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>>42665899
Bit curious on what could make you less paranoid in that sort of situation. Anything come to mind?
>>42665719
Fair enough.
>>42665817
Hmm. Not a fan of cold myself, desert lineage. No shame, takes all sorts, don’t it? Your imprinted experience reminds me of the time I had coniine poisoning — it induces flaccid neural paralysis, eventually resulting in a shutdown of the respiratory nerve. Was once a common method of execution in the Ancient World. I’m happy to say that I did better than Socrates, but did have a long period of respiratory depression. Just waited it out, no hospital or doctors.

DMSO is quite a marvelous solution — and quite an efficient topical method of administration. Borosilicate glassware eventually shatters despite being very durable. Two unrelated facts can spell death, or near-death. It’s a function of circumstance, realistically.

I only had animal LD50’s to calculate the intensity of the poisoning, foolishly figured I’d be fine. I was (eventually) proven correct, but still experienced the extremity paralysis and respiratory depression. Could barely move, was aware of my muscles shutting down etc. Occasionally I still worry over possible organ damage, as it wasn’t too long ago. The agent doesn’t interfere with awareness or thinking at all. Subjective time was…quite long. Theravada meditation let me reduce the respiratory depression long enough to survive until the paralysis wore off, can’t say meditation ain’t ever helped me out:)

Anyway. Internet psych is the least useful branch, but I’d guess mild ahedonia if such masochism is needed to ‘crank the wheel’. Were such the case, practicing mindfulness of smaller gradients of sensation/numbness could eventually be beneficial. Who knows really?

Reducing sensation to increase it later isn’t totally abnormal in itself, childhood is a boundary-pushing phase. But your method certainly was, no offense meant. Have you noticed any useful signs of cross-linking: mentally conjuring the end-point has heightened intensity? Might be useful to leverage, if your brain has that quirk.

Bah. Not enough tits in my speculation. Eros Goblins: yea or nay?