/jp/ - Otaku Culture

The NEET ride feels like it reached the terminus for me. I've been offered to take on mortgage payments as rent, until the owner fully pays it off in a few years, then I'm out of luck. I can manage to get by for about half a year before I'd need to generate any significant income. This opportunity is, unfortunately, a bargain where I live. Rent for a comparable residency goes for over three times the price on average. If I don't take this, I will shortly become homeless. If I do take this, I buy myself maybe two years of extra time.

After those two years are up, it is effectively over for me anyways. I can no longer afford to live in my immediate area, and leaving it becomes a complicated affair that, at this moment, feels like an impassable obstacle. I'm in a position where I could try to start anew on a different continent, but that will certainty kill any future possibility of the NEET life, let alone the challenge of learning another language.

I should consider myself privileged. I have people that I know would be upset should I not be around anymore. At the same time, it is those pressures and responsibilities that weigh heavily on me. I care about those people and I wouldn't want to break their heart, I know that they would feel gutted if I weren't around for a reason like this. Despite that, I can't help but feel like my presence, for nearly all of them, would be something replicable.

I generally enjoy the NEETdom, and it is unfortunate that it has nearly run its course for me. There are moments that having additional cash for more leisurely things would be nice, sure, but losing the freedom of NEEThood is something that feels suffocating. I just hope that there's anything for me during the next two years, should I be able to make it through.