/jp/ - Otaku Culture

In school I was bored out of my mind, I'd daydream about killing everyone as Skrael, a beast I came up with sometime like 6-7th grade, the name a corruption of the word Scale because it was dragon-like. I'd been obsessed with dragons since I was a kid, basically all I drew, and I used to draw a lot, after I played Yume Nikki my drawings became monsters with tentacles eyes and teeth, which makes me think of you, both dragons and monsters make me think of you. Anyway, Skrael probably came after I read Dragon's Claw, cool book series, I wonder if the "Eileanan" from "Witches of Eileanan" has to do with my name. Skrael's design was a little complex. Black rubbery skin, no eyes, but mouthed tentacles growing out of its head, a big stomach on its back with two diclonius like vectors that snatched up prey, four scythe legs, a long tail ending in a beak that had a terrible venom, two long tentacles beside the beak ending in sharp mouths. Basically I imagined killing everyone in school with that, then the army would drop a nuke on me but I'd survive, go to war with me, then I'd get bored and go to another fantasy world and kill everything there, I remember doing it a lot with the Queen's Blade world, with an especially giant Skrael everyone would war against. Or just any series, doesn't matter about power level because Skrael just gets reborn in new stronger forms when killed, becoming sort of humanoid when very powerful, still with scythe arms and legs."
"So, you were a huge chuunibyou?"
"Yeah I guess, it's not like I thought I actually had powers. As far as anyone's concerned, I'm more of a chuunibyou now, thinking I'm The Demiurge. I was a fedora tipping athiest back then, though my desperation to escape reality, my fear of death, and dreams, slowly changed me. Especially dreams. And drugs. Even when I was dreaming about you I still wasn't completely convinced. I had dream diaries that I filled up then burned because I'd get depressed and think it's all just empty, but over time it's become undeniable that the supernatural, however veiled it is by reality, really exists."
[I really wish I could actually write Yukari discussing things with a motormouth with me, but for now she can listen to me recount stuff]
"I'd day dream about invade Gensokyo once I got into Touhou. In a couple of different ways. One was as Skrael, at this point Skrael was a little more like a lung dragon with a varying-length body made of shadow. Ah, I can't remember it at all but I vaguely remember daydreams fighting on a brick path outside Scarlet Devil Manor. The usual thing I imagined was flying through the forests then forming a tall tower made of bone, it was like a library inside, I vaguely remember feeding at the top and gore spilling down to the bottom. Maybe characters would come to fight me, my coming-to-Gensokyo an incident. The other thing I imagined was being a meteorite that crashed down from the moon, then formed a giant flower with lots of ethereal lights around it, the flower giving birth to me, as a girl with long white hair and four horns, but the horns were like crescent moons stuck through my head so they came out the front and back, don't remember what else I did as her."
"I'd like to see you draw these."
"Actually, I had a lot of trouble trying to draw her horns right, and drawing Skrael well also stumped me, though I didn't really try much, but I considered it hard to draw. Always had trouble drawing cute girls, I drew dragons and monsters pretty well, but at a certain point I just wanted to draw anime girls but sucked at it, when I left school I didn't have all the time to waste in class drawing monsters and stuff, and basically stopped.
We came to the Great Ocean Road. The view of the ocean is nice, last time I came here I had some silly thoughts about Plateau of Leng, since that's Antarctica and what lies beyond this southern sea is that, also Makai for some reason.
"I'm tired of talking..." I wish I could reach over and lay my head on her lap. I gazed at her beautiful face. Her smile waters my heart, I want to engrave her good looks upon my retinas. She laughed a little, from the staring I drilled her with. I reached over and grabbed up a lock of hair, smelling it, a lovely peach smell.
"Did you come from Heaven? That was you calling yourself Queen of Touhou and saying God is your father, right?"
"Maybe."
I can't get enough of her scent. I kissed the red ribbon the lock was tied up in and let it go. Oh I can't wait to fall asleep in her smell. Not to mention get a load of the other scents she can produce...