.

Fuck year.

>>3603000
I've had one, it's seriously nothing to joke about at all.

>>3603026
Yeah, it's definitely a case of "if you're wondering whether you've had a panic attack, you haven't had a panic attack."

>>3603000
Ah right, must be exaggerating!

I was going to explain why that's bullshit and I simply push through things no matter how damn bad they are - but it'd give away too much personal info about my highschool life and make it too easy for anyone who happened to ever come to a game I was at to figure out who I am.

Unrelated to that though, eyah, I've had "real" panic attacks, several, the type that land you in the hospital. So I'm not some idiot who just claims being scared a bit counts as one.

>>3603000
I didn't say they were "just" anxiety. I know what a panic attack is. I'd still rather risk one than live every day in the trance-like mess that pills keep you in.

Damnit CurryButt stop making me feel sympathy for you.

>>3603000
>>3603026
>>3603031

You guys weren't even talking about me, my bad ಠ3ಠ

It's Sunday morning, nig-nog.

I'm going to make one of these pictures for everyday just to increase the absurdity of the message.

HOME AGAIN ON A TUESDAY NIGHT?

GOD, YOU'RE A FUCKING LOSER.

I didn't know /jp/ turned into Livejournal. What a mysterious transformation.

>>3603078
For some reason, "ಠ3ಠ" seems ridiculously cute.

>>3603085
This thread was good before it became currybutt's blog.

>>3603078
No problem, CurryButt.
>>3603073
Well, we we're talking about how drugs could get you to some sort of "starting point".

>>3603073
Eh, I've never been on pills for longer than a week (realized they kept me from fapping and dropped that shit), so I wouldn't know.

I'd assume being in a trance for a year or two might be a good idea for some people, though.

>>3603090
No it wasn't, it was a shitty thread and it's better off as a blog.

>>3603090
>>3603085

/jp/ has always been my blog, you must be new here.

>>3603092
I really can't stand being in that trancy-state at all, can't imagine years of it.

I have a pseudo-panic attack every time I wake up.

For the first few seconds I'm always panicking because I'm a procrastinator among procrastinators. There's always something I'm putting off until the next day and my body has gotten used to waking up and desperately attempting to remember what it is.

>>3603113
That happens to me and I've been a NEET for years. Fuck dreams.

>>3603112
Don't think, feel.

>>3603092
I was on them for a little over 10 months. It gets to the point where, for the few minutes of the day between waking up and taking the first dose, there's nothing on your mind but utter despair and hopelessness at facing another day of deadened feelings, along with a healthy dose of "If I feel this bad after just a few minutes without them, how awful would it be if I stopped completely?"

But yeah, I guess it'd be good for some people.

Y'know, I have pneumonia, If I left home I'd probably end up coughing myself to death. Yet, I still wish I had a waifu to take care of me.

I just realized that it was Saturday.

A few seconds after I realized that, I realized that it was night.

Being a shut-in makes everything run together in your mind. How freaky.

>>3603544
You get used to it with practice.

ITT bad excuses for being asocial and wallowing in self-pity.
Grow some balls you weak-minded shits.

I'm here because I don't really have anything else to do. No friends in real life, or even on the Internet really. It's a pretty boring existence.

>>3603585
>or even on the Internet really
That's possible?

Misanthropy is a wonderful thing.

This thread reminds me of how my sister is spending some time with her friends, 90km away from here.
And how last time she did that, I ended up going together, everyone went to an amusement park and I chose to not go in anything. I'm sure they all hate me ever since then.

HOLY FUCK I SWEAR TEWI JUST JUMPED OUT OF THE SCREEN AND SLAPPED ME AND WHEN I LOOKED SHE HAD GONE BACK INSIDE WHAT THE FUCK

>>3603550
I don't need no self pity or something, i am happy that i don't have no friends. They were fucking annoying me, wanting to out or introducing me girls and such shit.
Now i am much happier alone.

>>3602610
plz stop spammin ur poopy board on anon†alk.com ok its not funny anymore many big thankz and hugz from tinyloli <3

>>3603550
i got a doctor's note he says i can wallow in self-pity all i want

>>3603597
There's the occasional person I talk to, but there isn't really a bond at all. Just some quick talk, and maybe I'll talk to them again after a couple of months have passed.
｡･ﾟ(ノД`)ﾟ・。

>>3603704
Prove it by posting it here.