/jp/ - Otaku Culture

I spend most of my time at home and rarely go out. The majority of my life is spent online. I don't know if I'm happy or sad. I have a lot of problems dealing with people and anxiety. Medications has helped so much in the past few years it's like I'm released from a prison of anxiety and fear. Though, I still can't completely function in a normal work environment. After lots of attempts to change, to get used the real world, I just gave up and have stayed inside. Maybe one day I'll be normal.

For now, what I love doing though, what keeps me from offing myself, is learning Japanese and reading Japanese websites like 5ch, sometimes futaba, chiebukuro, etc. That challenge to understand those sites without having to deal with people face to face is great. One day I hope to be able to talk to some in real life but for now all I can handle is online interaction.

One day I will reach a point that Japanese will no longer be a challenge. Then what shall I do? I don't know. But for now I am enjoying the journey while my parents keep me taken care of.

Another dream I've had is to be the one who scans raws and uploads them to the internet but in the finest quality and quicker than everyone else. Maybe that'll be what I do next.

Weird dreams, huh? I am so thankful to have a such a supportive family that I can make these dreams a reality.