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I feel like I'm stuck in a difficult place with soku. I'm better than nearly everyone on /jp/, and worse than nearly everyone on #hisouten. So either I get completely destroyed, or I feel like I'm bullying new players. If I host, I get hopeful naive jpers who don't have a good time, until "that guy" shows up and reminds me why I hate this game when played at a decent level.

I wish I still sucked, or cared enough to get actually good.

>Play against someone
>Win pretty handily every time
>want to play later
>person is hosting
>don't want to join because I'm afraid they won't want to play me
Maybe I should pick up a sub. But this cast...I don't want any of these characters.