/jp/ - Otaku Culture

The same as I am now, only sociable, because I hadn't learned to hate people yet.

Back then, I had friends. ;_;

A pathetic crap and now its still the same shit.

I was pretty popular, that ended once I entered high school.

Biggest jerk in the universe.

I had a lot of friends.

>>2708949
Why, what did you do?

The most naive child you've ever seen.

Normal, I guess.
What has changed is the scale of my interests and that I can choose to not be surrounded by people.
Though I was actually a diligent student, now I just do what I have to do.

Incredibly conceited, yet terribly shy.

>>2708959
I was a tsundere.

The same--an unmotivated, lazy layabout.

Brave. Brash. Careless.

I knew what I wanted, I took it. I treated everyone as I wanted to treat them. I would gladly imitate heroic characters from media, and inspire both joy and confusion from those around me.

I can remember a time, as a kid on the shore, a large wave crashed against me. I wasn't scared. I was pissed. I charged at the ocean, and demanded that the waves retreat and began smashing myself against them, splashing them all before they could reach the beach.

I had balls, courage and was everything I'm trying to become again.

But, as with all good things, time put paid to it. Nothing good lasts forever...

I didn't have very many friends, but I had some. I played lots of video games. I was very bad at socializing with people that weren't already close friends. So basically I was just like I am today.

>>2708993
Damn.

pretty much like now

Played games most of the time (amiga and psx)

>>2709018
500 or 600?

The exact opposite from what I am now.

Since I got into puberty and my hormones went crazy, everything changed. I sometimes wish I could kick my hormones in the balls.

>>2708993

>>2709024
500 Plus

I was a pimp. Convinced a 5 year old girl who was in kindergarden with me to run off together, cos i hated being there. Got caught but thats not the point.
Later i left a girl crying for weeks back at my original home's doorsteps cos i migrated.

I had many friends and spent all of my time at home playing video games and browsing the internet. I was actually considered cool in school somehow. People also liked coming to my house and playing games too. This all changed in 6th grade when I turned into a fat blob.

>>2709048
I wish I could kick your ass in Moonstone online.

>>2709037
The whole point of being good is not because there is a reward, but rather, because there is a "reward" for NOT being good, PUNISHMENT.

>>2709062
You are fucking scum and I can only hope that I will someday have the chance to end your life personally.

There is only one reason for being good, and that is because good is good. Reward? Fuck it. Punishment? Bring it on. Because it feels nice and makes you happy? You're a selfish piece of shit.

Do good because good is good. It is the only way to live.

>>2709081

>>2709081
Why don't you go around killing people who insult you on the internet? It sounds like you're a kind of person that doesn't operate like normal human being.

Oh wait, that's right, because you fear repercussions, you fear punishment, you fear consequences.

You do the good things because you are afraid of doing the bad things. Your tough guy attitude is nothing without actions.

I was a cute little boy.
I was a bit indifferent, a bit introverted, a bit outgoing depending on the people around me.
Also somewhat brave, and I wasn't quite aware of myself till around 13.

Now I hate emulating normalfag behavior because I consider it to be a boring waste of time (mostly).

>>2709081
>>2709090
I believe you two need a break from the internet.

>>2709090
>Why don't you go around killing people who insult you on the internet?
Well, for one thing, insulting people doesn't necessarily mean you haven't earned your right to live.

>It sounds like you're a kind of person that doesn't operate like normal human being.
Thanks for noticing.

>Oh wait, that's right, because you fear repercussions, you fear punishment, you fear consequences.
I fear being killed in kind without completing my mission to create an ideal world. If I kill a few, that will only bring about more suffering... Once I begin to kill, I cannot allow myself to stop or be stopped until this world is pure.

>You do the good things because you are afraid of doing the bad things.
Yep, totally. I'm soooo afraid of the law that I have a criminal record! ...owate.

>Your tough guy attitude is nothing without actions.
Wrong. Morality can be judged only by intent.

But I *am* a kid

I stayed inside all day playing the same video games over and over again. So, basically the same as I am now.

>>2709103
You don't earn rights.

>>2709103
You're making yourself sound like an angry nerd who is trying so incredibly hard to sound unique and psychotic. Maybe you are, I don't know, but really, nobody cares. This is /jp/, we take it easy here.

And now for something completely different.

I was nerdy, awkward, emotional, and had a bad case of fifth wheel syndrome. I made few friends and was bullied frequently. I wanted to play with girls but didn't know how to get their attention. If I didn't move from my "hometown" before highschool, I probably would have ended up killing everyone one day.

I am different now. My past no longer controls who I am, my choices do.

>>2709118
Nice story, aniki.

>>2709118
Could you speak more cliché than you already do?

>>2709037
This, basically.

I did as I was told. I barely even toed the line. And what did I get out of it? A childhood wasted.

batshit insane and proud of it.

used to stick shit in power outlets and streak in school.

bitches where all up on

>>2709112
Since death removes any and all rights it might violate and thus killing is not a violation, the right to live is not inherent and must be earned. You're correct when it comes to all other rights, however.

