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>>16483334
can you back the fuck off????

Love is manifesting in me once more but if my inner desert were to materialize, wouldn't its immensity crush me? There is enough energy in me to shake the world, enough madness to do away with light! So why do I feel this love? Isn't chaos my only joy, and isn't the idol which will cause my downfall my only pleasure? Are not my flights falls, and is not this crushing weight my love? Can I only love through self-destruction? Can there be so much poison in my love? Is it even love at that point? Have I not fought death long enough? Should idol also be my enemy?

Why is it that, when love is reborn in me, I become so anxious that I am ready to swallow the entire world in order to stop my love from growing? The weight of my love is like a hammer crushing me with its unbearable heaviness. Can the man who has looked death in the face still love? Can he still die of love?

I want to be disappointed in love so that I will have more reasons to suffer. Only love can reveal to me my true degradation!