/jp/ - Otaku Culture

>>9843045
You see, it started when I got the idea to "rationalize everything" when I got into a Philosophy degree in college. I already left the idea of Christianity, and became an agnostic, and focused on the idea of pacifism and anti-capitalism, and for some reason I had a positive perception of the world. Later I fount out that a lot of my beliefs were wrong. People can't be convinced if you only talk to them, they are stubborn. A lot of people are evil. and so on and so on. It was a disappoint after another, like a falling castle. Eventually I realized that the alien stuff was hidden behind of my actions all the time. I didn't want to help people because I loved them, but rather because I want to save myself at the end of the world. I even fantasied of me being saved and everyone being left in a self-destructing world. And this was the hardest part. The image I had of myself was destroyed. I was not a good person, I'm not altruistic, I'm a selfish bastard.

Aaaand when I re-read the books that taught me the alien stuff, I founded (what a surprise!) that I had no base to believe in them.

>>9843031
No motivation, and I would think "does this really matter in the end?"
>>9843053
good point, I shouldn't be surprised.

>>8707291
are acid burns moe?