>This is /jp/, we take it easy here.
I'm not angry and I am taking it easy. I guess your lack of social skills translates to an inability to read the moods of others, though?

>>2709118
You're pathetic.

>>2709125
Probably not.

I never noticed that my life was cliché before, but whatever. Individuality is a pointless illusion anyway.

>>2709132
>I'm not angry
Who are you trying to convince here, us, or yourself?

>>2709134
>Individuality is a pointless illusion anyway.
If you are a mirror, you can only reflect those images which already exist. The thoughts--no, the very *soul* of those humans who do not think only as individuals is nothing more than a trick of the light, a reflection of the souls of the superiors among them, an illusion.

>>2709081
Doing "good" because you "feel"/decide on doing "good" being good is selfish. (Because not everyone has the same idea of good)


You don't even question the why.

Human actions are always based on hopes and fears in more or less abstract ways in my opinion.

And I doubt you can find a case where it's impossible to find such a potential reason. But let's leave this and the antithesis as unprovable for now.

I believe we have a normalfag problem ITT.

Whatever makes you happy dudes.

>>2709141
Actually, I'm just trying to piss you off because I find your resistance amusing. What, does it hurt for a life of darkness such as yourself to be so near to a being of light?

>>2709148

Get used to it. /jp/ is only going to get worse over time.

>>2708925
Me as a kid on the right, my current self on the left.

>>2709151

>>2709146
No, I question the "why." I seek to do what I believe to be good only because I wish to create a world I would find most enjoyable. Every light creates shadows, but we should not live in those shadows.

And I do recognize that not all humans agree on what is "good"--this is one reason why I will kill everyone who is unsatisfied with the world I create.

Where's that 4-panel MSPaint of the kid growing up in front of a computer? (TURBO BUTTON LOL)

That pretty much sums up my life.

www.AnonTlak.com (l <=> a)

7e84ac335056af8b47fd3825c18fea12

I blame my parents.

>>2709164
Hey, killing all people that think differently works nicely to create a perfect world in theory, true.

I wonder why you would want create a world with happy people though. Some kind of empathy? Or for a sense of achievement? Or acting morally (something that comes from a multitude of social and intellectual hopes/fears)?

>>2709175
>TURBO BUTTON
Good times.
My first personal computer (as in, not family-used) had to be switched on and off of Turbo with a key.

>>2709210
How about all three?

And it's not just "thinking differently." It's fine to think differently so long as you can still function properly and not shit things up for everyone else. Hell, I'm not even sure how my own world would turn out--not exactly. It could possibly be very different from my sense of it. That's up to the people I leave alive.

Uuu~

Really

I don't want to grow up!

I was pretty cool.

>>2709215
>How about all three?
>Reward? Fuck it.
That are your rewards though. Abstract rewards, but whatever.

Everyone who isn't short sighted is an egoist in this way in my opinion.
Whether they are "scum" or not depends on how much they hurt/help the society and others in their pursuit. This depends on the point of view though.

Anyway, I wish you success with your plans.

>>2709290
It's not really a reward if it is taken or created rather than given, I think. But now we're just getting into semantics.

Also, as far as plans go, I really don't have any. I'm just waiting to see if anything happens to give me a good opening. I'll probably die quietly without ever actually doing anything, but even that would be better than trying and failing.

>>2709306
>It's not really a reward if it is taken or created rather than given, I think.
Does it matter? You do it because the logical consequences seem favorable.

I see what you are trying to get at though. Blindly working for any kind of reward is usually not favorable.

>>2709412
Yeah, I know it's convoluted and hypocritical, but that's how it is. Honestly, though, I don't like receiving rewards from people--I'm sort of a masochist in that sense, as I actually do tend to enjoy, in my own way, the punishment for when I break rules and laws.

Honestly, I may just have some psychological problems. I react with strong negative emotions just from reading words like "law," and with strong positive emotions just from reading words like "rebellion."

Still, I think it takes an "insane" person to be better than average in any intellectual sense, so that's fine.

As far as the egotist thing, I do end up thinking a lot about myself, but it's mostly so that I can better know how to avoid being too egocentric. I want to create a better world, so I think rewards and punishments shouldn't even be paid any mind specifically because of that. How can you make great improvements if your perspective is so limited, yeah?

>>2709242
moar?

>>2709546
Get out of /jp/.

I was the funny guy, the one who'd make anyone laugh with his crazy antics.
A girl who had a crush on me is now doing model work and is super-hot, but at the time I was too much "bros b4 hoes, man". I cared about my clique more than I cared about getting it on with the girls.
Then high school kicked in and I found myself ugly and not so funny anymore. No more place for childish shit, only insults and mortification would make people my age laugh. Like, so adult amirite.
Now I'm 22, late in my japanese major, a shitty part time which nets me the grand total of 150$/month and from which I could be fired anytime, no license yet, no close friends, no prospects for the future.
Where did it go wrong?

>>2709609
>Where did it go wrong?
When you got a job and went to college.

>>2709561
what are you? 12? get out of 4chan

>>2709650
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