/jp/ - Otaku Culture

Any (British Columbia) Canadians know how hard it is to get on the dole?

White, male, turning 26 soon.

Parents had a violent divorce when I was 6 years old -- dad was a drinker with anger problems and mom always would tell me I can't see my dad because he would kill us -- this tends to scare the shit out of a 6 year old.

Was treated by multiple psychologist / psychiatrists since I was about 6 years old. Was Diagnosed with Depression, Generalized Anxiety disorder with Agoraphobia. They prescribed me Prozac,Clonazapam (3mg a day,wtf) and respiridone (I took this at 16) and some other bezno I can't remember. Finally tried to prescribe me something that started with a "K" due to chemical imbalance bullshit before I told them to fuck off and stopped seeking help.


Cognitive behavior therapy didn't do shit besides make me more anxious and benzos are fucking Satan incarnate with the side effects -- didn't work either, can't remember 3 months of my life due to blacking out.

my mother suffers panic attacks too in malls and has no close friends either.

I started having problems in grade 6, went to high school and dropped out the first year (in grade 8, 13 years old)

Withdrew to my room where I spent 13 years playing Everquest, Video Games, jerking off, watching anime.

I woke up after sleeping 12 hours, rolled out of bed and into my PC chair, rolled out 12 hours later back into bed. I only ate and drank processed food when I wasn't jerking off, watching animu or playing vidya.

I used to weigh 250lbs at the start of this year but am now 183lbs. I walk an hour a night at 4am when no one is around but still suffer panic attacks.

I have never worked a day in my life, have no high school/GED, no drivers license... I am turning 26 soon.

what are my prospects? I still have my childhood psych correspondence but I don't know if my GP will sign off because he hints I am capable of chasing pussy even though they are all bitches and whores