/jp/ - Otaku Culture

>>13747273
I can't study systematically.

I'm always late for classes.

University people piss me off. Both students and professors.

learning shit I don't care about pisses me off.

I can't read or write anything. Whenever I try to write a paper, or study from a book, I get some sort of mental blockade and it costs me great effort to even get started.

I hate doing research.

I was grievously disappointed by every thing I tried doing-Japanese Culture was shit, International Relations were shit, Law was shit. I didn't care about any of that, and there was a powerful sense of life wasted.

I'm sick of standing in the queues just to do some paperwork.

I'm sick of sunlight-I always have my shutters down at my house and it gives me panic attacks if I'm outside too long. Can't function like that without drugs or anti-depressants. Last months of my last uni adventure where spent constantly drugged, and although I was able to attend classes without any mental strain, it didn't help me with doing actual studding one bit.

I hate how people look at me and judge me. Last time I went so far as to make a "perfect" image of myself-never using facial expressions, dressing in style, never talking to anyone about my interests or anything.
And ended up suicidal and on meds.


Fuck this shit. i never asked for it. I shouldn't have kept up with suffering in high school, and I shouldn't have done uni either.
Uni is better then high school, but it's still shit.

>>13747295
I would never be able to do that. I respect my hobbies.

After I started doing drugs I broke with my image and posted a shitload of memeshit and anime images on my previously empty facebook account as a giant "fuck you" to everyone who might have known me or thought to know me, but that's it.

>>13668983
I 1cc touhou 9 on Higanbana difficulty level, but I don't know if it's something since touhou 9 is pretty easy

Also, I am very close to 1cc'ing Touhou 3 on Hard, and that's something to me since Touhou is pretty difficult game in itself.

There is something about this 1vs1 games that I really love.