/jp/ - Otaku Culture

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GoK

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I've been playing since around early April too, but I've gotten better, just slowly. I haven't been able to 1CC on normal yet but I can get close. Maybe in the next few months, then I'll work on lunatic and extra, though that'll probably take forever.

>implying tomorrow is Sunday

What? It's only 2 AM on Friday over here.

Anyways, I'll probably just do what I always do. Fap, sleep, play video games, browse /jp/, watch anime, read manga, read books, watch movies/TV shows (some 3D shit is alright), play VNs, play Touhou, save pictures, listen to music, stare at the wall, etc.

But maybe I should get a job or something soon. It's nearly August already.

I think September 2008. I went outside like three times since then, but I don't really count them since it was only trivial things like pissing outside.

I couldn't go outside during the day if I wanted anyways because the bright light would burn my eyes.

I am 26 years old. I am 6'2, 160lbs with a 6x6 inch penis. I have no job. I live at home with my parents. I dropped out of University. I have never had a girlfriend. I cannot approach girls. I am a virgin. I feel intimidated and inferior to women. I look at better looking men and feel absolute hatred towards them because of my terrible jealousy. I spend 8 hours a day on 4chan. I am depressed. I have constant anxiety. I wake up in the night with my heart pounding. I can't cope in social situations. I blush at the drop of a hat. I find it almost impossible to make conversation with people. I crumble under even the slightest amount of scrutiny. I have bad posture. I speak too fast in a monotone voice and people struggle to understand me. I have acne. I am obsessed with my appearance. I spend hours in front of the mirror picking fault with the most minor of imperfections.

I am paranoid people are judging me, making fun of me and criticizing me. I talk to myself constantly. I live in a dreamworld and fantasize all the time. I look to blame others for my problems even though I know deep down it is all my fault. I am still clinging to childhood even though it is long, long gone. I live in constant regret that I have underachieved in my life. I am bitter towards others who have succeeded. I feel that I am not in control of my own mind. I cannot stay focused or motivated on anything for long enough to succeed. I have chronic procrastination. I have a negative voice in my head that literally feels like another person dictating what a freak I am. All I have is blind hope that one day I'll turn things around. I have tried in vain many times to understand why I turned out like this but to no avail. I am what I am and I hate it. I wish I was free.

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