/jp/ - Otaku Culture

>>10287837
She has a little less chance than anyone post PoFV, may a miracle happen.

One day I will have kids with a woman I love and I'll value them more than my life and I'll spend all my time playing with the kids and loving my wife.

The fact that this sentence would have sense if this wasn't the XXI century makes me cringe.

I'm the only one who feels bad when sees genderbent Touhous?
Like something very precious was stolen from you.

Loneliness and pain make you strong.

If they don't like you don't try to force yourself upon them, enjoy it like cold drops of water running down your spine.

My parents hate me because I wasan asshole to them for almost 20 years, I understand their hatred, I tried to fix our relationship but it's not possible and I know why after all the shit I've done to them, so I'll try to live with it and hope one day they pardon me but I'm sure it's not gonna be soon.

The only thing I'd like to say to everyone else is to take care of your parents and, if you're a Neet/Hikki, don't hurt them too much, you'll regret it.

>>9568329
Sometimes is better to play saint and reject any human contact as you were protecting others from you, you were not born to have friends or people, it is not your nature and your life is prove of it.
Trying to force it onto yourself and others will not generate nothing but pain and remorse.

Roll in your misery and feel pleased for not spattering anyone else.

>>9471400
Where is love.....

They hate me with fervor, after my last fuck up he told me that he wished for me to not have been born and then proceeded to disinherit me.

>>9146578
Yeah, I know that feeling since I spent years playing brood war surfing through small IRC communities until I finally got tired of it, thought SCII could revive the feeling but it wasn't like it, instead it felt like a turd straight into my nostalgia.

I still play W3:FZ ladder but it's gonna die soon too and there's no good AI for it, feels more than bad.

Life is shit, the only good thing about being human is that you can rest your back in others and share human warmth, if you can't love yourself then you need others to love, if you're not happy how you're now then drop your pride and seek it. Love is something beautiful that can fix broken hearts, anon.

>>8947540
I don't have.

He did one too many benchpresses and smoked one too many rocks and passed on man..
Caius Cosades was buried exactly the way he wanted: Shirtless with a Skooma pipe in one hand and a lockpick in the other.
He will always be my eternal friend.
Some people made Hlaalu manor their home, others that one house in Vivec.
Not me, I slept in Caius Cosades house every time.
He was always there, watching over me like a shirtless stoned batman.

You sit down in the floor, resting your back in the side of your bed with a bottle of cheap liquor in one hand and a colt revolver with a single bullet in the other, you don't know how much time you've spent like that, the floor is no longer cold and your limbs feel relaxed, crying is no longer a effort, tears comes out of your eyes fluently. You throw the bottle against the wall and swear a last time, the relaxation has been supplanted by disdain.

It's about time.

Then he/she/it appears from behind and wrap it's arms around you with tenderness, the gentle touch is enough to stop your frenetic muscles from lifting the gun over your tummy, how is it even possible, time passes and your positions don't change, it's a warm feeling, but you've suffered for a long time and denying your end is like denying all those years of sadness, you tell it that once you're free you'll do it, that doesn't matter how hard it tries to stop you.

It takes a few seconds to answer, as you see one of the hands around you open you see another colt bullet.
-This is my bullet, and your death is the trigger, please I don't want to die.

Something like that must be happiness, I agree with >>8659596, the stronger feelings are born from contrast like the brightest white is surrounded by black.

>>8562287
Neither I do, holy shit why do I miss my family on valentine more than in Christmas.

I got robbed 2 days ago, now I feel like someone is going to burst through the door and murder me, double dose of alprazolam and a weapon near just in case.

Another who bites the dust.
I'm the only who has a feeling of this comfortable world we've been living in crumbling slowly but without pause, it's overwhelming at times like this.

It's done, look at the links
http://rs.4chan.org/?s=&from=%2Fjp%2F
;_;

Do you find any particular reason why people is mean to you? I can't understand why people hate me and keep trying to make my life miserable, I always try to go unnoticed and put a smile when talking to someone even if it's a horrible day yet people keep hating me for the simple reason I'm alive because that's the only thing I do in front of them, is not like I interact with them because I want.

I'm not killing myself because I'm scared of death, looks like something black, void, moist and painful that won't let me go deson't matter how hard I struggle .
What have you experienced that is worse than this I've described?
Or do you have a particular point of view that makes the death look like something desirable?

>>8397246
So, this is what kids feel when they discover who's Santa, fuck you.

The only person i've met IRL that somehow shared my interests was a kid of my age, 13, and happened to be a DB fanboy who used to welcome me trying to shot a kamehameha and then ask me to do that fusion thing/dance, he was kinda sticky and always in problems due to being an arrogant little dick, one day a car ran over him and he spent 2 months in the hospital, thanks to it he forgot about me, the fact is that he didn't speak to me anymore.
Anything more than that, karma has been a bitch for 7 years and I've never met a people who shared one of my interests outside the internet, my only 2 friends I met in HS are gone and no family neither so now I feel like I would drink something with him, I even remember his name, Adrian.who I used to despise... now I miss the joie de vivre of that dumbass; _ ; Do you think Touhous like touhous?

>>8353006
With all the Touhou stuff there should be more than jp users than other boards but then you think about the size and lose hope.

>>8353030
I know that feel but long time ago I realized I was born to be hated, I don't fit anywhere and no one loves me and no one ever will. Take prozac and alprazolam then deal with it.

Don't tell cruel lies OP

I'm broken inside, I had family issues, forced me to mature too fast and developed more intelligence before time, neglected other kids becuse they were happier and dumber than me so I could roll around in my own misery, as time passed by they reached my level and I no longer felt smarter but the loneliness was the same or even worse, grown as socially dysfunctional teenager with no friends.

Now I'm 20 and my family no longer talks to me, no friends, no gf, nothing, and if it couldn't be worse I'm starting to lose taste and pleasure in the videogames, manga, comics and anime that used to give colour to my life, waiting for a emotional outbreak strong enough to kill myself.

I don't consider myself weak, other people by this time would have killed themselves already, stronger ones would go through the bullshit and be happy.

I just feel like I should had never been born.

No family.
I was an asshole to them until they left me, then realized what I lost. ( ._.)