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On the brink of killing myself here.

>>2180187

Why? What happened?

>>2180191
Not my blog, but my mother recently died.

>>2180187
>>2180199
dont do it guy

Did you ever have sex with your mom?

>>2180199

Ah. I... I don't think there's anything I could do for you, then. My only advice, while it'd sound assholish, would be to move on as soon as possible. Your mother wouldn't like you to take your life because of her passing away. Nor would she appreciate it if you withdrew from your everyday life because of her.

Best of luck, man.

>>2180182
This is what happened to me recently.

When was the last time you cried /jp/

>>2180230
A couple of minutes ago.

>>2180227

My sincerest compassion, man. That looks hellishly uncomfortable. Plus there's only one worthwile girl in that bunch. You've got a rotten luck with women.

>>2180235
Why?

>>2180230

A few years back, I woke up from a dream I can't remember, tears pouring out of my eyes.

I was confused, but kept on crying.

>>2180236
>one worthwile girl

Let me guess, it's Reimu.

>>2180244
Somewhat similar experience, but instead of tears and sorrow I had an incapacitating panic attack.

>>2180199
Oh god, I don't know what I'd do if my mother died. I'm so sorry anon. You shouldn't kill yourself though.

sick of working as a paperboy, specially because I'm allergic to newspaper ink, but then again I don't have to really talk to anybody on the job either

>>2180216
Serious advice? Could you help me out too, then? See, the problem is that I have no problem but still feel incredibly depressed anyway, just because my life feels like it has no purpose anymore. I have a decent education and a nice job, so I'm probably set for the rest of my life financially, I gave up women a long time ago, and now I just find that I have no way of entertaining myself anymore. I've already tried antidepressants and crap, shit didn't work but I told the doctor I improved so I wouldn't have to take the shit anymore. I used to have plenty of hobbies, among them the vidya, reading, and learning several foreign languages, of which I only really reached a decent level in with Japanese and maybe Spanish. Now all these hobbies have fallen to the wayside, and I've really tried to get interested in them again, and even tried a bunch of new things, but nothing interests me anymore. It all just feels incredibly pointless, and I wish my life sucked so that I would have something to strive for. The result of this is me constantly looking for flaws within myself, because I've come to view that state of imperfection, and even the sadness that goes with it, since it's a nice contrast to the otherwise dull gray I'm endlessly mired in, as desirable. I'm in fairly good shape, because I exercise regularly, but still feel incredibly nervous in any social setting, even though I know it wouldn't matter anyway if I did something stupid and made myself look like a fool.

tl;dr, nothing interests me, medicines don't work, I'm fucked up in the head and prefer it that way, and am constantly nervous. Do I an hero, or is there another way out?

>>2180250

How did you know?

>>2180182

Feels good man. Have a comfortable job programming software and no troublesome responsibilities to interfere with my free time.

>>2180244
Same here, actually, and now I get sad whenever I hear the word "grimoire."

Go back to bed YAF.

>>2180271
Would you believe me if I said that it was just a lucky guess?

>>2180271
Update, nigger.

>>2180261
Go to a shrink.

>>2180254
Oh god, same here. I mean, I'm a pansy still cry a lot, but panic attacks are much more common. How do you manage through them?

>>2180182
It's getting better. After 5 years of being inside my room I started losing weight and going to the gym to gain some self-confidence. I hope to be able to finally finish high school at some point.

>>2180261

It's a purely psychological problem, then. First of all, you did well by refusing to take antidepressants - when they don't work pharmacologically, nor as a medium for the placebo effect, they're nothing more but a poison. I commend you on having the resolve to throw them away - most of the people I know would continue on taking them, if only for the feeling of 'doing something to help' themselves.

Your issue, it that you're stuck in a comma, a stalemate of ennui that stripped you of even something as trivial as existential goals. It's only an assumption, but it's probably the route that's gotten into you. Maybe it's your way of living, maybe your 'goal' in life was to appear in positive light in your mother's eyes? I have no way of saying for sure.

My advice? Instead of trying out new hobbies, try to get back in touch with people. Try to find someone who you'd like to impress, who would find pleasure in observing your successes, just like your mother used to. I know it's easy to say 'go out socialize', but honestly, it's the only way I see. I'm no psychologist, nor do I usurp myself the right to know what's the real problem, but from what I gather, this could be a way out. We don't live for ourselves. Humans are pack creatures - all the loners who fool themselves they don't need the society to back them up, are only that - fools.

