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>>10191441
I'm a weirdo
What the hell I'm I doing here?
I don't belong here...

>>10060234
>¹ - FEEL lifestyle will be contained in only one thread, so the board won't be flooded with personal threads.

Look, OP, when I was 16-18 I was full on NEET highschool dropout tier, and even I had the common sense to at least smoke weed instead of drink to deal with my "problems."

Now I'm gonna tell you a secret, that I hope you heed since you all ready have shown disregard for your body.

Use meth. It has its ups and downs. I've posted on here like I am now (spun out of my mind and feeling happy) and I've posted when I was crashing and left giant sob stories about why I started using meth and how it's "destroyed" my life.

It's not easy, some days you'll think it was mistake, but other days you will see with crystaline clarity that it has improved you. I'm employed (a legal job at that), I am starting college next semester, and most days I don't even care about tfw no qt gf.

inb4 i get called a troll. seriously, do it op

I saved this picture earlier

I was also reticent towards the use of medicine when my depression started to spiral. I value my chemical balance, everything that makes me who I am.
But when your brain is not even behaving like you want it to, there's little one can do. It's just another disease, something that can't be willed away.

I've been on Lithium Carbonate, Escitalopram, Citalopram, Lamotrigine. The thing with these sort of medication, specially SSRI, is that there is no panacea. Basically they start trying and see what dosage you react to better, side effects presented, and if it's even working.

The worst was the shakes caused by the Lithium. It's pathetic, to try to eat some soup and have all of it fall because you can't control your hands.

If you're seriously depressed, the sort of where all enjoyment is sapped away, seek help. Talk to someone about it, share your feelings, seek a professional that is willing to hear you and all of your problems and progression to work with.

Personally, I've been going through so many of them this past year that it all starts to blur together. I still have issues at times, and present some really annoying side effects, like lack of appetite (most food gives me nausea now, which is like a really bad joke because I love eating), lack of libido, some insomnia/hypersomnia. Overall, I prefer the drugged out me that still has a chance to get over things than the depressive me that closes himself until everything is beyond solution. But the worst thing I could have ever done is of course to think "hey, I'm feeling better" and stop taking the meds. SSRI have that, can't drop them cold turkey, or the depression caused will make you laugh at the original.

Oh, also Zoplicone for when I have serious insomnia. These pills are the ones that really freak me out. Take it, knocked out for 8-10 hours. Plus they can be addictive, which scares the shit out of me. They're the last resort.