/jp/ - Otaku Culture

I want to post in this thread, really I do. My thoughts are just mixed up right now.
At my age I feel like I've just barely done the things you should as a human, but I've also gone right back to this life.
Honestly because I'm a mixed bag. Sometimes I feel fine, most of the time I'm easily annoyed by other people. I try to be nice.
Woke up to an alarm at 9:30am just to check my portfolio, bought a few calls and passed out until 1pm. I'm up almost $50 so far but money doesn't feel important.
It isn't important until you want things, and I don't really want anything, used to not having much.
A childhood friend of mine is getting married this year, I'm happy for him but at the same time I want to brb to gensokyo. That's difficult to complete though, I would know.
So I'm here. At home with a parent, a sibling, and said sibling's child.
I wanted to get out of here by the time that kid was in kindergarden so it wouldn't see what kind of human I am, now it's almost in middleschool. Damn near raised it for the first 3 years and had to teach it not to call me dad.
Lately I've been thinking though, it isn't impossible for a person my age to go back to school. If I had an actual income for awhile I might be able to do something like get my own apartment with someone I talk to daily.
Because sooner or later, time will run out. The comfy option won't be here. I'll go back to drug abuse until I find an escape when that happens.
>>35850732
I enjoy this post but I also enjoy my insanity. Escapism is needed to keep those bad thoughts away.
>>35851619
>do not work at kfc
I refuse to work at any food or food service related place.
Last "job" I had was for a contractor and let me tell you it was a blast, I mean it. The moment I got there I worked my ass off right until the moment we all left..... and the boss never called me back.
Makes you think there might be something wrong with you when something like that happens.

Returning to this one later.

oi