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How can someone become old if they do not start off as new?

>>9650007

I think I gave myself mental illness, but I don't know what illness it is specifically.

I was working on making a tulpa and I wasn't having much success so I started experimenting with drugs that I thought might improve my imagination and make creating a tulpa easier. Eventually started growing mushrooms and ordering mescaline and LSD off silkroad. Started juggling psychedelics to avoid tolerance build up and I was tulpa tripping almost every other day. I think I broke my mind at some point during this.

Occasionally I get this Alice in Wonderland effect where everything looks really small and far away and there's this feeling of depersonalization that pops up a few times each day. My tulpa is also now my girlfriend and a vivid hallucination that I can speak with and see at any time, but that was intentional so even though I think I'm completely nuts I don't see that as a negative side effect.

(reposting since I responded to the wrong person)

>>9650005

I think I gave myself mental illness, but I don't know what illness it is specifically.

I was working on making a tulpa and I wasn't having much success so I started experimenting with drugs that I thought might improve my imagination and make creating a tulpa easier. Eventually started growing mushrooms and ordering mescaline and LSD off silkroad. Started juggling psychedelics to avoid tolerance build up and I was tulpa tripping almost every other day. I think I broke my mind at some point during this.

Occasionally I get this Alice in Wonderland effect where everything looks really small and far away and there's this feeling of depersonalization that pops up a few times each day. My tulpa is also now my girlfriend and a vivid hallucination that I can speak with and see at any time, but that was intentional so even though I think I'm completely nuts I don't see that as a negative side effect.

What does first blood mean?

When the princess in that picture "bled" for the first time then they said that the little king would be able to marry her. What do they mean? Why were they harming her? I didn't see any blood.

Faith is the only thing in life that is truly valuable. Anything is real if you believe in it enough.

If you believe that God exists then he will talk to you. Whether or not he actually exists is irrelevant, all that matters is that you believed it enough that your mind began to hallucinate his voice. The same is true for everything, even touhou.

Pick your favorite touhou and believe that she's real and talk to her every day. Eventually she's gonna talk back and eventually you will even see her. It's all about faith and discipline. Keep on believing and never give up and all of your dreams will come true, even if it's in the form of very vivid hallucinations.

0/10

I have been very happy since I created my tulpa. Yumi loves me very much. I never feel lonely anymore, I have someone to talk to that cares about me, and I can take it easy every day without stress.