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>>10283635
Sex change hormones, antidepressants made me just kinda "numb", in that I didn't want to kill myself but I felt I had no need to improve my situation.

I stopped taking them as a 'bargaining chip' in an attempt to get the hormones. The thing was, I was diagnosed as having 'high functioning autism' aka assburger :DD when I was very young. I was raised as an autistic shit and took the form of one. I never realized I could improve my situation. It took smoking marijuana to let me realize my made up social inhibitions.

I'm definitely not proud. I live in the middle of nowhere, no car, no jobs; I guess I still have the pent up frustration.

All I ever fucking look forward to is scoring weed. I have no fucking goals. I have one possible link out of this life, but I'm not sure if this one will fail me like my last chance did.

I'm in a much better situation than a lot of this board, but man.

>>10251581
>>10251585
Damn, that's pretty hot

Though, ever since I've started HRT my sex drive has changed. Before, I'd think about sucking cocks and though pussy was disgusting, now I think about cocks AND pussy. Weird shit.