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Late but I had a dream with Rena.

I have recurring dreams on ballet, normally painful, about being minutes away from performing and finding myself incompetent. Well in this one I was again oblivious and about to do a pas de deux, but my partner was a younger version of Rena (very beautiful, in white tutu and all) who approached and said to me:
—"Don't worry Anon, it's gonna be ok because we've both have what it takes for it." After that she was going away to prepare herself; I gathered some courage and asked her: "Can we rehearse it just one more time... please?" —she turned back and told me with a big smile: "Of course."
So we started. She said the steps aloud so I could follow her instructions in real time; it was: grand preparation, arabesque, diagonal of entrelacé and double cabriole, triple saut de basque, preparation, several pirouettes with double tour en l'air to the knee... it was overall a damned hard virtuosic piece but, amazingly, I could perform it flawlessly when she was there by my side. Then we rehearsed a bit more together, for the adagio; I was nervous about partnering her, but again she just instructed me the first steps beforehand and just let herself go completely in my hands, feeling extremely light and easy to move; everything went on smoothly and pleasantly on that first attempt, so she gave me a big hug and, with her arms around my neck, she told me:
—"See? if it's the two of us it'll just work out fine. Why are you so afraid?"
—"Because it's been a long time and I'm no longer used to it." —I answered, realizing I wasn't talking that much about dancing but about being someone's partner in general. I didn't say it aloud but my face sort of gave away: "Honestly, I don't think I'm cut for it anymore..."
Rena's eyes clouded a bit and she just said: "I see." After that she used some pretext and really went away this time, leaving me on my own...

Then I woke up.