Modern therapeutic culture promotes the myth that there is nothing that can't be undone or changed if you are unhappy. You can take pills or go to therapy and everything will be a-ok. This is a lie.
You cannot waste your youth and emerge, years later, from your hiki abode and pick up right back where you were. Past the age of 25 or so its all over. The most ambitious people your age will have houses, careers, maybe even families, and you will simply fall further and further behind with each day you spend in isolation.