/jp/ - Otaku Culture

this year ive become more and more aware im never gonna feel better about myself and how i live. last year i tried to apply for some part time work to take the load of my partner who pays for everything in our house but i got rejected or no reply from every single one so i quickly gave up, because ive never had a job in my life and probably couldnt handle it anyways. im basically a pointless existence, people are nerds about the same things as me but seem to have endless income and happiness, and ive always resented that so i stopped talking to anyone and deactivated any social media i was using, because all i feel is jealousy. everything i do is a waste of time and space and energy. i used to be creative but my tablet broke and i feel to guilty to ask for the money for a new one so i have just let my skills decay completely. really dont know what to do next besides overdose.