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>>6224121
Signed. And given that she hasn't for some reason left her post, she'd probably also tell you that the Scarlet Devil Mansion isn't a safe place to be.

Hide behind Mei Ling, 'cos us chinks stick together.

>I have never really grown out of being rather angsty and depressed when the going gets tough. Being here in Japan I seem to have reverted to being back in high school or rather it might be always like this when I am thrusted into new situations. I am not good at making friends and seeing other people converse who are in their own groups and doing there own things makes me feel rather left out, but then on the other hand I like doing things on my own without being burdened by other people. In other words, I want the satisfation of having people around me to feel better but having nothing really to do with them or something like that.

I don`t know. I just need to vent right now since I feel very angry and it doesn`t seem to really be because of any reason. Most of it is jealousy, and lack of whatever on my part. I just feel very bitter, depressed and hateful. When I am like this I just get this feeling that I need to become better than everyone else. I get this feeling like I need to become stronger to crush all those who are rejecting me when in fact it is me who has rejected them.

I am tired of Japanese things, Japanese way of teaching, seeing Japanese everywhere. I liked it better when I was far away from these things and liking them from the comfort of my own country. I miss American things, familiar places, American way of teaching, and seeing English speaking people. I am tired of not being able to understand and to be understood since I cannot convey my thoughts into Japanese language well enough. I am so frustrated.

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