/jp/ - Otaku Culture

>>10921817
I call it

>>10825717
Jokes on you, I'm only 22

About 2 months ago, I was a completely normal person. Then, one night, I read a lolicon manga. I cannot remember if I enjoyed it but it freaked me out so severally. In the fallowing days after that I felt terrible, so much to that I became afraid that I was turning into a pedo. Before this, I despised kids.

But in the fallowing month, I was so shaken that I may be a pedo that now every time I see a hot girl, I feel next to nothing and when I see a kid, I get images of the manga in my head and I sometimes get aroused depending on how I feel. I am terrified that I am becoming like this that I spend almost every night in my room crying. I haven’t had a good night’s sleep in over two months and now I just want to die. Nothing is good to me anymore. Every minute all I can think about is wanting to die. It even got so bad that last month, I held a knife up to my chest, struggling to find a reason not to just end it. I didn’t do it because I was too afraid that I would go to Hell. I can’t bear the thought that I am a monster like this and I just want it all to stop. I want to go back to when I just worried about finding a girlfriend. I just want my old life back. I am not sure whether in that first month I was so scared that I conditioned myself to get aroused by kids because I was afraid that I would no longer be aroused by women. Either way, I just want to be a good person, I just want to be happy again. I can’t take living like this so please tell me if this is all in my head or if I need some serious help because I just can’t live like this anymore.

picture unrelated

here's a scary track that my brother (who goes by the name MHX_hardcore) made PAAFECTO for playing umineko (includes samples property of Ryukishi)

http://www.sendspace.com/file/2mezxy

>Several researchers have reported correlations between pedophilia and certain psychological characteristics, such as low self-esteem and poor social skills. Cohen et al. (2002), studying child sex offenders, states that pedophiles have impaired interpersonal functioning and elevated passive-aggressiveness, as well as impaired self-concept. Regarding disinhibitory traits, pedophiles demonstrate elevated psychopathy and propensity for cognitive distortions.

>According to Wilson and Cox (1983), "The paedophiles emerge as significantly higher on Psychoticism, Introversion and Neurotocism than age-matched controls. [But] there is a difficulty in untangling cause and effect. We cannot tell whether paedophiles gravitate towards children because, being highly introverted, they find the company of children less threatening than that of adults, or whether the social withdrawal implied by their introversion is a result of the isolation engendered by their preference i.e., awareness of the social approbation and hostility that it evokes" (p. 324)

>Studying child sex offenders, a review of qualitative research studies published between 1982 and 2001 concluded that pedophiles use cognitive distortions to meet personal needs, justifying abuse by making excuses, redefining their actions as love and mutuality, and exploiting the power imbalance inherent in all adult-child relationships. Other cognitive distortions include the idea of "children as sexual beings," "uncontrollability of sexuality," and "sexual entitlement-bias."

Which touhou would make the best touhou?

How often a week do you bath or shower, /jp/?

When not cooking spaghetti, it enjoys playing the piano.

What's up with this bird?

Japanese bird playing piano.

>budgie

/jp/ when did you find out that you DESIRED?

I like bird threads, but only because they give me a reason to post this image.

How come Kinzo is synonymous with the ED theme of the anime? When was it agreed that he's the one singing it?

>>3718700

La Divina Tragedia