/jp/ - Otaku Culture

I feel lost, in relation to drawing. I feel this urge. An urge to draw in a specific way, which is different from the way I normally draw. It came to me in a dream. So I looked at various artists and couldn't find it. I went to /i/ and /ic/ and didn't find any drawings like it. On /i/ I observed a bunch of drawing recordings. Everyone drawings in the expected way. Like it's the natural way to draw. But this isn't it. I feel compelled to draw in a specific way, but I don't understand the way. I don't understand the method. How am I supposed to draw in a way I don't even understand? I can't take it. I sat down in front of a digital canvas for like two hours yesterday, attempting to understand what my heart is shouting me to do. I tried to draw, but just drew normally. So I erased it and tried again. And again and again. I can draw. That much is for sure. But it's normal, conventional drawing. Even if it has my own unique style, it follows certain basic conventions. It's not what I'm looking for.
I have to figure it out. I have to. Even though I don't understand the process, nor am I sure what the finished product even looks like. I have to.

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