/jp/ - Otaku Culture

Man this sucks, I don’t really know what to do anymore. I’ve tried moving on but it’s just so difficult. I tried watching other girls but they just seem so lacking to her. I wish things didn’t have to turn out this way, she was the perfect girl. Perfect voice, perfect mannerisms, perfect model, perfect screams, perfect human. Yet she fell like Lucifer, chasing wants into demise. Every time I think about watching another girl she pops into my head and I get upset about the good times we could’ve had. Those games other girls play where they are having so much fun and her audience is seen flooding the chat with laughter, it’s so demoralising. Knowing that this could’ve been the future we all could’ve had, being together with Mike and getting excited about every stream knowing I was gonna have a good time. Hearing her lovely voice everyday with a smile on my face, I could’ve grown old this way. Yet here we are…alone with nothing but shame. I wish things were different, easier, hell I wished everyday that things were at least not THAT bad. Even that was too much to ask for. How do I move on? What can even be done?