If not... Risk your life. Find an extreme sport that lays within your financial and physical abilities, and give it a go. Maybe, just maybe, when you feel the death a step away, tapping at your shoulders, when you feel the whole of your existence clinging onto the life it has, maybe you'll learn to appreciate it again.

Either way, again, best of luck. I hope you'll find your hapiness.

>>2180279

I slept during the day.

>>2180294

Taking a break, since I was burning out.

>>2180283

Attaching a pic of Reimu was a dead giveaway, eh? No matter. Have more.

You are now aware that Reimu's calves are disproportionately small compared to her thighs in the OP pic.

>>2180244

I woke up from a dream last week and felt alive - I was driven, focused, and unbelievably happy. Everything was amazing, and the future held only good things.

Then the feeling faded, and I came crawling back to /jp/ a day later.

/jp/ - Support group

>>2180344
fuck

I just went limp

>>2180366

Here, let me assist you with that...

I wish I knew how to play dem dorfs.

>>2180341
But it's 05:30AM man! What are you still doing here? It can't be helped I guess. I was about to make a witty reply, but then I read the whole thread. Keep on posting Yandere Alice Fag.

>>2180374
go away you ugly whore. I only want reimu

I'm leading a sad NEET life. Wake up, watch some anime, play some L4D, sleep. Rinse and repeat.

>>2180261
fap, go to sleep, forget about it in the morning.

↑　Genuine advice I received from 2chan concerning this subject.

>>2180374
Slut

>>2180388
Same here anon, except replace l4d with tf2

>>2180378

Yeah, it is. I'd stayed up late 'till 4AM yesterday, convincing one of my accomplices from THP not to stop writing, and ended up not getting any sleep at all. Four classes aren't much, so I simply braved through the day, got home at 1PM, and fell asleep, waking up 7 or so hours later. Guess I've killed my biological clock yet again. Eh, there are more important things than making sure not to shamble around like a zombie when on one's feet.

>>2180388

Eh, L4D gets boring pretty fast. Getter get yourself something that doesn't age as quick as Valve's games.

>>2180382

High five.

>>2180378

Yeah, it is. I'd stayed up late 'till 4AM yesterday, convincing one of my accomplices from THP not to stop writing, and ended up not getting any sleep at all. Four classes aren't much, so I simply braved through the day, got home at 1PM, and fell asleep, waking up 7 or so hours later. Guess I've killed my biological clock yet again. There are more important things than making sure not to shamble around like a zombie when on one's feet.

>>2180388

Eh, L4D gets boring pretty fast. Better get yourself something that doesn't age as quick as Valve's games.

>>2180382

High five.

>>2180404
Vastly superior to the advice that fags and tripfags love to spew here all day long.

Pretty shitty.

Ben trying to get a job so I could avoid being a parasite to everyone around me, but no luck. Everywhere I check wants wants nothing to do with some that's over 20 but never had a job before. Tried to get into the military (air force) as a last resort, but didn't pass the health exam.

This is made even worse by the fact I recently met 2 old friends of mine that dropped out of high school but are doing much better then I am at the moment.

>>2180377
Just spend hours on the wiki like the rest of us. Either that or randomly do shit until you finally understand.

herp derp prescription drugs r bad

>>2180326
>>After 5 years of being inside my room I started losing weight and going to the gym to gain some self-confidence.

It's pretty amazing how big an effect this actually has. Self-confidence and motivation just skyrockets when you start exercising often and eating right. It's insane, and I highly recommend it for everyone.

>>2180408
>>2180382

Look, look! I can do the miko gimmick too.

>>2180443

Eh, I tried... But my goddamn meeting room got flooded by horses. There's around 20 of them right now, still breeding, and no one freakin' wants to slaughter them, despite me having issued an order to.

>>2180450
bitches n hoes

Life is pretty good for me. Two weeks to finals, then summer vacation, I'll try to look for a summer job again. The last one was pretty sweet, got paid a nice sum for my writing and editing skills.

>>2180451
Twisted arm is twisted.