/jp/ - Otaku Culture

>>44078991
i'm finding it difficult to decide what to do right now. my family is pushing me to finish my degree, but i hate it. for one, i'm required to do group projects for my degree, which has always ended up in me being alone and either unable to do anything or ending up extremely embarassed and with a half-assed presentation due to not having anyone to help me. secondly, my social anxiety has been skyrocketing to the point where i've been struggling to even go to college at all because i don't want to feel the gazes on me or feel like i'm being ignored. i've alienated everyone in my group from me by acting asocial and never talking to anyone. i also have to live in a dorm room with someone else, which only compounds the constant discomfort i feel when going to college, i barely managed to endure a year of this and i feel that my mental capacity is drained.
on the other hand, if i drop out, i'm wasting a year of my life, potentally destroy my job prospects, and have to face the fallout of my family being pissed at me. i feel like i'm stuck in a situation with no right answer. either i grind my feelings and force myself to endure for the sake of the time i sunk into my degree, or i have to face all my relatives and accept that i lost a year pursuing something pointless. i wish i could just turn off my brain and dull my feelings to the point where i don't feel any pressure