/jp/ - Otaku Culture

Each time I think about suicide I picture myself drilling a hole into my head with an electric drill. I don't think it's too conventional but you know how things are. I want my suicide to be bloody and messy. But I am not doing it yet, because I am fairly young (19). My life is mostly pain but I somehow live in hope that my future will get brighter over time. I also had a few eye-opening experiences tripping on LSD and mushrooms, perhaps achieving a greater consciousness will make me happy again. I'm planning to take a heroic dose of mushrooms this weekend.