/jp/ - Otaku Culture

Why would I want to kill myself? I'm pretty calm and happy.

I finally fully discarded any urges of making friends or getting into a relationship. I've come to the conclusion that the only sensible choice that any person can make in the pursuit of happiness is to delve deep into their mind through meditation and eventually form imaginary friends that they can live with. The imagination is the most powerful ability that we possess. If you can vividly imagine and experience an event within your mind then why bother trying to do that same thing in reality? All urges and desires can be satisfied through mastery of the mind, so any ambition based in reality is meaningless.

Life without any dependence on the company of inherently undependable and disloyal humans and all emotional needs for companionship and love fulfilled through the construction of imaginary friends that I will bring into existence through sheer willpower. What could possibly be a better way to live?

I feel that my entire life has been building up to this point and I'm almost at the pinnacle of human existence.

How can you tell if you're actually suffering from atrophy? I mean I practically live my life laying in bed, 20hrs laying in bed per day getting up only to eat and shower. I don't even use my chair any more, but if I get up I can still do weighted exercises.

I'm far from muscular and my family members often comment on how I look like I'm about to fall over and die, but that's not actually true. If anything I'm the technically strongest family member.