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>>38424582
>I have thought about suicide, many, many times, the earliest case being around 12-13 years old. I have never self harmed, nor have I attempted suicide, because I'm too much of a pussy and I am afraid of dying.

I wish I could make you understand all of the beauty of this world anon, But I fear you will never get it till the end. When nothing else matters in life you have to understand, The world keeps moving forward. The birds will still sing, The leaves will still sway from the wind long after you are dead. Don't you wish to see the world continue anon? Don't you wish to feel the warmth of the sun on your skin? Babes will call out for their mothers, Dogs will still bark to one another. Our lives are meaningless anon, Even if we have people that depend on us, That look up to us, That love us with every fiber of their being they mean nothing if you cannot find value in your life. Maybe it's because you've never attempted to take your own life that you cannot apperciate the true value it has. Your story hasn't finsihed being written anon, Why would you do yourself the disservice of cutting it short? You are still killing yourself anon, But you are simply taking the cowards way out. You refuse to live due to the past pain and the fear of new pain and so you let yourself decay in your room wishing to just not wake up one morning. Before you know it you're entire life will pass by while you waste away in that room, You'll think to yourself "Oh it's fine I'm still somewhat young!" Then one day it'll hurt to get up and you'll look in the mirror and see you have wrinkles and old hair and even then will you live? You'll probably say to yourself "I'm already so old it's over why should I even try?" Then you'll find yourself in a nursing home surronded by govemnt paid nurse who beat you and treat you like shit because they can. Is that the life you want for yourself anon? Where is your pride as a man? Did George Washington give up and allow the British to continue their tyranicall rule? FUCK NO! He did the impossible and crossed the Delware, Because in his heart he wanted freedom for his people but most importantly freedom for hisself. You have to keep on struggling until you find your purpose in life anon, Till the bitter end.

>Every single person I have ever been close with I have either pushed away, or they have betrayed me. This world has done nothing but hurt me

Does the world or anyone not treat you this way? This world is a cruel horrific place and most people have their own problems to care about you anon. Nobody will come and save you anon, Nobody will just walk up to you and be your friend. It is up to you to change that, If the world continues to hurt you then all you can do is keep moving forward. You owe the world nothing anon, You do whatever you have to to survive. Being alone isn't something that should be viewed as negative anon, Most people are fucking retarded and they'll do nothing but doubt you and your dreams. Hitler would never have become leader of Germany if he surronded himself with people all the time or people who just kissed his ass. Being alone is a great time for deep introspection and to see how your life is going.

>Look how pathetic I am writing about this on a 4chan thread, while my penis is sopping wet from cum from having just masturbated to Satoko.

... Don't describe your penis like that anon, It's really really fucking gay. It's okay to jerk off anon, Just don't spam the threads with this horny garbage.

> I have zero direction in life, am unemployed, fap everyday to loli girls, barely eat or drink and my muscles atrophied, so I look like a dishevelled lifeless corpse. At least I don't live with my parents. Enjoy this picture of Satoko.

Anon...I don't know your current sitition or where you live, But if you're really living a life where you feel like your drowning then just leave. I'm being serious grab your wallet, Your car keys, And just leave. I have over $2,000 worth of traveling equipment and savings just in-case I get tired of my life. Your room is draining you of your soul anon, If you cannot leave you house for college or work then the only way to escape is to leave. Having the choice of freedom can make you power through anything anon, You must overcome your fears and run. I hope you take some solace in my advice and if not then well go to the gym and stop hornyposting.

>>38428207
Unlike Rika you must remember that no one will save you from your pit of despair, It is up to your to drag yourself to freedom anon. You have the right attitude of struggling forward so I know you can do it anon! Fight on!