/jp/ - Otaku Culture

>>28848978
I really wish I wasn't in this role since I'm only in it when it feels like I'm out of options after another bad streak of actions from others. My story is a bit too long but it can be summarized how it's after many wasted efforts and how a good amount of people have put their hopes into me. They still do, more or less, and I'm really glad someone still thinks of me. I just feel the pressure so I don't know how to respond perfectly without being worried over disappointing them. I just look back on some things and wish I could go back to how they were. It just depends on select few others for the cases that drag me down. I wish they could get my messages. I do work hard every day and everything should be great considering how it seems better for me now but I just miss some old things that I have never achieved. It includes some old friends too.
Maybe I really should change my mindset and finally take that step of going back to who I used to be. I just wish I could have a talk with the ones I wish to be able to interact with again. For now I'm just taking my time to prepare a good response to all the words of courage and actions that others have done for me.
I'm glad there's some kind people who take notice of those who need it and act on it. It's a trait that doesn't get appreciated enough these days. Nobody really writes to me anywhere and I don't have anyone to talk with for such things since I usually get ignored so I hope you don't get too creeped out by me being happy over any kind of attention.
Thank you.