/jp/ - Otaku Culture

Be 25, forced to move back home after college ended and I lost my job.

Was living a 'normal' life for 4 years, had a few friends, went out in public a lot, had a decent desk job making money, all in all I never thought about it until it was done

2 years ago lost my job, moved back home while I looked for a new one. Figured it'd be easy. Months pass, nothing, get comfortable with living alone, not having to deal with people. Friends occasionally asked me to go out places, usually decline and say I was busy.. More months passed, barely went to the store anymore to get my own food, let my parents do it because i couldn't be bothered..

Somewhere along the line I forgot what it felt like to actually talk to someone who wasn't family, Had to go out to the first job interview I've had since I lost my job, this was about 3 months ago. Had a sever panic attack when I got the the place, had to be taken to the hospital because I couldn't breath. Was almost as bad there because it was crowded..

Got home a couple days later, immediately comfortable back in my quiet room with no other people around to bother me.. Realize I'd become NEET and my 'normal' existence was pretty much gone.

Parents don't believe that being a shut-in can manifest in severe physical reactions.. Don't believe me when I say I have to re-think how I'm going to get work.. Probably destined to have a heart attack in the next few years being forced to go out and find a 'normal' job, because my parents don't understand..

Ontop of that, the only people I can talk to online have been fighting a lot lately, and it's left me pretty much emotionally dead because I can't deal with it.

Feels bad man.