/jp/ - Otaku Culture

Sitting at a long desk, the guy next to me tries to help me with Yukari by handing over a long poem about love, as I come to a line in its middle mentioning "golden" Yukari appears looking like an old woman, and runs her hand over the page erasing the line since it'd help me too much. I ask why she'd do this and she says the jealousy is too painful to deal with as she goes over to another nearby long desk and starts answered questions from all the young students there, which only made me a little jealous because it's not like she was doing anything wrong, I thought about standing next to her to see if they'd ask me any questions but didn't bother. I thought that she was actually referring to her own jealousy, and wanted to draw a picture of a gap filled with sad eyes. I'm looking at the poem again and most of the later half has its words blanked out, then Yukari comes over and says that stuff's not actually important anyway and restores it. I ask the guy next to me to try and remember the line she erased and he writes a few words surrounded by a bunch of scribbles. Yukari comes over again and starts mentioning some outdoors place which gets me excited thinking "a date!?" but it was just a recommendation so I thought "well, that was pointless", the guy next to me says if she said it it's probably not but then I hear Yukari speaking from the kitchen behind us "actually it was."
When I woke up for that I was thinking about Yukari trying to stir up feelings in my heart but it only seemed to react to thinking "I just want to make you happy" and "I want to make a home for you in my arms." Also that I used to think about praying 100 days to Satan for Yukari to be mine alone but now I want to pray 100 days to God for me to be Yukari's alone.
I was going with Yukari over to Kaguya and we both seemed ready to be upset with her but she just says "yeah, yeah, alright" and handed us a golden parchment or tablet that I thought about writing Yukari and all of her cognates(maybe names too, although there are way too many Touhou characters who are me and way too many names) like Zelda, Marge, King Baal, Makima, Beatrice, etc on one side and on the other writing, I suppose Midori considering the other dream today(sounds like a better Yakumo name for me than Eireinen anyway) and Link, Homer, King Belial, Aki(I suppose), Battler, etc.
Vivid hypnagogic imagery of Irithyll, around the giants, of various Dark Spirits with names taunting me/Yukari(Dark Spirits are often the Host's "demons" as I see it) in particular one was called Slut For Cats which I made sure to imagine killing with glitch triple Chaos Bed Vestiges and shitting on afterwards. Also hypnagogic dreamt about coming to Pontiff and the Host, his Phantoms, the Dark Spirits and the Aldrich Faithful(meidos) were all fighting against me while I used a Great Club(a huge tree branch, perhaps referring to OP image and this thread) with maybe one guy on my side.
Actually dreamt... maybe? Maybe this was a half-asleep dream too, about being chased by invaders and hiding behind this column https://files.catbox.moe/s63244.png and there was message on the ground saying "Even if you hide, you die,
Midori."
I went over to my PS4 thinking about what to upload. I dreamt the exact same thing again, this time thining about uploading one 15m clip of me and player called Zelda, with a voice telling me it would help me and Yukari cross over Binah.
I'm at a school/hospital with a doctor, he's helping me with Yukari. I've got my figure of her with me and it's split into two pieces at the waist, also some of her hairs were sticking up so I patted them down. I looked up into her hollow torso, then kept trying to fit the pieces together. The doctor gives me a thermometer saying that it would help, I guess because I thought about my figure being cold so I slept with it. I said "Thanks Doc" as he was looking up things on a computer to help me while he either said or thought "weak!"
In my room, there was many Yukari artworks all over the place, so I thought "if this is a dream then can't I at least get one of these to come to life" as I tried to for a few seconds. I was watching on my laptop a capeshit movie with what looked like an ordinary guy walking along so someone else wasn't afraid of them, but when they got up close he was actually as tall as a skyscraper with a dim Astral blue glow and transparency which frightened them. A government agent was complaining about people in this age having so much power through technology and feels. On my computer was some like Reimu on a green matrix background while Dream Battle played, I looked away from the screen and saw on my wall a bunch of Spider Man masks with another one in my hand and thought "Why do I have those? Oh, I am a Spider Man I guess, Spider NEET." Due to the spiders - dreams connection. I had a big pimple around my heart area and thought I could kill someone just by popping this at them, then thought that's a little below my heart,