/jp/ - Otaku Culture

I highly suggest not taking up a drug habit. This will cause an imbalance in the cycles of your life, where you will be craving nicotine/MAOs and be forced to deal with that addiction as the perceived physical and emotional need comes and goes.

People who have not been really depressed as in clinically depressed for years like me cannot understand.
The difference between being sad as a normal reaction, and being depressed is HUGE.
Just as a small sample, today I've been browsing the net, playing games, masturbating, chatting with internet people, listening to music, exercising, eating well, things I'd normally enjoy. But I was on the verge of tears, literally tearing up all day. I just push through but do you think that's normal? I feel dizzy from the emotion, it's like my brain is sinking, and I feel compelled to kill myself for no reason. It does not feel like when I was healthy; I was not upbeat all the time, and used to get really sad when terrible things happened to me (and they did), but those were normal emotions, this feels different, and it never goes away no matter what you do, it's always creeping inside.

To anyone saying man up, I man up everyday when I wake up and go through my day feeling super sick with a smile on my face. Do you go to hospitals to tell people to stop whining and get out of bed too? you're fucking retarded.

The intellectual's sickness since only the self-aware and intellectual can feel sad about itself.

>>10647464
but im not a slut.....

I AM NOTHING WITHOUT PRETEND
I KNOW MY FAULTS AND I CAN LIVE WITH THEM
I AM NOTHING WITHOUT THE MAN, I KNOW MY FAULTS BUT I CAN HIDE THEM

I'LL STILL KEEP MY BABY TEETH IN THE BEDSIDE TABLE WITH MY JEWELRY
YOU STILL SLEEP IN THE BED WITH ME, MY JEWELRY, AND MY BABY TEETH

[guitar sounds]

I DON'T NEED ANOTHER FRIEND WHEN MOST OF THEM I CAN KEEP UP AT ALL
I'M PERFECTLY ABLE TO HOLD MY OWN HAND BUT I STILL CAN'T KISS MY OWN NECK

I WANTED TO GIVE YOU EVERYTHING, BUT I STILL STAND IN AWE OF SUPERFICIAL THINGS
I WANTED TO LOVE YOU LIKE MY MOTHER'S MOTHER CAN

CIVILIAN
CIVILIIIAAAAN

[guitar sounds]

Mostly talk. For the last months I've been forcing myself to do little trips to museums, shopping malls, cinemas or general tourist locations.
Going outside is pretty damn scary but afterwards I'm always glad I did it. I'd love to have someone to go with me to make it less scary.
My little adventure abruptly end every time I come home having someone to talk about it afterwards would be nice.

Also, I wish there would be someone I could hug and just cry.

>>9976961
Oh, anon! I'm so sorry for being so dumb and I'm really thankful for you trying to help me. But I still don't understand!

>>9951331
Damn...! But why?

I don't know Japanese and I don't have anyone to play with

>>6779024
He looks mean!

>>6060321