/jp/ - Otaku Culture

Normally I treasure my alone time and days of solitude, but this hikki "lifestyle" reaches certain depths of soul-crushing sadness. I miss going outside and enjoying the warm breeze and the sunlight on my skin. I miss the smell of leaves in the fall, and freshly mowed grass in the spring. I miss being able to just freely leave my home to go on a walk, to smile at passing neighbors and stop to pet their dogs. But things are different now, and I don't really have a choice but to live like this. I'm so ashamed.

If only I weren't so depressed and tired, I might have been able to make something of myself. My dream is to attend college someday, but I know I'm too stupid and I've forgotten every useful thing I've ever learned. In the end I probably wouldn't be accepted, and it's not like I could afford it, anyway. My tip is, don't become NEET/Hikki, especially not if you have a choice. It's nothing to be proud of.