/jp/ - Otaku Culture

parents went through a violent divorce that lasted years, Dad drank, mom told me "dad would kill us if we seen" him constantly.

Was suicidal at age 9, was put on respiradone, prozac, something that starts with a k and finally benzos at 16 (3mg clonazapam a day). The stopped when they found me drooling on a bus, can't remember a couple months of my life due to permanent black out and drooling. Aparently a kid going through a divorce, getting told his father was going to murder him, is a chemical imbalance.

My mom works full time but has no friends outside of work, is extremely ocd and only watches reality TV.

My mom interdicted with everyone I hung out with (they were garbage people) but did not provide another peer group to bond with, I spent my child hood inside while my friends parties, got laid, drank, etc. I was that teenager that had to go in "When it got dark". We live in a subsided housing co-op so it does attract shit people, in her defense.

Grew up in daycare until 13. Started falling behind in school in grade 5 when they put all the "problem kids" in 1 class. They advanced me a year when struggling with the concepts and mother couldn't help me with the homework because she didn't understand it.

Dropped out of high school at 13 due to getting lynched for being a giant white pussy that was quiet all the time, lost my childhood friends same year I dropped out and just haven't come out of my room since (I am 26)

Never worked, never graduated, never drove a car, virgin, balding due to stress, no social skills, no marketable skills, no money, no friends, no coping skills, no life skills

Only one I talk to is my mother...haven't left my house since 2008~ when I had my pancretasis and my gangrenous gallbladder removed.

Tried CBT 4 times and it didn't work, gave up on everything. Still really anxious but getting really, really angry and bitter.

tl;dr
problems.