/jp/ - Otaku Culture

>>19638858
I used to be able to abstain for months, and I only ended up a bit more perverted than before each time, slowly going downhill over the years. (I considered oral sex degrading once, never a thing to do with your waifu, as "it's the mouth she'd kiss our kids with"; then I slowly started fapping to the Touhous I once liked the most while imagining them doing that, one after another; now I get hard from the thought of kissing my waifu with her face still covered in my cum.) After I had a wet dream where I was willing to fuck something extremely disgusting (either a man or my stepmother in weird military cosplay), I decided to stop doing long nofaps. Maybe that happened later, I don't remember it clearly, as it was, like, 8 years ago.

On average, I fap once every 3 or 5 days, although I have a record of going at it 5 times in a single day, only achieved a couple of times just to test my abilities. Lately, though, I've been experiencing difficulties. When I don't fap for 5 days, I start browsing porn and half-consciously looking up exactly this kind of doujins on nhentai. About 15 days is the longest I have been able to last without busting a nut this year, and I only lasted so long because I had been travelling.

My OCR softly compels me to go deeper and deeper, and those who have it know it's extremely hard to combat and is impossible to actually cure. To suppress it, you need to go against all of the urges caused by the sickness WITHOUT being conscious of the fact that it exists and compels you to realize them. Give literally zero fucks about anything associated with it. And the fear of uncleanliness is the hardest to tackle completely because you don't actually mind washing your hands 10 or 5 times or using 3 sponges (one for the upper body, one for the groin, and for the legs, ass, and feet) when bathing, and doing the opposite sickens you.

I'm sorry for such a long post about myself.

>>18864536
A picture I found on Twitter in my eternal quest for nice Yuukarins. It presents Yuukarin in a naked vest. Apparently, she brought you a teapot of delicious tea to share outside. She's so kind!

>>18864540
Anon... >>18279822