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for anyone on the fence about getting the mind illuminated or meditating in general, i just wanted to share my current experience with you all. anyone not interested, feel free to ignore.

i had a really great 30 minute meditation session this morning, after not sitting for a while — and all day so far i’ve felt fucking amazing. it’s a feeling that can accurately be described as an innocent, causeless, child-like joy, and clarity.

my senses feel sharp, colors are brighter and more beautiful. the usual aches and pains in my body feel much more faint and aren’t bothering me. i’ve been able to genuinely feel happy for others and wish them well from the bottom of my heart (even coworkers i usually don’t fuck with).

as for japanese, i literally could do 2 hours of anki right now without complaining. this morning i spent near an hour nonstop reading a pretty difficult book i started recently. things that are usually in my japanese study experience, that haven’t happened since i meditated this morning:

- impatience, wanting to hurry up and finish the page/reviews
- judging myself or getting frustrated for not knowing all the words on a page
- over-focusing on the “study” aspect rather than relaxing and letting myself enjoy the language
- ignoring the fact that i’ve gotten better

i will say i’ve been meditating on and off for a while, so it’s not like this will happen after one day or anything. but for anyone interested in cultivating these kinds of states, i highly recommend taking up a practice.