/jp/ - Otaku Culture

http://zoiq.rainender.com/

this entire blog has a fuck load of toohoo albums, and a few undergroud rap based on his tastes. he also has some hard techno/hardcore/dnb/trance/psy mixes, and even continues into classical, psy/goa trance, jazz, ambient, downtempo and shit.

no an advertisement, i down own it, its just a good site.

Also, been a "hiki" for about 6 years now, no exaggeration.

After being kicked out of high school, I entered an extreme seclusion that has persisted since. I left high school with no friends, and quickly became socially inept to the point where I can't do anything. It has been 6 years and I feel I have the neurological social skills of someone whom is 16, rather than 22. To make matters worse, I don't even have family I can talk to, since I live on my own with disability money for my schizo-affective disorder. A pathetic existence, but it seems to be my destiny. No matter how many times I try to fix myself, nothing ever works.

I'm content this way, though. 6 years alone and you learn to live with yourself. You find the time to analyze humanity, and see what is wrong with it, as a whole and on an individual level. You end up hating people yet yearn to be with them.

What of the future, I have no idea, but I can easily see myself being a pathetic loser working some bad job for little to no money, surviving off food stamps and handouts. I don't want to live this way, but I don't want to commit suicide or anything like that.

At least I have 4chan though, but even this can get boring. ;_;