/jp/ - Otaku Culture

>>44801201
not this guy, but continuing from his prompt
>>44813266
>>44813462
Marisa, no fucking doubt about it
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I know I shouldn't. I know... Yet, there's this nagging feeling in the back of my head that won't shut up. Since the first time I've come here and done the deed with Anon, the feeling won't go away. It's an old desire, thought before buried, but bitterly, the passing days have shown me that the desire wasn't dead, simply dormant.

This desire was born the day Reimu came to me, almost two decades ago, and announced her pregnancy.

It started as a tiny flame, but the fuel was plentiful. Reimu would come again and again, and we'd talk about baby names; we'd shop or knit clothes together with Alice, and I'd hold Reimu in my arms when the hormones of the pregnancy just made her that vulnerable. It grew and grew, and I did everything in my power to conceal it.

Times have changed, and this sickening situation has unfolded with a show of madness and disgrace. Yet, it's also a chance.

A chance to finally shut up the feeling. To finally have something I can proudly declare it's mine; something I have not stolen; because what am I if not a thief? I'm known from plundering the Voile; rumors said I'd steal my best friend's -- at the time --, husband; that I stole Shrine Maiden's apprentice, too, as the youkai have been whispering. Even the Master Spark is a stolen technique...

But this little pill in front of me would change that.

Anon asked for me to pick up the fertility decreaser for him and a morning-after pill for myself and, by pure accident, I found the fertility increaser. The name is self-explanatory: if Anon takes this...

... But would I do this? I can't do a thing to free him from Yukari, and his situation is so, so terrible already; what would Anon think when he finally gets released from this sickening place and Yukari is put on trial, and I just come to him with the news? He wouldn't get mad, right? Accidents happen, and no one would notice a missing pill... Would he accept it? Would he take care of them -- them?! T-twins... -- with me? Would he love them? Hana would like to have little siblings?

And Reimu, what would she think of that...?

There was dark satisfaction in the thought I would, for the first time in my life, best Reimu in something that truly matters because unlike her, I'd love Anon, Hana, and my... My children.

My hands began trembling with the disturbing thought; my breath shallows, eyes widened.

"Marisa?"

I jumped, the spell broken. I didn't understand my moves, I just did them, Anon's voice coming from behind: picked up the fertility pill and hid it in my apron, faking as if I was putting the fertility decreaser bottle back in its place. I felt cold sweat throughout my entire body, dripping and accumulating on my torso.

"I-It's okay, I was just daydreaming about a potion I left cooking back at home!"

"Marisa! That's a bad habit of yours. If one thing goes wrong, and you're not there to fix or make damage control, that's your entire house full of powerful reagents on stake--"

"Geez, Dad, don't need the lecture, ze!" I said, red as beet. Anon huffed with a small giggle and a shake of his head. "I-Is the tea done?"

"Almost, I was just checking on you--"

"I'll finish it! You can go ahead and rest!" Anon looked at me, a bit weirded out by how quick and demanding the sentences were, so I had to think fast to keep appearances up. "You're tired, right? Fuck, 'course you are! This place drains you every day... uh, pun not intended... ze."

Anon laughed again, patting my head. I blushed.

"It's okay, dork. Well, I'll take the chance to lay down a bit; thanks for thinking about me, Marisa. It's a rare thing these days." And, quiet but with a smile of a thousand words, Anon headed back to the main room.

I approached the boiling water in silence, eyes wide and dark expression the entire time as I poured two cups of tea for the both of us, fishing slowly the pill from my apron.

I thought about Anon's words.

I thought about all the times he came to my house, he and Hana, and how many times I nurtured her in my arms, such a small thing, and patched Anon up.

I thought about all the times I cursed Reimu's name, our tries to get back her true self...

I thought about the shame, the plunders...

... I thought about my empty, dark home, nothing but spiders and cockroaches awaiting my return.

I thought about a happy family of four: A happy husband to take care of his happy wife who's always getting herself in danger, but, even so, he supports her experiments and magic because he knows those are her passions; two little things to teach and nurture and a rock in a happy teen, always ready to take care of her precious, true family...

I opened the pill and poured its contents into Anon's tea.

I felt shame. I felt free.

And I felt like, for the first, I have a future to look forward to.