/jp/ - Otaku Culture

Am I a loser if I don't care about girls because I'd rather cry myself to sleep thinking about my crush from 6th grade? Keep in mind I don't actually love the real person, only an idealized version of her I created in my mind back then. I've tried all sorts of humiliations to make her disappear, but nothing works. She's still perfect. A part of me keeps lamenting the fact that she's not my gf even though she isn't even real and the real girl was probably not that great anyway.

TL;DR: I'm obsessed with a tulpa of my childhood crush and it makes me depressed. I keep dreaming about her and no real women can even compare to her personality or looks.