/jp/ - Otaku Culture

>>44969535
You will never be a real youkai. You have no shark teeth, you have no pointy ears, you have no animal parts. You are a homosexual college student twisted by magic into a crude mockery of fantastical perfection.

All the “validation” and "fear" you get is two-faced and half-hearted. Behind your back Youkai mock you. Human society is disgusted and ashamed of you. Your “friends” laugh at your chuuni behavior behind closed doors.

Other humans are utterly unimpressed by you. Thousands of years of evolution have allowed humans to sniff out youkai with incredible efficiency. Even shapeshifters like Nue look uncanny and unnatural to a man. Your attitude is a dead giveaway. And even if you manage to abduct a human and take him to your home, you'll turn tail and return him the moment he wakes up.

You will never be happy. You wrench out a fake smile every single morning and tell yourself it’s going to be ok, but deep inside you feel the depression creeping up like a weed, ready to crush you under the unbearable weight.
Eventually it’ll be too much to bear – you’ll buy a rope, tie a noose, put it around your neck, and try and fail to plunge into the cold abyss. Your shikigami will find you, and tell you to stop being so overly dramatic. Then you'll go back to teasing the current Hakurei Shrine maiden. Her body will eventually decay and die, but she'll leave behind a legacy of happiness and several beautiful children. You will still be miserable and alone.

This is your fate. This is what you chose. There is no turning back.