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>>22731102
So it looks like I have a problem.
In August 2019, I decided to get acquainted with the Type-Moon universe. I knew about it for a long time and many years ago I received a lot of spoilers from my "friends", recently I completely went through "Tsukihime" and almost to the end of "Fate". I am not a hater of any of the girls, although I confess that while I go through heaven's feel it was literally physically hard for me (Sakura did nothing wrong).
Tsukihime I quickly ran my eyes for the N-scenes (I was told this shit novel), later, on the advice of a friend, I paid attention to Akiha route. You know, I’ve been watching anime since 2011 at school, I was a soldier in the war, participated in fights with bad guys, helped a lot of people (hi Shirou), lost my virginity a long time ago and novels were nothing new to me. I don’t have any illusions about girls, I don’t expect anything and do not demand any care, but then I just melted away. I saw a girl who just loves a good guy and just takes care of him as best she can, a small, thin girl carrying such a burden on her thin shoulders that helps and cares for you in every story. I was extremely moved, I went through her route several times, I downloaded tons of pictures and artworks with her, now I don’t know what to do and whether I’m doing the right thing. This is a damn painted schoolgirl, and I’m already over 20, I don’t want to be a pedophile, I always forbade myself to think that a girl can really love or care, I always thought that I should hide my weaknesses and passions and simply do not wait for any love, but here, for the first time in many years, I’m so pleased and would like it like that, I think about this character and whether there are such girls, for the first time I feel so good and warm in my heart.
Have you had anything like that, anon? Is what I'm thinking okay?