/jp/ - Otaku Culture

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes

(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0C7DHft8r-o

CRAAAAAAAWWWWLING IIIIIIIN MY SKIIIIIIIIIIIN

THESE WOOOOOOUUUUNDS THEY WIIIIIIIIILL NOT HEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAL

My first year I was taking as an IT major, but since I have to get basic courses out of the way ("We're ganna steal some more money by giving classes you'll never need."), I've only actually taken Programming 1.

I'm not particularly good at programming, nor motivated in continuing the path of an IT. It'd give jobs, but I don't think I'd be motivated enough to concentrate and actually do well in IT. In other words, I'd most likely fail along the lines and end up wasting money.

At the same time, I don't want to waste money by taking courses for a degree that won't even get me anything.

I feel both paths will just lead to debts that I'd be unable to pay off. Not to mention the fact that my mother is paying a vast majority of my tuition herself, and I'd feel guilty wasting that much money. At least if I'm just leeching off her, she's not investing huge sums of money with the hope that I'd make use of her sacrifice. She'd pay my living expenses either way, and I'm very low maintenance.

1 meal a day, don't need new clothes, I just hog electricity.

God, actually...
I'm sorry /jp/, I've just been feeling kinda down and confused these past few months. This is a pretty shitty thread. I needed to let out the bottled thoughts I've had somewhere. I'm too timid to even bring this up with my mother. I've no idea how she'd react to the thought of me wanting to drop out of IT and go into Japanese instead.