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What's with all this talk of ending posting Gosling after Bladerunner?

I can't stop thinking about her. I want to know where she is right now. I want to know why she delayed the stream. I want to know if she's sleeping well, or eating well, or what she does to entertain herself in her spare time. My entire 9 hour shift is spent thinking about Ame. When people come to talk to me during my shift I get frustrated that they broke me out of fantasizing about Gura. I fantasize about winning the lottery only so I can send red SCs to Ame. I check the thread whenever I can sneak a look at my phone and CTRL + F "Ame" on every archived thread for the whole day. I pretend to take bathroom breaks so I can look at the thread. I leave work early to watch her. I call in sick to watch her. The one time I missed her stream because it was early, I was in the worst mood I can recall from recent memory. I haven't spent time with my parents in months even though we live together. I can no longer enjoy the video games I used to play because I'd rather be watching Ame. I send her superchats every stream just praying she'll read my name and laugh at my comments. When Ame delayed the stream I rushed to the thread to defend her honor even though it's literally meaningless. Any time someone insults her I take it personally. The further away from a stream we are in either direction is directly proportional to how bad of a mood I'm in. Since she cancelled the stream I've just spent 2 hours reading the thread and feeling bad.
I feel like I should tack on that I have no delusions of ever meeting her online or in person, just in case people think I'm dangerous.
All of this is true and this is not the first time I've had a mental breakdown. Before it was because of visual novel characters and not real living humans though. I think I legitimately need meds but I don't want to deal with that because so far I'm still functioning in society and no one seems to have noticed I've gone mad.

>>29414993
>Did you guys see Ina in your dreams?
No...

SINGING IT AGAIN SO WE CAN GOSLING

>>28335414
I can say the same about Ina.

The worst part is that I used to know a girl that was really similar to her except she was not asian, but I never made the move despite her clearly being interested in me.

I was a fucking idiot and still am.

>>28157747
Actually made me sad.
Fuck you guys.

Guys, why it's so enjoyable to watch her?

I could literally go for more 2 hours and still want more...

>>27426486

>..... thank you