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my ot culture

I left the house today. Been doing so consistently for the last 2 weeks, actually.

I think in my isolation I've developed and come to fully accept a completely nihilistic worldview. I no longer fear death as myself and everything is intrinsically valueless. Recognizing fear as nothing more than a cognitive self preservation mechanism has lead me to the conclusion that such emotions are of no practical value to myself and completely irrelevant to goals which I set. Allowing fear to dictate action and response serves only to impede upon progress of endeavor and should be regarded as nothing more than emotional hindrance. As a result, my social anxiety has become non existent and I feel kind of motivated to manipulate/dominate people out of a vague disgust for the rest of society. Willed confidence and tactful social interaction has become effortless and I've lately taken interested in making people react to me in different ways and observing the result. I still remain completely apathetic towards the pursuit and maintenance of any social relationships. People seem to suit me
more as valueless configurations of molecules that I can interact with as I see fit.

Does it come as a shock to you that the masses of normals are dull, instinctual apes that are easily easily manipulated? When I look into the eyes of another human I am met with the gaze of a fragile animal existing for only petty self-fulfilment, just as much as any of us on this board about cartoon fantasy lands.

Oh boy, I fucking love disorganized stream of consciousness posts.